_____________________colours seem to fade.
Friday, April 27, 2007 ; 10:54 AM
i'm so in ♥ with this mango empire-cut silk dress, which was also featured in cleo! but i'm still thinking if $90's over priced for such a plain dress? hmmmmmmm. but it's so pretty!
okay, off to school now. school starts in an hour.. and im so gonna be late!
okay, off to school now. school starts in an hour.. and im so gonna be late!
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________so surreal.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007 ; 10:31 PM
school has been really monotonous. i cannot put in words how plain and bleak it is sometimes man... only thing great about it is the after-school activities! today, walked around town (as usual) with chris when we were supposed to "study"! and we caught 200 Pound Beauty in the evening! surprisingly very nice. (: sort of funny and touching...
and the weather's frigging cooling today.. and everyone's falling ill. hah. i'm having a dry throat, runny nose, and aching neck and joints. great.. ): my cheeks feel hot too. brrr.
TOI I HOPE YOU'RE FEELING BETTER
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________don't pretend you'll ever forget bout me
Wednesday, April 18, 2007 ; 10:48 PM
for a moment today when i saw a group of people in my class mugging and doing tutorials during break (when there isn't even any specific major tests coming up!), i felt like quitting school. i felt so shitty and stressed up, and i felt so mad at myself for being so lazy and not even touching my work like them. the work, the timetable, the tasks. argh. then i thought, omg i should've just not gone to jc in the first place. then again, if i've endured through this shit over a year, i might as well go through to the end. damn. moreover, jc's a stepping stone to the university.. i just hate the journey through it.
anyway, on a lighter note, i got my eyelet cutting shoes from isetan! sort of looks like the one from Miss selfridge which was almost twice the price. hah. usual shopping with chrissy, plus we bumped into kimchew! and she joined us. she's chris's childhood friend too. :)
kay, 'nuff said. shall try to do up math or chem tutorials now or something. funny how i dislike doing my tutorials in class and following through it during lessons. i'd rather complete em all at once at home instead la.
note to self: stay positive.. STAY POSITIVE!
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________way back into love.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007 ; 10:29 PM
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
Oh oh oh
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
the song way back into love from music & lyrics soundtrack! so romantic. :( it's such a sentimental piece, and so rare for a genre today.
gave school a miss today.. janelle gave me that idea. the periods today were quite useless.. hah. studied a little with her at changi airport.. haha not so productive but did some tutorials still lah, and loads of eating. shiat. haha. crystal jade bread shop's bread are damn nice. then down to town in the evening to meet bitch! (: got this F21 lookalike top for like a steal! yay shopping. gonna go arab street to get some chapalangs soon.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________i only wish that there was more than that.
Monday, April 16, 2007 ; 10:21 PM
in need of, more more more more retail therapy, please! :( i've been burning ginormous holes in my wallet already. but who cares? if it makes me feel better. :) bitching and girly outings. whining and emo-ing. whatever it takes to keep me hyped up. it seems so hard to find my comfort zone now.. everything just feels foreign. there's something out of place. tsk. i think i think too much. must be my period.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________the take over, the break's over.
Thursday, April 12, 2007 ; 11:43 PM
Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say that I need You
This is the way
This is the way
That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never thought I could fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad
I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too
All of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say that I need You
This is the way
This is the way
That I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
Hello, good morning, how you been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never thought I could fall like that
Never knew that I could hurt this bad
I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
fluctuating moods. i knew it. my monthly period is coming. dinner at thai express plus 30 mins of shopping with bitch. (: she never fails to make me smile. dinner was brief but enjoyable, then we rushed down to marina sq by 9pm, only to find half the shops already closing! so we were like doing speed shopping, scanning thru stuffs in mango/zara/topshop/missselfridge/any-other-shops-unclosed as fast as we could. by 9.30pm most were closed! then camwhored for i-dont-know-how-long-but-i-think-its-2-hours! cos we left at 11.30pm.. gosh. i miss our adventurous Marina Bay picnic trips we used to have after school 2 years back. haha(: oh all the mad things we used to do..
speaking of giving school a miss, school has been rather boring, or should i say, depressing. i've to admit i think my PMS caused me to say some nasty things or make the wrong judgments.. but apart from that, sometimes i wish i could be more understood. but then again, i know your situation and how it's been coming. i should learn to be more independent, more reasonable, more receptive to changes, and, i don't know, just probably, expect less.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________why goodbye?
Sunday, April 08, 2007 ; 9:53 PM
MOS yesterday with toi. preena and qian pangseh! i didn't know there was free entry that night.. so the crowd was like whoa...
and and and, my new cam i got today! in replacement for my Konica Minolta Xg which i accidentally dropped into the toilet bowl. yeah, dumb. Casio Exilim S770 in blazing red, which is like SUPER slim, and super hawt! love my parents. ;Dthen lunch/ dinner at Vila'ge at heeren basement with badminton seniors and haowen. haowen came down despite having a bad tummy cramp! oh how i miss them man.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________For one more day.
Thursday, April 05, 2007 ; 10:11 PM
caught The Reaping with songyao and james today after school. haven't really hung out with them since last year! my gosh. the first hour of the movie was quite slow-moving, and i even slept, until the mid where things got spookier, and urm, way more gross! some effects were a little too fake. but wasn't such a bad show overall. it's a little like The Omen and The Exorcist combined..
sigh, feeling kinda cranky tonight.. i've been comparing how the way things are now, and how they were a few years back; and i realised, some things just change and can never be the same again? like, no matter how hard you try to alter or relive the good old times, there'll always be something different. different preferences.. different mentality and mindset.. different lifestyle... everything's changing.
everyone's changing.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________Chadchan, July 2004 - April 2007
Monday, April 02, 2007 ; 7:38 PM
Down to PS to meet jaslyn after 109357438 years! (: i bumped into like so many ppl there all around the same area! first i saw qibin with his choir friends, then chris popped out, then joseph (that ex butch? i forgot her real name) walked pass, then saw my sis&david. all within a period of 5 mins. whoa. had dinner and all. and and and, it was a super last minute decision to stayover at my place! had loads of fun the whole night drinking, getting all hyper, and um, KTVing? oops. deprived people. We only slept at 4am and nua-ed the whole of sunday.
On a heavier note,
Chadchan passed away that afternoon. ): My mom saw her last breath. But well, i guess it was time for her to go anyway.. Got her since July 2004. Gotta admit she really has a long life for a dwarf hamster of almost 3 years? Most can't live up to even 2.5 years. My comp crashed recently so all my past photos of her are gone! ): booooo.
R.I.P. )))):
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y