_____________________screwed econs!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006 ; 10:40 PM

GP paper yesterday was fine. i hope i at least pass. geesh.. and oh, i think i just screwed up my Econs paper today. am rather confident for my first essay question but i'm so gonna get zero for case study and second essay. great, my first H2 promo paper and i blew it. yay me. good job jo. good job for screwing up probably your only hope for promoting.
meanwhile, i can start thinking of my new subject combinations to take next year. or maybe think of which courses i could take in poly. yipeeee. how fun.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________cause lately it seems the distance between us is growing too wide.
Sunday, September 17, 2006 ; 10:58 PM

retardness! :) insides of our daily conversations.
studied at united sq starbucks this afternoon with ryan. toi came later, and so did rongcheng. so many cjc people were mugging there too! saw james and bunz. ha. sigh. i was so stressed i couldn't help but broke down. i realised i know nuts about econs? okay not really, but, i have to rely it for letting me promote. :( bye bye world. wish me luck for tomorrow's GP.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________promos blues.... :(
Saturday, September 16, 2006 ; 12:15 PM

STUDY!! and i'm still online. argh. where's the self discipline?!

thursday was the last day of school before the promos. went down to scotts after school with henry lester and ryan to study. bay came after going novena! then so did arthur after awhile. studying was kind of unproductive cos quite distracting lah. haha. toi and rongcheng came too in the evening..

friday, harbourfront with toitoitoi, and ryan pak, who only came later. more productive, but still not good enough. haha. i really don't wanna retain. :( sigh.

okay that's all that happened so far. bye.

I close my eyes when I get too sad, I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten, Hope it's over when I open them
I just don't understand how you can smile with all those tears in your eyes,
Tell me everything is wonderful now.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________.. and it hurts even more.
Thursday, September 14, 2006 ; 11:02 PM

i wait for the postman to bring me a letter.
i wait for the good Lord to make me feel better.
i dream of another you, the one who would never,
never leave me alone to pick up the pieces.
i dont know you, but i still want to.
i am broken, but i am hoping.
i am crying, and a part of me is dying.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________happy endings.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 ; 9:26 PM

september 11th. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHELL. (: she treated us (the class) to her aunt's shanghai restaurant at balmoral plaza for dinner worth $400 +++ for her birthday dinner. WTH!! but food was not bad! (: oh and yes. i got high after having two bloody small teacups of red wine. call me a loser now! we were supposed to make someone else drunk. yes, mr T, but i got high myself. dad came to pick me up after that and i heard i missed out on some people's embarrassing moments! dangs.

yesterday, chem consultation after school, then down to scotts coffeebean with arthur and ryan to study. arthur was super sleepy and crappy that he went home halfway.. so pak and i just studied till 8 plus.. studying was not that bad yesterday.

today, came to school late. got a fever yesterday night after coming home! haha exam stress lah. after school rachell and i headed to town and i exchanged my zara top. i can't believe we're still shopping despite exams being a week away. shoot us!.. after that i went down to SMU to study myself. sis booked a room fer me before going off to meet her friends.. not productive please. i thought studying alone would be better cos there wouldn't be distractions but i was wrong! haha i was so bored cause i had no one to talk to and my stupid phone died on me! it's as though i'm cut out from the world stuck in a foreign strange place. i ended up snoozing for awhile. :(

updates and photos uploaded another time.

interesting shit. just being bored. hah.

Pick the month you were born:
January----- I kicked
February----- I loved
March----- I smoked
April----- I dry humped
May----- I choked on
June----- I murdered
July----- I did the Macarena with
August----- I had lunch with
September----- I danced with
October----- I sang to
November----- I yelled at
December----- I ran over

Pick the day (number) you were born on:
1------- a birdbath
2------- a monster
3------- a phone
4------- a fork
5------- a Mexican
6------- a gangster
7------- my cell phone
8------- my dog
9------- my best friends boyfriend
10------ my neighbor
11------- my science teacher
12------- a banana
13------- a fireman
14------- a stuffed animal
15------- a goat
16------- a pickle
17------- your mom
18------- a spoon
19------- myself
20------- a baseball bat
21------- a ninja
22----- a model
23------- a noodle
24------- a squirrel
25------- a football player
26------- my sister
27------- my brother
28------- an ipod
29------ a permanent marker
30------- a llama
31------- a homeless guy

Pick the color of shirt you are wearing:
White------because I'm cool like that.
Black-------because that's how I roll.
Pink--------because I'm NOT a homosexual
Red--------because the voices told me to do so
Blue--------because I'm sexy and I do what I want
Green-----because I hate myself.
Purple-----because I'm cool.
Gray-------because I was drunk.
Yellow-----because someone offered me 1,000,000 dollars.
Orange----because I hate my family.
Brown-----because I was high.
Other------because I'm a ninja.
None-------because I can't control myself.

I ran over a spoon because I'm sexy and I do what I want! haha!

you've got something that keeps me coming back to you.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________
Tuesday, September 12, 2006 ; 10:30 PM

Maybe I'm amazed at the way you're with me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I leave you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song, right me when I'm wrong
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________all that i've got.
Saturday, September 09, 2006 ; 9:21 PM

i'm so bored now. yesterday went tanning with bay at serangoon swimming complex! haha then headed down to ang mo kio library to study with arthur. i was totally in the "homey" mood that day but he managed to successfully convince me to get out of the house to study. tsk. environment there is good! we studied for awhile before started talking and slacking!! argh. wasn't as productive but would've been better if we had the mood to study. would've been better if we did not start gossiping on hot topics. haha. aiya. after library closed, we shifted our butts to jubilee's mos burger but talked even more. and this time, we didn't even open our books. dangs.

today chem consultation at ps. bay overslept, toi took a snooze and woke up only when the consultation was going to end! so only ryan arthur and i were there. zzz. mr tan is funny. he's so open-minded and friendly. ha. after that, i gave tuition a miss and met up with zell! been long since we met up for more than an hour!! we walked around town and stuff.. supposed to study after shopping but she had to get home.. so met ryan to study for awhile before heading home.. was kinda distracted by the noise there so i didn't really study?! today, yet another unproductive 2 days! ):

there's so much i need to say to you, so many reasons why
you're the only one who really knew me at all

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________you give me the best mixtape i have.
Thursday, September 07, 2006 ; 8:39 PM

wooohoooo hello. past few day's been fine. i have spent half my september holidays unproductively and wastefully! argh! today i had to attend econs lecture.. i was like half an hour late but luckily arthur and xiangli were kinda late too so we went in together. ha. after that hung out with a few of the class people at far east before meeting jaslyn for lunch at subway! she came all the way to town for me and had to head all the way to tampines after that. :) i'm so glad we're still contacting and still have so much to talk about!

then met tammy for tuition at orchard plaza. arthur ponned cos ... owell. haha. lesson was stupid anyway. they went through the deeper part of organic chem which isn't even tested for my promos! tammy is nice. only 3rd lesson with her and we're bitching. HAWHAW.

i can't wait for promos to end!!! i've so much to do! shopping, tanning, losing weight, night events, catching up with friends, movies, sports, blah! everything fun not associated with studies! class might be having chalet too! yay. maybe the clique's having too?! and my new zealand trippp. ohmy gosh now i really can't wait. i sound really deprived. come to think of it, i really am.

haha another of my masterpiece for the famous stone. pak chong hei.
calculator designs! wooopeedoo. okay tata.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________you know the world can see us in a way that's different than who we are..
Monday, September 04, 2006 ; 7:31 PM

the photomachine shots

haha photofun with toi's phone inside the photomachineCome up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry, you don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you, tell you I need you, and tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails, heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________Don't Look Back in Anger.
Sunday, September 03, 2006 ; 8:39 PM

hello world. i'm currently on a deleting friends from friendster thang. i found it's pointless keeping people i don't know personally on my list. hmmm. haven't been up to much lately. but i'll see what i can remember. skipped school on wednesday cos the lessons were pointless! the polyclinic doc gave me 2 days MC. teeheee. hung around like a loser trying to study at kovan macs, then met songyao after he ended school and studied at lido. then pet demanded us to meet her at far east after her council meeting in the evening, and both of us ran like mad pigs with our jacket over our heads to cover us from the heavy rain. tsktsk! fernie came to join us too, then i met jaslyn to shop! i bought this dress! woooweeeee. i've no idea when i'll wear it though. :S

gave school a miss on thursday too and went back to sjc! performance was rather .. urm .. weird, but some were nice. (: becky had problems getting in but ended up getting in anyway! saw many old people and mr tan! haha i just walked pass fat susie lee ignoring her. she never fails to irk us out. after that clique hung out at cp! we practically stoned around and all. then toi went home and the rest of us went to ninny's house to watch the OC. kinda interesting though i don't really watch it. ha.

fridayy.. class outing! qibin themis rongcheng rachell fernie toi and i. upload pictures soon. i came the latest and we went to kbox.. i tell you it was hilarious because someone sang really WELL.... we were in the mercy of his ears.. hahah. ohwells. i shan't go into details. :/our birkenstocks has arrived by the way! yippeeeee. i'm thinking of getting another pair.. hmm. met jaslyn in the evening.. i miss her la. we used to go to marina south to have picnics and whine about how irritated we are, and go shopping the whole day and whatever nots. we don't even have time for ourselves now.

saturday, met songyao in the morning at toa payoh.. pet was supposed to come but don't know what happened to her! got kinda bored and did this on his calculator. masterpiece man! that ass had to clear my work and changed to "Song is Godlike." SHEEEESHHH! james came to meet us and i had to leave after awhile for tuition. then met arthur and tammy at j8 before going down to tuition together. arthur and i went down to town after tuition cos i wanted to collect my jeans i bought and altered the day before, and buy a shorts there! then studied at lido basement macs.. wasn't very productive cos we were talking most of the time! ha.

okay that's about it. today is bad. i haven't studied. i haven't even attempted to study..

Why did I let myself believe miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend that I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale, a dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star that's coming true
But everybody else could tell that I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y




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