_____________________teachers' day cum youth day performance!
Wednesday, August 31, 2005 ; 8:05 PM

sigh, this is gonna be a long entry.. shall start on a happy note first. school today was uber fun. FUN FUN FUN. ever since youth day two years back. haha. had teachers' day celebration today.. was supposed to end at 12.. but we got released at 1pm cos the teachers put up a belated youth day performance for us! :) how sweet of them. they wanted to make up for youth day when they were too busy then.

anyways, the teachers' day concert was all well, but the real fun only began when the youth day concert started. it was so funny please, we all laughed till our stomachs hurt. they had this "SJC Idol".. where joyce yeo impersonated ryan seacrest as "joanne seaweed" (whatever that was for), christopher sim as "christopher simon", cindy soon as "cindy paula" and mary charles as "mary jackson". LAUGHS. and that's not all. the other teachers had videos on silly adverts that were damn crappy, we couldn't stop laughing.. they didn't care how they looked inside and acted like a bunch of lunatics but nevermind, that was the fun of it. den a few others acted as the sjc idol hopefuls rejects, where they copied the ugly side of the contestants. hahaha. i like chia jun ru's one the most. she was saying in a singlish manner, going, "i like jolin tsai so i am going to sing kan wo 72 bian. i think that the song is very nice and jolin tsai is so pretty hor, i think i look like her also lor." den she started singing the song with those act-cute hand actions and singing outta tune. lmao. den she got rejected and came outta the studio going, "i can't believe this. the judges are going to regret! my voice is so nice lor, everyone says so lor. i take up singing lessons also lor. people all say i sing so well. the judges are gonna reeggreeettt." lmao. damn funny.. and many other funny stuffs the teachers did.. everyone around me were cheering and stuff we all lost a little of our voices, and i almost turned deaf. after the whole performance, 4F did a class thingy for mr tan and chan. bought them cake and made a video bout them. awww, my class's so sweet. :/ chan showed us his baby's photos. so fakking cute i swear, her cheeks look real nice to squeeze.

toi and i went to find the tchers to give the tchers' day gifts and hiked off to town. heh. she bought this quite cool volcom tote bag and i bought the NIKE SHOULDERBAG!!!! hahaha. two things strike off my wishlist. it's nicer than the adidas one, and so i don't want the adidas one anymore too. woopee. i love my parents man. i kept begging them to gimme money to let me buy this morning, and they finally let me, probably seeing how obsessed i am over thaty bag, and handed me 80 bucks.. the bag was supposedly 82 bucks, but cos it was the last stock (luckily!) and they had some discount, he gave me 20 percent off. :) the bag rocks man.

took bus back and rushed home for tuition at 5.30.. malcolm said my bag's nice too. heh! yup.. he brought along his other student and did some chem.. damn i seriously needa do something bout my chem. :(

that's all for today. yesterday was shit. i couldn't sleep at night and kept thinking about everything..

dear you,
i'm so sorry. i'm so sorry for whatever i've said and done. the last thing i'll ever wanna do is to hurt you. i didn't expect things to turn out this way.. i thought we could still be the same.. i miss the old you, i miss the you that i fell for. you just shut yourself from me, and you've changed so much that i don't even know you anymore. i hope in time you'll realise that this decision made is for the better of both of us. we're so distracted with ourselves that we don't realise it, and it is actually killing us softly. Olevels are important, and love can wait. i hate to see you like this. please do concentrate on what's more important for you, right now. don't say that i do not care for you, cos if that is so, i wouldn't even give a shit about how you're feeling now or whatsoever. it bothers me to see you like this. i'm serious, you've been the greatest. you were so sincere, and you've always tried your best to make me happy. but i guess cos of what has been happening between us when we're together, i feel quite shocked and bothered and i often think to myself, this isn't me, this isn't what i should be doing, especially during this period of upcoming Os. it's not you, it's me. you were willing to change and salvage everything, but i just couldn't accept the fact and forget about it. come to think of it, i guess you really don't deserve this kind of treatment. i'm sorry i led you into this.. i guess i'm just asking for too much. no, studies wasn't used an excuse.. i want us to do well. you are distracted, you know it yourself. i hope you'll finally realise how much the decision made will help you.. in the meantime, do take care and we can settle the stuffs our exams.. for now, i'll still be here.
love; me.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________the notebook.
Tuesday, August 30, 2005 ; 6:30 PM

1 is an individual, 2's a company, 3's a crowd, and 41 makes my class!
haha. sounds a little kiddy but that's what my class came up with for the videoing thingy. toi, nic and i had to look so sissy in there being the first 3 to hop into the vid. anyways i look crappy there.
skipped school today. yawns. he came over in the afternoon. i just came back from heartland. bought roses for teachers' day tomorrow. heh. i'm not planning to give my chem tcher and chinese tcher. bleagh. tomorrow's gonna be a boring day again.. sigh.

haha. this is funny. quoted from the movie The Notebook.

Young Noah: Will you go out with me?
Young Allie: What? No.
Young Noah: No...?
Young Allie: No.
Young Noah: Why not?
Young Allie: I duno, because I don't want to.
Young Noah: Ok then you leave me no other choice.
(Young Noah hangs freely by his hand on the ferris wheel.)
Young Allie: AHHHH!
Young Noah: I'm gonna ask you one more time, will you or will you not go out with me? I think my hand's slipping.
Young Allie: Okay, okay. Fine I'll go out with you.
Young Noah: No, don't do me any favours.
Young Allie: No, no, I want to.
Young Noah: Say it.
Young Allie: I wanna go out with you.
Young Noah: Say it again.
Young Allie: I WANNA GO OUT WITH YOU!
Young Noah: Alright, alright, we'll go out.

The movie's such a tear-jerker please. super romantic. think i'm gonna buy the dvd and watch it again and again. poo.

Young Noah:
My Dearest Allie,
I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.
Noah.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________studying at changi airport at kovan bk!
Monday, August 29, 2005 ; 9:01 PM

hmmm.
last weekend, studied at changi airport on both saturday and sunday. it was productive. yep. will go back there to mug! it's really good to study there.. anyway, i've set my eyes on this ADIDAS shoulder bag which i'm SO GONNA get. heh. mark my words, and when i say i will, i really will. :D
yesterday's the 28. :)
today, school as usual. after school toi and i went to kovan's bk to study.. the last time we studied together was like 2743813430 years ago.. it was quite alright. when we arrived at kovan, we saw an old lady fall at the escalator.. the escalator was going up and she landed head down.. ouch.. it scared the both of us. and her arm was bleeding. so poorthing. :( anyway, studied, den he came at 5 plus, and accompanied me home. :]

hmmmm. sigh.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________marche dinner.
Friday, August 26, 2005 ; 10:20 PM

hi. i'm not really in the mood to blog now.
today's a day like any other normal day. school was as usual. we were supposed to have extra lessons with mr chan after school but was cancelled cus the HODs had a meeting. darn, now when? hah. the real prelim starts on the week after the sept hols. this sept hols, chiong all the way man. mr kenny chua good, his prelims just ended this week..
anyways, i went home after school to change and stuff.. met him at 4.30pm at my house bus stop.. and he actually forgot to bring money out so we took 156 back to his house to get it.. den took 156 back and changed to 70 to go to suntec.. we were planning to watch the maid! but the timings were all bad, so we decided not to watch anymore.. we reached suntec only at 6.30pm.. played in the arcade for awhile den walked around.. he bought me this perlini anklet. yay. ate at marche for dinner! wheee. it's been ages since i went there! i love that place, as in, the food and the environment.. it feels so UN-singapore. i ordered this pasta with teriyaki chicken sticks (which tasted like TORI Q's chicken), and cream sauce. it's so nice. yes, price also very nice. shall drag my family down to there somedayy.

2 more days to 28th!

replies.
toii: mao keng ah mao kennggg! i know you just can't get enough of my name.
cheryl: thanks. (: yours is nicer laa.. more personal.
natt: hey! haha.. i get bored of them too quickly. :D

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________anything is possible cos you believe in me.
Monday, August 22, 2005 ; 8:30 PM

I never thought I could be feeling this way
Standing here in front of you this perfect day
It's hard to imagine where tomorrow will lead
I'll keep this moment in my heart for eternity

In a world full of strangers, you were my saving grace
You told me I was not alone, alone in this place
I never believed it that a dream can come true but
If anyone has changed my mind then baby it's you.

Even through the rain I kept my faith
The will to follow through
And I never lost the strength within
And it's all because of you

I'm flying high like the wind
Reaching the impossible, I'll never doubt again
I'm flying high cos our love's made me see
That anything is possible,
Possible cos you believe in me ;

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________BINGING SESSION @ SAKAE WITH JASLYN!
Friday, August 19, 2005 ; 8:53 PM

everyone's attending ptm now.. except me and nic.. mom was lazy to go cos she already knows what the talk is about.. y'know, teachers stuff.. and she had to bring my grandma to the doctor.. but apparently now the doc isn't in so she doesn't need to go anymore.

yesterday, couldn't take my sushi cravings anymore.. jaslyn and i binged like crazy at sakae in j8! it's been quite some time since we went out together! what a joke la. we got the student buffet, and it ends at 6pm.. went there at 5.15pm.. jaslyn didn't go to school, so met her after the teachers' day auditions. darn, councillors said we had to change our song cos it wasn't retro enough, and part of our dance cos mrs a tan doesn't allow dirty dance. den this morning we heard that those who has disciplinary records, including bookings, cannot perform. faints. it's crazy. i mean, the teachers should be grateful and happy enough that we actually bother to put up a performance for them for teachers' day.
anyways, back to sushi. we were SO hungry, we got the student buffet despite the fact that the last order can be made at 5.30pm.. so we quickly ordered our stuffs and took some from the conveyer belt. we ordered one of every plate in the menu that is included in the buffet. haha. ordered 4 chawanmushis.. ended up returning one to them, and returning a few other plates.. was quite embarrassing. even the waiter stared at our table and was like, are you sure you guys can finish all this?






lol. ordered sooo much.. after the meal i couldn't walk straight. and i'm not exaggerating!

coincidentally my sister called me to ask if i'd wanna go jogging with her when i come home so i agreed to meet her at the stadium itself. jogged for a few rounds, but stopping between rounds cos i was having stitches. and at 11pm, i was still so full! damn scary. lols. oh yeah. it was dark when we walked home from stadium, so couldn't really see much of what's on the ground. and i stepped on something which went 'cllleeeeeeccckkkkk!'.. turned back, and i saw a poor snail with a broken shell! argh. the feeling was shit and damn gross!

this morning, woke up at 5.45am to go jogging to lose those stored carbos yesterday! jogged around the neighbourhood, 2 big rounds passing by the area around hazel's house. was good, but kinda creepy.. yay.. mrs das just said she wasn't going to count prelims 1 for the PAE anymore. i hope i'll do well for the prelims 2..! gahh. after school met dear and we went to my house. eeek. sister was at home and she was being sucha pain. she didn't allow us to close my room door, even when the air-con was on?! made us go to the hall instead.. -.- we went there and watched Courage the cowardly dog.. dumb cartoon.. makes me feel angry whenever i watch it! haha. anyways, we went off after awhile and went somewhere. :D and i reckon we are super adventurous la, fancy going there.. was kinda creepy.. ended up vandalising the whole place. doh!

it seems like i can finally
rest my head on something real
i like the way that feels
oh it's as if you know me better than
i ever knew myself
i love how you can tell
all the pieces of me;

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________school blues.!
Monday, August 15, 2005 ; 11:19 PM

got back prelim results on monday. whoa i did so so badly please! anyways everyone's into the idea of signing a petition to request for not counting this prelim 1 for the jc provisional admission exercise.. at least we can like learn from our lesson and study harder for prelims 2! i hope das hears us out and not include this prelim's marks. screw Os. :(

after school skipped amaths. we were reminded of our childhood memories, and they started playing "lao ying zhuo xiao ji" (eagle chase chickens). lmao. after that we played dog and bone in the middle of the canteen. so fun, and so lame. the last time we did that was like, during qi's bday in sentosa? hah.

had english olevel oral yesterday.. it was quite fine! examiners was one a man and one a woman. they had a fierce face but they smiled alot. i crapped the whole way and made sure i didn't stop talking.. the picture description showed a picture of a few ppl in a kitchen preparing some meal. not a very nice picture to describe.. was prompted a little.. i was so nervous i stuttered during the passage.. at first, i read "mr polanski" as "mr ponlenski".. i swear it sounds so dumb! gahhh. but convo was alright!
went to cp for awhile, den went to his house. wheeee. mmm. his dog is supa cute. it's so small it's like a toy! left around 7. don't know why but felt so sleepy on my way home.. so i took a cab home from cp instead.

skipped school today.. i'm hungry now. oh and i bought the new issue of Teenage mag yesterday.. i wrote in to Dear Kelly like a thousand years ago (okay la, about 5 months ago) and my letter is finally answered in this issue. it's featured at the front cover.. and i found the topic so familiar i wondered if it was mine, so i bought it, and true enough, yes! how childish i was please. writing in seeking for help, when the problem has such a obvious solution to it. hahaha. whatever. i had long ago solved it by myself. eeckk. nic, jaslyn and i were saying if some person wrote in about considering suicide, by the time Dear Kelly replies, the person would've died already la. lol.

anyways, i discovered something last night and my sis and friends say it could be that. but then again, it could have been caused by something else. i hope so. hah. i'm so hungry, shall go get some breakfast now. till then..

No one else comes close to you
No one makes me feel the way you do
You're so special to me
And you'll always be eternally
Every time I hold you near
You always say the words I love to hear
With just a touch, you can do so much
No one else comes close

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________B4 for chinese. hmmm.
Saturday, August 13, 2005 ; 10:02 AM

yesterday. second day of career seminar, as usual, the talks were supa boring. zzz. nyjc's principal came to talk to us bout nyjc too, and made us all not wanna go there anymore. lmao. she's so so boring and has that cannot-control-people face. and she looks like our bookshop auntie.

got back chinese Olevels results. eck. got a B4.. just like my prelims. gonna retake. okay anyway i expected myself to do worse. hahah. we waited for our results and when it was my turn to receive it, mr tan scared me silly by staring at my results slip with a bitter face and going "aiyo.. joanna.. how are you gonna show your mom your results?.. erm, i don't know what to say.. how do you think you have fared?" it sounded like i really had some D7 or something. and i was already like shit shit shit kinda thing.. told him i know i did really badly. i was so nervous till feet and hands were already cold like anything. den he ended up laughing upon my reaction and yeah, saw my results and okay i was cooll. the rest, did okayy. well don't be disheartened everyone! there's still a retake. :)

after school. met him at kovan mrt. was supposed to go to my house but my sister was at home and mom's gonna be home early too so going to my house is a bad idea. hah. he's got a B4 too, for both his prelims (ahem, or A2 huh huh huh?) and Os, just like me! decided to go to harbourfront centre cos it was more ulu. ate at macs, and TRIED to study. the book was open but our eyes were wandering. den went to the stairs! nice stairs. :) stayed there for almost 2 hours and it didn't even seem that long. a security guard walked pass and he said something like "hello.. you guys can hug hug but don't do anything else ya? there's a woman upstairs who complained about you all." lmao. funny thing.

today, gonna go nic's house to do the teachers' day thing again. coooll. was kinda fun the other time. meeting him for awhile before that. woopeee. till then!

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________olevel talks.
Thursday, August 11, 2005 ; 8:26 PM

had a really slack day in school today. we didn't do anything much. had the career seminar, and they got a few groups of ppl to come and talk to us.. the cjc principal, brother paul, talked to us about cj and some ex-sjcians from cj came too.. it wasn't very useful laa, the bro paul just showed us what cjc offers.. what's that got to do with us and our Olevels? it'll be better if they got ppl to give us some wake-up call about how important the Os are and stuff.. yes, i really need that!

the second group was also not useful, some doctor in NTU teaching nanotechnology.. like huh, okayyy.. what's the link?! haha. i was starting to get sleepy during that talk.. the third one was some counsellor telling us about what personality type fit what kind of jobs.. she looks like toi's mom!

the last one was the most interesting one of all! the power 98 DJs Jeremy Ratnam and Soowei came.. i always listen to jeremy ratnam in the evening while jogging cos he really cracks me up. he's like supa funny and stuff! i don't know who's soowei.. but their voices were so nice we felt like we were listening to them from the radio. they told us about the qualifications of being a dj.. not really of much help, but yeah, it was good. :)

supa slack la today, the whole group of us were at the back msging and sleeping and eating pokey sticks and crackers discreetly when fonseka's near, but openly when she's not in the hall. and no one even cares. kinda alright cos the aircon was on too. hohho.

after school, went to cp with sheila, toi and nat. nic met us too. met dear for awhile. yay! he likes pinching my fats la. yuck. he thinks it's fun or something but i think it's eeky. haha. confiscated his phone while he was with me. nieh nieh, he has an ambition i don't wish he'd fulfil. :D oops.

den toi, nic and me went over to vivien's place at hougang to rehearse the dance thing.. it was good cos we managed to learn some. coollll. okay yes they couldn't stop laughing cos of my spasticness during the dance. poots. at around 6pm vivien was gonna have tuition so all of us left to go to merelda's house instead.. we dropped by hougang point to get some munchies, but cos merelda's mother had to leave the house before we could go, and she hadn't left when it was nearing 7pm, we changed plans and went home.

tomorrow's the day we're getting back the chinese Os results. shit. something tells me i did so badly. :( seriously bad. results will be out by 10am but my stupid school will only release the results to us after school cos of the seminar! gahh. so we'll be one of the last in sg to know our own results.. ahh. i think i'll get a D7 or something. eeck. nvm, still not the end. i can retake and study harder! woots.

Cos when I look at my life
How the pieces fall into place
It just wouldn't rhyme without you ;

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________out.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005 ; 9:27 PM

i had cravings for baos in the morning, so got dear to buy me the nice teck kee char siew buns! yumm. met him at kovan and took a train down to town and took neoprints! i look silly in there. eeekk! anyways, den we walked over to orchard underpass and had the bravissimo cookies and cream gelato! it was HEAVEN. darn nice and i've missed it so much.

anyways, when we were heading to city hall mrt to study at esplanade, i checked with him if my file (with my notes and books) was still with him cos he wasn't holding it on his hand anymore. and .. he was like oh shit! and we had to run all the way back to heeren to geddit back. ahah. funny la. my stupid sandals were making the most noise all over town.. luckily the nice girl working in the neoprint area kept the file for us.. apparently mr chua left it on the table while changing money. haha.. but it's okaye, we got it back anyways.

change of plans, we decided to go to my house instead of esplanade.. walked over to take a bus behind somerset mrt, and saw this really quiet burger king at the building next opposite centrepoint (can't rem what's its name), so we stopped there for awhile. we studied for merely half an hour and started fooling around already laa. haha, this can't go on. heh, no kenny, you're not gonna get to touch my phone's videocam. :D! hurhur. at 4, we decided to go to my house, and left b.k and took a bus back.. on the way back i called my mom to check on what time she'd be home, and she was at home! gahh. well she allowed kenny to come but he didn't want to. poo. hah.

we went to heartland mall instead to meet his friends, desmond and dominic.. well both of them are really funnyy. hah. they came down from changi airport and claimed they were bored and got chased out of starbucks there. haha.. we studied at heartland mall's b.k, and this time it was a little more productive, i did a little of bio and math. yep, den headed back home in the evening..

i'd rather have bad times with you
than good times with someone else
i'd rather be beside you in a storm
than safe and warm by myself ;


replies.
angela: okie relinked. :)
jaslyn: let's please go shopping this weekend. we seriously haven't shopped together for ages.. ever since june hols?! oh my. and my shopping stamina damn lousy now laa. hahah. yupyup! i miss your crap mann.
noven: okie relinked. yep i am! hope you are too! :)
sheryl: heh okaye. help me get her school badge from her okiee! :D she's vbeen owing me for ages. haha rightt, you TAKECARE TOO!
glynis: thanks! but i like yours too! yeah, pick the date. :)

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________national day.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005 ; 3:02 PM

changed my blog song upon the request made by jaslyn. she said gwen stefani's cool was irritating. hur. this song is fakking nice please. :D it's national day today! .. so what? haha.

yesterday, went to school for national day celebration.. supposed to help elaine koh sell drinks.. but the 4 of us (sham, felicia, shu ann and i) wandered off with our own groups. oops. feel damn bad. but never mind, mrs koh had more than enough hands! there were quite alot of stalls selling real good stuff. heh. sham and i bought each other red daisies. so nicee. :) and we actually thought the daisies were sunflowers. hah..

after school, went town with qi, toi, sham, beryl, nat and nic. it was the ultimate shopping fantasy for qi and nic la, they came out with over 200 bucks. hah.. after shopping from 12 to 7.. i finally bought 2 tops from fareast. whee. damn tiring la. shopping stamina getting lousier. this calls for more fast-paced shopping trips with jaslyn! left town at 6.40 and took bus home. i love long bus trips, especially when i'm supa tired and when my md's around.

sigh, boring day today. and i was supposed to go for the fireworks festival thing at marina yesterday night! took a nap at 9pm plus, and i asked my mom to wake me up when dad comes home so we could all go together.. the fireworks start at 12mn.. the next thing i knew, i woke up upon hearing dear's call, and the time was 12.40am! grrr. my parents said they called me up but i refused to wake up.. i didn't even remember ever getting woken up by them. ahh. never mind.. there's still this sat/sun..
monthly thing is here again. i got woken up because of the painful cramps at 6 in the morning. that was how painful it was.. its ability to wake me up from my deep sleep compared to my mom's screamings. :/

gonna stay at home today.. and maybe do some papers. boring thing. chinese Os results are coming out on thurs i think. confirm retaking laa. i knew i didn't do well. plus the distractions i had during the mt Os period..

seeing him tomorrow! yay. can't wait.

replies.
kenny: dear! thanks. i made yours like mine too. yay. yeahhh. sajc! :) love you!
sheryl: hey sweetie! haha yeah i know her. oh cool. :D
nat: HAPPY NAT DAY, NAT! haha. spastic.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________ecp.
Sunday, August 07, 2005 ; 3:34 PM

yesterday was kinda alright. met dear and his two friends plus sheryl and her friend at serangoon stadium and took 76 to ecp.. we were the first to reach and the birthday girl wasn't there yet! ahha, faints. the park was really empty luhh, i guess the seventh month does really affect singaporeans.. went there just early part of this year on a saturday too, and i swear the amount of ppl then were thrice the amount of those i saw yesterday. when i cycled in ecp the previous time i went there, we used to have to dodge every 5 seconds because of the amount of ppl cycling on the road, and now the whole road's like all ours! after awhile alison came, and the others came. took so long to set up the fire for bbq cos the wind was hell strong, and we barbecued sausages which turned out looking rotten and diseased laa. the weather was friggin hot, and wasn't really in the mood to bbq too.. anyways, he had to go back in the evening so we didn't watch the fireworks. but nevermind! my parents said the ones last night weren't very nice cos all were quite low and stuff! heh. there's still other days to see them! yep.

he and i left ecp around 7 and cabbed back. i went to nic's house. was supposed to meet my parents to watch fireworks but toi called to ask me to rehearse for the tcher's day performance. so yeah. went over to nic's, and we were all like out of ideas for dance steps.. watched the grease video and tried to mimick their moves but in the end we decided to call it a day and slack. ahah. at 9pm, nic, manda and toi went over to ps, merelda and lydia went home, and i went over to his house void deck to meet him again. yay. met for like half and hour, then took a train down to serangoon to wait for the cab nic, manda and toi were in. yup. toi stayed over in my house.. was already 11 when i reached home. damn tired, and i was supa red, i don't know why. it must've been the sun at ecp. we talked till like 3 and she complained that she was sleepy. neh neh. i was too luh, but aren't sleepovers sleepovers so that we can talk and stay up all night long?! poo. heh.

what a boring day today.. i'm gonna stay at home and maybe study abit. at least i'll try. national day holiday's till wed. whee. gonna like mug like mad cows already laa. me and dear are so gonna go sajc next year, aren't we, kenny?! hur. okay. gotta go. till then..

i've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing that's true
so i will not hide
it's time to try anything to be with you
all my life i've waited
this is true.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________
Friday, August 05, 2005 ; 10:18 PM

yesterday. no school. met him at cp for lunch after his school. ahah so many sjc ppl luhs. saw beloved, shyan, and i got to see alison like, finally. hah. after that he had to leave to take care of his bro, and met nic at gardens cc to study.. it's a really good environment to study in.. quiet and there's the ambience and mood laa. we took like 15 mins to settle down, and studied for only 30 mins before we decided to have dinner! lols. dinner for an hour and went back to study for another 45 mins! ahh! wth. haha. the time we studied felt so much longer than the time we had spent on dinner laa. gawsh. den called dad and he happened to be on his way back from work so he fetched me back. nic wanted to stay there longer. so yeahh.

today, physics/chem paper 1.. woopeeeee! prelims 1 is OVER! but ah wells, they gave us our prelims 2 timetable already.. said they wanted us to start studying during national day hols. argh. and the week after next, we'll be getting all our papers back at once! on monday.. scary pls. we're all thinking of signing a petition to ask the principals to not count the results for prelims 1 in our provisional jc admission thingy..

after the paper, went home and met the rest at 1.. okay so we were supposed to meet at 1 and reach harbourfront at 1.30.. ended up reaching harbourfront at about 2.15.. sham, the belated birthday girl came late. she met us directly at sentosa. reached there and the sun was so friggin hot, and i mean, realllyyy hot. kept complaining about the heat, but soon after, the sun was gone and we wanted it back. pfft. haha we're such ironical little things. ate at sakae.. cheated their money again. so easy pls. sheila and qi had the buffet thingy, and me and ninny were kinda full so we din get it. and we got sheila and qi to order the stuffs for us.. hahaa. they could order as much as they want anyway since it's buffet. chawanmushi! love it pls. and the waiter had to clear up this whole stack of plates which "only sheila and qi" supposedly consumed. so bad laa, but, nvm..

i'm not burnt! i don't look like a lobster. yay. but i'm so tired. poo. tmr, ecp and fireworks! yay..

replies.
glynis: yeah pls! i wanna! you set a date! yeah.. i love susan ng man. she's so nice.
hazel: bestfriend! muuuaaccckk! hahaha. right, i know what yer gonna say. faints.
van: heyyyy. :) errrr. no la. haha..
toi: so am i.. and you look as delicious you. mao keng.

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Wednesday, August 03, 2005 ; 4:44 PM

had a maths paper 2 today.. yay! finally i'm over and done with amaths.. for now.. during the paper, i was just merely adjusting my sitting position and my phone flew out of my pocket waayyy out to the girl next to me (i don't know how that could've happened) lah. i quickly bent over to pick it up and joyce yeo happened to be near, came over and took it from me. after that i was like so disturbed about lah, couldn't concentrate on the paper.. after the paper i tried to geddit back, and susan ng came up to me and returned it to me.. told me not to bring it to the exam hall next time. i love her man! she's so nice. :) she coudld've confiscated it or gimme a zero for the paper. the other time during chinese intensive when i had really bad menstrual cramps, she offered a cup of hot water for me too. so thoughtful of her. and she doesn't even teach me.. though she's good buddies with my mom la. hah.

no school for me tomorrow cus there's no paper for me.. having phy/chem paper 1 on friday.. then prelims are over. wheee. out with the sentosa group of 9 or 10 ppl after the phy/chem paper to celebrate sham's bday too.. yay. it's been quite some time since we went out as a whole big group. were supposed to be going escape but realised it's not opened on weekdays! #@$%&! poo.

he came over just now! :) stayed for an hour plus and he had to go back to take care of his bro.. :(( poo. didn't see him for 5 long days luh! and now another 3 more days. till saturday.. yep yep, ecp and marina bayyyy.. i wanna see him tmr. hmpf.

because of you, i forgot the smart ways to lie
because of you, i'm running out of reasons to cry

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Tuesday, August 02, 2005 ; 1:05 PM

went to school for geog paper this morning! damn sleepy now luh. slept at around 1.30am last night (this morning) and made myself wake up at 5.30am to study again.. couldn't finish revising. i spent an hour just compiling my geog notes last night. hah. poots. damn few sec 4s came today, and only about 9 ppl from our class take geog.. it was quite okay, think it's the best geog paper i've done so far.. i hope i can pass. shiat. but there's this question which i wrote half a page long of answers for 6 marks and for a 9 mark question i only wrote a quarter of a page! ahh. haha nvm.

ended damn early, 9.30.. went j8 with the geog ppl after the paper.. darylyn, yvonne, yiying and carmen.. we wanted to take a cab that was willing to fetch 5 ppl (maximum's 4 by law).. so we walked down to find one on our way.. found one, me and daryl asked him if he could fetch 5 ppl, he said in chinese, "wu ge ren bu ke yi! liu ge ren ke yi!" translation means "5 ppl cannot! but 6 ppl can!" wth! hahah i think he meant 4 instead of 6.. but if he really meant what he said, he must be a little .. screwlose. i asked him back in chinese why he allows 6 ppl in but not 5, he just bluntly repeated his sentence which totally makes no sense. we gave him that you're-riduculous look and went off. faints. decided to take 156 instead! we reached cp before getting any darn cab.

hoho. anyways, ppl stared at us as though we skipped school. ha. we were all so hungry but still took ages deciding on where to eat.. walked around and realised it was raining so heavily outside. so just slacked around in the mall for awhile.. woosh. so glad i'm back home. i wanna sleep.
yuck, a maths paper 2 tomorrow. eeks!

your love put me at the top of the world.

kenny: right, faints. that's not you, that's me replying to you! haha. anyway, same hereeee. <33 tmr quick come. gah.

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Monday, August 01, 2005 ; 8:01 PM

hmmm. nothing much happened lately.. this is gonna be a really brief update.
just talked to toi and the most embarassing thing happened. her mom was screaming in the background asking her to put down, so i imitated her mom's naggings and her mom happened to pick up the phone and say the exact same things i said lah! at the same time. "adel, put down the phone now." hah. exactly at the same second and same speed. gawsh. i so hope she didn't hear that!
had a maths paper today.. yuck la, i don't think i can pass.. i need my paper 2 to pull my grade up already! poo. went with nic to bugis today cos she needed to get some stuffs.. bought a red teeshirt from bugis street. think it's a fake abercrombie and fitch shirt. ahah. oh well, who cares, it's nice.
okay, tomorrow's geog paper. all the tourism crap and development yadda yadda.. gonna study now. still waiting for wednesday. till then!

but everything means nothing
if i ain't got you.


replies.
sham: heyy! :) see you in school. kinda miss going out studying with you and all those ps movie trips!
toi: hey mao keng! you rotten little drowned-in-the-well cat. well believe it. lol. ahh. you nehneh.
kenny: yay! love you too.
peishan: hey gurl. :) i love you much too!

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