_____________________
Tuesday, November 30, 2004 ; 9:10 PM

i finally got to watch the incredibles.. haha. it's quite funny lah. went out with bitch today. everyone's like either working or grounded or with their love. and i just had to find bitch to rant and all since we were both single, lonely, bored, and very free. haha.. well, there's nothing much i can do other than shopping and maybe trying to learn a maths from mom. -.- since she doesn't want me to work. bought a top from esprit! i've just realised i've grown out of those raiserbacks.. those three hole tops and all. i'm in need of jeans!

okay. it's sg idol final showdown tmr. taufik has to win! period.

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_____________________
; 1:09 PM

"It's all because of you, I'm feeling sad and blue. You went away, now my life is just a rainy day. And I love you so, how much you'll never know. You've gone away and left me lonely.. Untouchable memories, seem to keep haunting me. Another love so true, that once turned all my grey skies blue. But you disappeared, now my eyes are filled with tears, and I'm wishing you were here with me. Soft with love are my thoughts of you, now that you're gone, I just don't know what to do. If only you were here, you'd wash away my tears, the sun would shine once again you'd be mine all mine. But in reality, you and I will never be. Cause you took your love away from me.. I don't know what I did to make you leave me, but what I do know is that since you've been gone, there's such an emptiness inside. I'm wishing you'd come back to me. If only you were here, you'd wash away my tears, the sun would shine once again you'd be mine all mine. But in reality, you and I will never be. Cause you took your love away from me. Oh, you took your love away from me. "
wishing you were here, bsb. nice song!

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_____________________it gets harder everyday.
Monday, November 29, 2004 ; 10:06 PM

i feel inferior, all of a sudden. something's just bothering me but i don't know what. sigh. :(

"I don't think I can take it, I dont think I can make it. I just want this to go away, trying to be someone that you know your not, it gets harder everyday. All the lonely days, there's no one left to love. You wish life would go away. Now i'm trying to fake it, I just cant seem to shake it. I just want this to go away. I know one day i'll get through this, I know one day we'll be done. I know one day i'll find a way to see you.. Trying to be someone that you know your not, it gets harder everyday. All the lonely days, there's no one left to love. You wish life would go away, trying to be someone that you know your not, it gets harder everyday, it gets harder everyday.."

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Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________digicam!
Sunday, November 28, 2004 ; 5:53 PM

YAY!! MY PARENTS BOUGHT ME A DIGICAM ALREADY! :D WEEEE.. its a Konica Minolta Xg. quite slim. i'm a happy kid again. :)
anyway i gotta go to cousin's house, ciaos.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________zell's confirmation at IHM
Saturday, November 27, 2004 ; 10:29 PM

went for zell's confirmation today with nic. saw gerald, regina, eunice, rae, and alot more getting confirmed too. haha. there were so many people that i couldn't even find her after the mass. oh wells.
anyway, argh! i keep changing templates.. toi said the previous one was kinda messy. this one's like so plain. x( gonna change soon.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________bridget jones diary!
Friday, November 26, 2004 ; 9:37 PM

i caught Bridget Jones Diary today! we were supposed to watch the incredibles but there were no right timeslots.. it was nc-16 but luckily we managed to get in. didn't watch the first season of Birdget Jones Diary though, but it wasn't really a follow-up. the show's nice!!! it's really funny! was laughing almost half of the time. i'll rate it 8 out of 10. lol. though i didn't catch the ending part, cuz my friend had to go off.. and i wouldn't wanna choose watching alone? lol.

before that i went bugis shopping with my sister. i can't even remember when was the last time we actually went out shopping alone together. maybe early this year? hmmm. but i knew it was fun today because there weren't any quarrels while shopping. ha. sister paid for my flip flops from U.R.S. too! i love that pair! to the extent i wore it right after buying it. haha.. :)

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________can't sleep..
; 11:29 AM

it's so cooling cuz it's raining. but thanks to toi i can't go back to sleep anymore! :( anyway, i've changed the template yesterday. got kind of sick of the previous one. hah.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________shopping!
Wednesday, November 24, 2004 ; 7:05 PM

went with bitch to zara today to get our tops we reserved yesterday. haha. we were supposed to collect and go, but we ended up trying new stuff there again! which .. makes me wanna buy more! but i bought the one i reserved only. ha. oh, and my parents told me they're gonna buy a digicam for me for my birthday provided i study really hard (which i don't usually do- but i will try!). :) yay!

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Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________saw!
Tuesday, November 23, 2004 ; 8:40 PM

i finally got to watch Saw today!!! went out with twinnie regina.. bitch came along after that. she didn't dare to watch it actually, but after much persuasion by me, she did. hah. hey we paid for her ticket okay. so she had a free movie. we were deciding on either Taxi or Saw, but Taxi had only the front row seats left.. so we pretty much settled on Saw. moreover the ticket seller at Lido were senior citizens, who don't really care much whether you're 16 yet or not. and yeah. jaslyn screamed at some parts of the movie when the ppl were getting killed, as though she was the one gonna be killed! haha. the movie wasn't as gruesome as i thought though. but i liked it anyway. :)

after that we spent almost 2 hours in taka's zara trying on clothes. ha. we were like going in and out of fitting rooms for almost 10 times. and the worse thing was that we were gonna use jaslyn's atm card to pay for our tops and when we were gonna pay, her card just refused to be nice. uhh!! had some error, so we ended up not buying. but we reserved them. met dad and he gave them a ride back home.

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Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________exit to exit.
Monday, November 22, 2004 ; 3:50 PM

"Was it the little things I left unsaid? The thoughts are wrapped around my head, in love, in life. Could it be our time was incomplete, someone thats just bent to need enough inside. And i've lost my direction. Where do i turn? You wanted something more than this, fell down for someone else's kiss. I'm lost without your light. So i drive, i don't know why, but i drive, from exit to exit. Could it be the taste was bittersweet? Well it all comes down to your defeat. So high, so low, crash and burn we all fall down. And i can still hear the sound of love run dry. And i've lost my connection. What have i learned? Someday i won't be lost, Someday i won't miss you, Someday i'll understand, But for now you're taking over me. "
(exit to exit, ryan cabrera.)

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Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________olinda's out?
Sunday, November 21, 2004 ; 11:36 AM

how outrageous. how is olinda any way worse of than sylvester?! olinda has a much clearer and sharper voice than sylvester, and everyone knows that sylvester sang so terribly last week. are the people in singapore voting for sylvester just because of his looks? oh give me a break! anyway, it's obvious who's gonna be the sg idol already since olinda is out. HA.

anyway, happy birthday to sheila lohhhh. :D

yes. just woke up awhile ago. slept around 11pm last night and woke up at 1.30am.. i couldn't get back to sleep. i had to occupy myself by writing my diary and reading the whole book of cleo mag. was planning not to go back to sleep anymore cuz it was already morning. only until 6.30am that i could sleep. haa.

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Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________sheila's bday celebration.
Friday, November 19, 2004 ; 3:22 PM

my internet explorer really sucks. :(

i'm home. i can't believe i actually went for a math this morning. hoho. just felt like going for my attendence.. dont wanna come back to school next year with so many teachers coming after me for medical certs.

had an early bday celebration for sheila after that. went to her house at around 11 plus and she was still sleeping like a log. was a short one at noon cuz some weren't free in the afternoon. had choc cake which was like whoa! ;)

blyss, sheila, beryl and maybe qi are gonna work. they're making me feel like working too. but i'm not sure if i want to. i want more cash, yet i don't feel like commiting so much time on work. mom doesn't really encourage cuz she wants me to study and buck up during the hols and catch up with the syllabus. i was considering that fact too. so yeah, still considering.

met bestfriend after that and ate lunch in cp. she's coming over later after her tuition. anyway, toi's going aus tonight. she said she will miss me! HAHA.

i caught my hamster sleeping in sucha cute position. so cuteeeeee! haha. notice the layer of fats!



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Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________
; 2:30 AM

i can't get to sleep. :(

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________shutter
Thursday, November 18, 2004 ; 10:27 PM

sylvester sang horribly tonight in sg idol! mann. he should go out this round.

anyway, i watched Shutter with toii today. we were supposed to watch Saw.. we actually asked a couple to buy the tickets for us cuz the ticket sellers didn't want to sell us the tickets unless we show them our ic. -.- we happily got the tickets and the ppl tearing tickets outside the cinema demanded for our ic! can't they just act blur abit and let us in? i don't think by doing that would they get into any trouble right. grr. so this nice guy at the ticket counter allowed us to change for another movie.. heh. anyway shutter's quite a nice show. i still wanna cacth Saw and The Incredibles!! i heard both are nice.

toii and i are having some war on msn. she's spoiling my name! oh yeah. i haven't mentioned. i just learnt that my primary school bestfriend is going to transfer to sjc! wee! i've not seen her for sucha long time! she's going to 3g next year..

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Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________the holidays..
Wednesday, November 17, 2004 ; 5:19 PM

im home. went out with bestfriend cuz she had to get a skirt for her confirmation. we couldn't find any nice ones at heeren and taka, so we went over to suntec and citylink.. i bought a volcom wallet in citylink's flash and splash! :)

skipped school today.. cuz there was only a maths. hmm. received a call from toii around 20 minutes after i woke up this morning, "hey open your door. i'm outside your house now. hahahaha." poorthing, she must've been missing me so much that she had to come to my house. :D

everyone's like going overseas these few days. mom, dad, and godma left for genting this morning. sham left for taiwan this morning too, and won't be back until after three weeks! toii's going to australia the next week.. how great. i miss travelling too!

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Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________before sunset! =.=
Tuesday, November 16, 2004 ; 7:24 PM

alright. i've got a new blog. i couldn't really bear to leave the old one, cuz there were so many entries and memories in it.. but oh well, i've decided to move...

went out with toii and deedee today.. we caught "Before Sunset".. gosh i swear that movie has broken the record of the worse movie ever filmed!! it was nc-16.. so we were like expecting some sex scenes or somethin. there weren't even any kissing scenes. the story is just about a guy finding his lost love, and started a conversation with her.. almost the whole movie was about them talking about nonsensical stuffs.. really boring! then after one hour of talking, they went to the girl's house and the girl started dancing. maybe they'll start making out after that. or, so we thought, the show ended abruptly just showing the girl dancing. how stupid! ahh.

anyway, i felt like some rich pampered spoilt kid when i went out with dee. we took cab from school to ps, from ps to cineleisure, from cine to lido, and from lido back home. gosh! =.=

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