_____________________better days.
Thursday, August 24, 2006 ; 10:58 PM

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________photoshoot
Saturday, August 19, 2006 ; 11:23 AM


xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________hanging by a moment here with you.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006 ; 8:35 PM

been quite tired these few days..

quick updates..
1. pierced my nose 1 day after national day (responses: nice/ indian/ ah lian/ COW(?!) called by my parents! blah!)
2. volleyball is getting better and less dreadful (though still alittle) cos people there are actually quite nice (:
3. badminton photo-taking today (i looked sucky in the pics AS USUAL. ): saddening.)
4. i'm so addicted to band music! soooo wanna learn drums! plus set up a band! damn cool pleaseee.
5. 1T34 on birkenstocks spree online!

back from training. i'm so tired. i hate doing grandstands. we did 8 summore. i can so predict the size of my calves in a month or two. yucks! ): big bulky things. like mine isn't bulky enough. ha.

anyways. random thoughts on my mind. i miss my sec school friends.. the whole clique, 4F, hazel and jaslyn. blah!

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started, I'm chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you, letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________fireworks with class!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006 ; 9:23 PM

HAPPY NATIONAL DAYYY!

ytd morning, had a 7km walkathon from our school to macritchie. thankfully the weather was fine! with good company from toi chris and rachell and class. after the walk, the class went binching at Crystal jade! some cj teachers were queueing behind us too. ha. lunch was fun cos we managed to squeeze yet another hot and juicy insides from mr T! (: the moment he said that something, our whole table roared with laughter! embarassing cos it made the whole restaurant people turn to look. hah!



class outing last night; fireworks-seeing near esplanade! (:

after that traffic was seriously BAD! there were so so much people i could just roll and die. okay doesn't make sense. stoned around awhile finding places to sit cus we were all tired. even til midnight the buses were full. tsks. so chris, xiangli, bay and i cabbed home. hah.

hmmm i'm bored. i slept the whole afternoon today! rahh. zzz.

The streetlights flash in tempo with my heart that's poundin',
Although I haven't had a heart for days.
If I could just be honest, get my feelings off my chest,
And on your mind I could find the way.

Cause it's you that can break me and keep me on my back.
Cause it's you that can save me from falling into the black.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________on my own.
Monday, August 07, 2006 ; 7:44 PM

us at far east!

Now it seems that i have found nothing at all ;
I want to hear your voice out loud, slow it down ;
Without it all, I'm choking on nothing ;
It's clear in my head, and I'm screaming for something ;
Knowing nothing is better than knowing at all ;

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________the grass is always greener on the other side.
Sunday, August 06, 2006 ; 10:34 AM

The grass is always greener on the other side.
it's just so true for me.

When X is close to you, goes out with you, talks to you; you have Y in your mind. When X isn't close to you anymore, doesn't go out with you nor hold long conversations with you; you stop thinking about Y and have X constantly on your mind.
When someone cared too much and nagged too much, you wished they cared less for you. When they stop bothering you at all, you wished they had cared more.
Just like when i was in badminton, i wished to quit it. Now when badminton girls team no longer exists, i wished it would be back.
While you're discontented with your current life, someone else just wishes to have a life like yours. and while you want her kind of life instead, you both almost wished you could exchange places.

It just always seems better on the other side. When you've got this, you want that. When you've got that, you want the other. We just won't know what we've got till it's gone. Sigh!

I hate the feeling of knowing you were once so close to something you want so much now. And the feeling of helplessness, knowing you could have done so much more during that period instead of not treasuring what you have. Turn back time, please? :(


You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mindI'm sleeping next to you.
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know...
But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that,
About me and you..

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________converse
Friday, August 04, 2006 ; 8:44 PM

me and my good ol' bitching partner the other day at heartland mall.
even bitchier than me. tsk tsk. ahah! joke.
feeling emo/ grumpy today. ):
well to sum up the things i did today,

eck. i miss badminton.. like, alot.. the whole j1 team people, the j2 girls, and the sport itself... and i dislike jason liu for being so biased against the girls.... ): PET...! HAOWEN...! ):

you don't know what you mean to me.
no matter what i do, all i think about is you.


xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y




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