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Thursday, March 31, 2005 ; 2:44 PM
went to the doctor last night about my ulcers and blisters, and he told me i have hand-foot-mouth disease! :( he has to even write a report to the moe to inform them about it, cus it's air-borne and infectious, and who knows i've passed it to some ppl in school already. HAHA, nah. i hope not. it sounds bad but truth is, i'm as okay as i'd ever be! hoho. maybe just a lil drowsy by the medication and a few painful sores in my mouth, pain enough to stop me from eating. :( and one week mc is no joke lah. how many periods will i miss.. i think i'll be gg back as soon as i recover.
i just learnt that MOE is still gonna continue the first 3 months provisional pre-u admission thingy for this year's O levels batch. great. now i'm even more scared for the prelims already!! arghhh. and i just did quite badly for my previous common test!
replies.
ade: no it's not. all the sick molecules and stuff. i'm ill, not sick like you. :D haha.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005 ; 4:35 PM
been watching spongebob squarepants dvd i borrowed from ninny all morning. patrick star and spongebob are real lamers. they're even worse than me and toii. hahaha.
anyways. yesterday on my way to tuition there's this car that was in flames outside bishan park. the scene was really freaky. fireman all around, estinguishing the fire but the fire kept getting bigger, the flames reached as high as a tree and there was smoke everywhere. woo. i hope there isn't anyone burning in that car. ouch. me and jaslyn had to photocopy notes for tuition cus we forgot to bring them, and that guy, muthu, who actually bugged me continuously 2 weeks ago for the $1.40 i owed him for cab fare (stingy pok), paid for our photocopying costs. heh. at least now i know he still IS human.
Something isn't right ;
I can feel it again feel it again ;
This isn't the first time that you left me waiting ;
Sad excuses and false hopes high ;
I saw this coming still I don't know why I let you in ;
I knew it all along, you're so predictable ;
I knew something would go wrong ;
So you don't have to call or say anything at all ;
You're so predictable ;
So take your empty words your broken promises ;
And all the time you stole cause I am done with this ;
I can give it away give it away ;
I'm doing everything I should've ;
and now I'm making a change ;
I'm living the day, I'm giving back what you gave me ;
I don't need anything ;
Everywhere I go, everyone I meet ;
Every time I try to fall in love ;
They all wanna know why I'm so broken ;
Why am I so cold? Why I'm so hard inside? ;
Why am I scared? What am I afraid of? ;
I don't even know ;
This story's never had an end ;
I've been waiting, i've been searching, i've been hoping ;
I've been dreaming you would come back ;
But I know the ending of this story ;
You're never coming back ;
replies.
toii: hurhurhur. yes it's nice. i don't mind buying the dvd. ohoh.
ade: haha. thanks. i've been fine and am still struggling with chem. how DO YOU ever do it man? oh you one sick o. ahaha.
kim: haha, ohh.. chehh.. thought was that pig. if not we could've bitched bout her till our mouths drop. haha. yah! reply soon.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Sunday, March 27, 2005 ; 2:06 PM
today is rae's birthday today.. hoho. celebrated it yesterday in nic's house. met toii at heartland to buy the cake.. then cabbed to nic's house cus it was raining like mad. bliss, qi, beryl, nat and shyan were there went we reached, and xj came shortly after. toii's piniata (how do i spell) deflated when she was trying to put sweets in it. and one stupid balloon burst directly in my face while i was blowing it. so pain la. ahah. second time already! i think i'm gonna develop a phobia for balloon blowing if i get any third time. watched 10 Ways To See A Ghost with kenneth before meeting toi.. it's nice! really scary and funny at some parts too. quite a nice storyline.. and the 2 guys in the show are damn hot. heh. everyone should catch it. rae's party turned out pretty well, lots of good food and all.. yup.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005 ; 12:33 PM
i wrote some words on toii's hand during ss yesterday and stupid fat pig lee asked her who wrote on her hand and demanded it to be washed off. i think she's mad please. other ppl's hand also wanna care what is on it. it's not her fat hands anyway. grr.
chan was somewhat preaching to us during character development and he told us about finding your love. the best lover is not someone who can love everyone, but someone who can love a person for a lifetime, as quoted by bro chan. and he also told us how thankful we should be to have mr tan as our form teacher. he came to school even when he was very ill and had mc, just to make sure our report cards were ready and stuff. i feel so bad now cus we're always giving him problems and all. :( like what kim said, we're gonna work hard and see him smile 41 times next year when we're collecting our O level certs.
i'm so pissed with you. roar. i'm really really not gonna turn back from now cus i've given up. so what if you come back? so what if you start telling me you like me? where were you when i needed you? where were you when i waited for you? guys, slap me if i ever fall for those nonsense again.
"Landon, don't walk away."
"You taught me how."
-quoted from movie a walk to remember
replies.
natt: haha OH PLEASE! i'd rather have none. :D hahaha.
joleen: yeah! i guess so. my dad told me. haha
kim: haha, haiyo. get me one! :D okay, i will. must tell me bout submarine too.(: and we should bitch tgt about s---- lee too! i hate her as much as you do. hur. loves.
nicholas: yup yup. haha small world!
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Monday, March 21, 2005 ; 10:29 PM
cuckoo, cuckoo. okay whatever. i'm off to china to meet birds now.. goodbye for now.
replies.
nat: haha, none, please. eww! hur.
peishan: where are you gonna be studying at!
rese: hoho i'm fine. thanks for dropping by.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Friday, March 18, 2005 ; 10:32 PM
anyway, celebrated qi's birthday today in sentosa. it's been ages since i went there. was really fun. haah. qi was made to unwrap her big present and she took almost 30 mins tearing off the thousand layers of wrappers. hoho. sheila and ninny made the bday cheesecake for qi, damn delicious i swear. played dog and bone and frisbee and all. when the rest were washing up, me, toi, rae and nic wanted to take some shots so me and toii wanted to approach this guy to help us take a photo for us. we were like "excuse me, can you .." and he smiled and walked away! funny ass. i bet he thought we wanted to ask for his number. eww? so round and ugly, we have much better taste la. den had dinner at harbourfront, and played the mini hockey thingy in the arcade. shyan, toi and sheila were so strong la. lol. tiring day tho. full of laughs and farts.
other photos can be viewed at toii's album in her blog. (:
went to play badminton just now, and while waiting for bus home at heartland mall, this ugly mofo ahbeng came to me.
ah beng: xiao jie, ke yi gei wo ni de hao ma ma? (can i have your number?)
me: err.. nope, sorry.
ah beng: aiya, zuo zuo peng you er yi la.. (make friends only.)
me: sorry sorry. nope.
ah beng: wei shen me? zuo peng you er yi.. ke yi la.. (why? make friends only. can la.)
me: nah, sorry sorry.. haa.
ah beng: aiyo, gei la. zuo zuo peng you. (give la. make make friends..)
me: sorry sorry. i dont want.. ahah.
ah beng: aiyya. -feeling helpless-
(he walks off)
2 mins later.
(he comes back)
ah beng: zhe shi wo peng you yao gen ni jiang de hua. (this is what my friend wants to tell you)
(he flashes his phone. on it a msg reads "hi i'm alex. i'm 21m, can i know you?"
me: haha, sorry, no..
ah beng: wei shen me? zuo peng you ma.. wo peng you yao ren shi ni. (why? make friends la. my friend wants to know you.)
me: sorry.. no.. cannot.. i don't know you. ha.
ah beng: den zuo peng you la! (den make friends la!)
me: nonono.. sorry.. =]
ah beng: jiatlat jiatlat.
(walks off)
roars. so irritating man. i can't stand cheena mama piangs. can't it be a cuter guy instead?! x( okay. i hate guys who stoop so low just to know girls. what suckers and desperados.
replies.
toii: haha duhh! we've been pros at that for 2 years. hahaha.
sheila: hey there china birdd! -shoos off the foul smell- pfft.
cheryl: haha, you good la. i've no choice! mr tan always calls my mom. argh.
joleen: heh. why's that? what'd he give you? haha. he's my 24-hours santa claus. okay, not exactly actually.
beryl: haha, think of me? that's a good sign okay! :D
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005 ; 6:24 PM
mann. went to marina bay ytd for some so-called picnic with bitch again, but this time, the place's changed. the crazy people were cutting down the trees!! arghh. what's gonna become of marina south?! not another recreational centre please. that's the only place i know where i can escape from the busy life and stare at the sky leaving my worries behind.
i went to school for emaths and ss lessons today. hoho. me and toii did the usual routine of running up to class, panting like a mad chimpanzee, stopping right before the door of the class and pushing each other towards the door and going "ahh. shit la. late again! shit shit. how." and ending up just appearing at the door giving the silly grin. hur. good thing adeline ng was nice to let us in without commenting. :D
replies.
sham: =)
adeline: yeah i love the song. haha please! don't insult it. i hate never been replaced! :) oh. ask me online. i will find the link.. or you can go through toi's blog. she has the link.
toii: :D
cheryl: haha! inside joke. china birds sound cuter. :D hmm not exactly a diary but i used it as one. cloth cover with stripes.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Monday, March 14, 2005 ; 8:58 PM
Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same, oh baby, no
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you baby
Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you its been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
I'll put it down be the woman for you
I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
I'm calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true and no fronting
Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Saturday, March 12, 2005 ; 8:48 PM
replies.
peishan: chinese in yr 2? how come. hurhur, no la. average only..
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Friday, March 11, 2005 ; 3:42 PM
Generally, "average" IQ is about 90 to 115, "talented" is about 115 to 125 :D, "gifted" is about 125 to 140, and about 140+ is commonly deemed as having the potential for "genius". ):
-quoted from a document
Classic IQ Test
Congratulations, Joanna! Your IQ score is 118. :D
This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others. Your Intellectual Type is Precision Processor. This means you're exceptionally good at discovering quick solutions to problems, especially ones that involve math or logic. You're also resourceful and able to think on your feet. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.
Super IQ Test
Joanna, your Super IQ score is 117
The way you think about things makes you a Numerical Logician. This means that you're exceptionally strong in mathematics and at using logic to solve problems - you have a way with numbers. But that's not all - compared to others you're very detail-oriented, highly organized, and good at understanding things on a complex and abstract level. You're also a quick study when it comes to learning new things or understanding new concepts.
Emotional IQ Test
your Emotional IQ is 124.
Research has shown that people with high emotional intelligence scores tend to be the most valued and productive employees and have the longest and happiest romantic relationships. So, where are you most emotionally smart? Your test results show that your strongest suit is emotional management - how much you let your emotions affect the world around you. This is not to say, however, that emotions never contribute to your decisions. At times the emotions you are having are appropriate guides for your actions. And with your keen sense of emotional management, you'll know when and where to base decisions upon them. Research indicates that if people who are strong emotional managers can work to increase their overall emotional IQ score, they can prepare themselves to handle any interpersonal exchange with amazing skill - especially by learning to be empathetic of others and by being able to express what it is they are feeling or trying to say.
What You Want in A Guy
Romance
Although you're a sucker for romance, you'll probably cut a guy some slack even if he doesn't constantly pamper you with gifts and affection. You crave passion in your relationships, so you want a guy who can (and will) express his deepest feelings for you through his actions. But you know that men aren't very romantic, so you're willing to lower your standards in this area if need be. Chances are you're willing to stick around once the courting period ends, though it's still very important that your guy occasionally dote upon you. Your realistic-yet-hopeful outlook will guarantee you a good catch!
Maturity
Love might be a serious game, but it should still be fun. Too much sophistication can kill the romance. But we didn't have to tell you that. It sounds like you always go for the kind of guy who knows how to cut loose and just be himself. Practicality and maturity are respectable qualities, sure, and no man should be completely without them, but they've never been high on your list of important ingredients for an exciting night out. Based on your answers, we think your perfect guy. He should know how to have a great time without acting too childish or outrageous. Whether he adds a little bit of danger to your life or just has a great sense of humor, your ideal man would still be young enough at heart to let the kid in him emerge.
Lifestyle
Some people say love is a journey of the heart. So if you're traveling anyway, why take coach when you can go first class? It sounds like you have some very clear financial expectations for your ideal relationship. Money is an important aspect of romance for you, probably because of the leisure and opportunities it offers. There's no doubt that a luxurious lifestyle is tons of fun, but we hope it doesn't become the most important aspect of your relationship. We all dream about a fairy-tale love affair (complete with a castle), but it's important to stay within the limits of reality. Based on your answers, you should recognize and respect your desires, but if you meet Mr. Right, don't let anything get in the way of true love, even an itty bitty bank balance.
Looks
You may not judge a book entirely by its cover, but you definitely like the cute ones. You might consider someone who's a little less than gorgeous, but you generally tend to seek out very handsome men who can really turn heads. Like Matt Damon or Noah Wyle perhaps? Right up your alley. But if need be, you're willing to place personality and chemistry before a pretty face and a hot body. Nevertheless, your answers reveal that you take pride in your man's appearance and get a thrill out of watching others gawk at him. You're impressed by looks, and you definitely set your standards high when it comes to physical appearance. Still, you also realize that beauty may be only skin deep and that an average-looking guy with tons of charm might be your perfect match in every other way!
What Does Your Style Say About You?
your style says you're Flirty and Feminine
Hey, sweet thing. Just because you're a girly girl doesn't mean your closet is full of frills and lace. You just love accentuating your feminine side, and you know that sweet shirts, cute skirts, and pretty accessories are the way to do it.After all, you're not afraid of things like heels and makeup just because they require a little more skill and effort. You love turning heads and showing off your flirty style, so go for it! Embracing your girlyness is what makes you so much fun. Stay sweet.
What is Your Signature Colour?
your signature color is Pink Chiffon
There's nothing saccharine about you - your sweetness is one hundred percent natural! A gentle, thoughtful romantic like you must be paired with a color that's soft and warm - but still has a subtle sophisticated sheen. That's why Pink Chiffon is the perfect color for you! You're probably known for making the most of every situation and trying to see the best in people. But while you may be cheerful and innocent at times, you're nobody's fool. You may see the world through rose-colored glasses, but you can still see, after all.While you make wise insights time after time, it's probably your good nature and perpetual optimism that are what you're known for and what make you a joy to be around. Even those who sometimes make fun of your Pollyanna-like proclamations will turn to you when they need a friend and some cheering up. So keep pink, Chiffon. With you around, the world's a better place!
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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; 3:12 PM
I don't wanna hear you say that you know me
That I should be always doin what you say ;
Cuz I'm tryin to get through today
And there's one thing I know ;
I don't wanna think about you, think about me
Don't wanna figure this out
I don't wanna think about you or think about nothing
Don't wanna talk this one out
I won't let you bring me down
Cuz I know I don't wanna think about you
Don't wanna think about you ;
When I wake up here tomorrow
Things will never be the same
Cuz I won't wait, cuz you won't change
And you'll always be this way
Now I'm gonna get through today
And there's one thing I know
I don't wanna think about you ;
I never could've seen this far
I never could've seen this coming
Seems like my world's falling apart, yeah
Why is everything so hard
I don't think I can deal with the things you said
It just won't go away ;
In a perfect world, this could never happen
In a perfect world, you'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you, this means nothing, nothing at all ;
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through
I pictured I could bring you back
I pictured I could turn back time
Cuz I can't let go, I just can't find my way
Without you I just can't find my way ;
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Thursday, March 10, 2005 ; 6:54 PM
ran all the way home and bathed to meet mag after that. i was burnt! how sick. i looked as though i've over-powdered my face with blusher la. it's even pinkier than mag's cheeks when she put blusher. :/ anyway, darn! there's big sales in town only for TODAY, and for some, it's until the 13th. alot of 30% to 70% discounts! roar. i didn't bring much so i had to choose between buying the forever21 top or the diary! i bought the top instead. i should've brought more moneyy. :( ah wells. i have this thing for pink, purple, yellow and brown coloured tops lately. and MNG's a deceiver! their mirrors in the changing room are bent inwards to make us look skinnier and nicer in their clothes so that we'd buy it! hah. too bad, now we know your trick.
i hate mrs s---- l-- i swear. she's such a BITCH. i hate her sarcasm. she keeps finding faults in me and picking on me. she's so darn biased and just because i'm not good at that subject she's teaching me doesn't mean she has to always be against me? okay. so what if i didn't do ONE of her homework? i wasn't the only one who didn't hand it in, but she only asked me for it. so what if i did badly for one of the class tests? i did fairly normal for the rests! argh. and at least i didn't get a single digit out for 25 for the ct right. i didn't even defy her in any way and she wants to see my parents during ptm. what a sucker. i hate her! fat arse. i hope you trip and fall in your stilettos. /shut your mouth i just can't take it, again and again and again.
replies.
peishan: yes. i hate chinese. :( haha, just ren another year la. you pass your chi yr 1 den can don't take anymore i suppose?
jace: yeah. lovely. (:
glynis: you silly arse. been miaing from me! imu too.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Tuesday, March 08, 2005 ; 8:23 PM
argh. i lost the keys to my diary! of all things!! i have to either resort to breaking open the lock or buying a new one. pfft. my favourite diary! where's the darn keys when i need them. i need to rant. and i need shopping this weekend.
quoted from tuesdays with morrie!
"take any emotion- love for a woman/man, or grief for a loved one, or what i'm going through, fear and pain from a deadly illness. if you hold back on the emotions- if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them- you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. you're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. you're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.
"but by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. you know what pain is. and only then can you say, 'all right. i have experienced that emotion. i recognize that emotion. now i need to detach from that emotion for a moment.'"
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Monday, March 07, 2005 ; 4:40 PM
don't play with me, don't play with me.
-karma
And all the feelings I thought were gone
Came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt
But I was thinking to myself
Truth is I never got over you
Truth is Wish I was standing in her shoes
Truth is And when it's all said and done
Guess I'm still I love with you
Truth is I never should have let you go
Truth is And it's killing me cuz now I know
Truth is And when it's all said and done
Guess I'm still I love with you.
replies.
toi: silly ass. i stated the shows okay! lemony snicket's IS series of unfortunate events. haha.
cheryl: cook for me! i used to like those.
xjie: haha yes i do! yeah we should go out soon. i seriously miss the gf clan and our uncles aunties fathers mothers pets etc. lol.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Friday, March 04, 2005 ; 9:43 PM
O levels results were out recently and i feel so stressed now upon seeing the results! i'm still in awe how the 2004 batch did so well. and mag made it all worse by telling me how close the chinese paper is.. something like in more or less 80 days time. can you imagine?! to tell the truth i haven't started revising for chinese. :(
i love my game we're playing. (:
replies.
peishan: please la. won't be anywhere bad! lol.. how much didja get?
joleen: oops, too late. but heard you did quite okay and that's good la. haha.
cheryl: lol! :D
clarence: haha. don't really know him well la. forgot how i even know him. yesyes. lol. forgetful pig..
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y