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Monday, May 30, 2005 ; 2:05 PM
please tell me i didn't screw up my chinese Os! hah. i won't be surprised if i get C.. :( but please lemme get a B!! i think i'll never get anywhere near my A2, unless some miracle happens. hah. roars. paper 1, i stated the wrong question for the letter writing. gah! i hope they don't penalise! compo was easy. :D i almost copied wholesale the compo which i wrote that gave me 40 marks. lol. paper 2, i so didn't know how to write the han zi. ulu pandan words came out for zao ju. argh. close passage was quite easy. ha. compre was a little tough but i tried my best to make my answer complete, though i'm sure some of them sounded crap. the whole paper sounds bad enough. lol. to make it all worse, my friend from another school said it was easy! ... bahha. whatever. my fate's sealed.
and i hate cats! arghh. a stray cat jumped in from my backyard on saturday early morning 3am (i still don't know how it did that) and pry open my chadchan's cage in an attempt to eat it! obviously, horrified chadchan ran around the cage trying to escape from the claws of the monster and started squeaking. the fat ugly disgusting cat got angry with itself for not being able to catch chadchan, so it started banging the cage to open it further. my maid was awoken by the noise of the banging of cage, and of poor chadchan sqeaking for its dear life. :( she chased the stupid cat outta the house and went back to sleep. and i only found out that in teh morning chadchan was injured when i saw the sides of the cage smeared with bloodstains and chadchan's eyes were bloodshot and the skin around the throat was ripped apart. agh!! how can i not hate cats like this. i had to bring it to the vet and it cost 66 bucks for consultation, treatment and medication. i could've used the money to like buy a new school bag or smth. hah. and now chadchan's healing, but still very traumatised. :(
i'm a happy china bird who's gonna lose her happiness very soon. :(
replies.
glynis: haha i like it too!
cheryl: haha, HOW WAS YOUR CHI PAPER! GAHHH.
peishan: thanks! i hope i didn't do badly. booo.
sharon: hey! haha relinked.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Friday, May 27, 2005 ; 6:49 PM
I wouldn't think of you today ;
It's been seven months and counting ;
You've moved on, I still feel exactly the same ;
It's just that everywhere I go ;
All the buildings know your name ;
Like photographs and memories of love ;
Steel and granite reminders ;
The city calls your name and I can't move on ;
Ever since you've been gone ;
The lights go out the same ;
The only difference is you call another name ;
To your love, to your lover now ;
To your love, the lover after me ;
Am I all alone in the universe? ;
There's no love on these streets ;
I have given mine away to a world that didn't want it anyway ;
So this is my new freedom ;
It's funny I don't remember being chained ;
But nothing seems to make sense anymore ;
Without you I'm always twenty minutes late ;
And as time goes by so slowly ;
The nights are cold and lonely ;
I shouldn't be holding on ;
But I'm still holding on for you ;
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Wednesday, May 25, 2005 ; 7:48 PM
Olevels chinese is in FIVE frigging days time. wth. i hope i don't screw up the paper.. i calculated and realised that i need an A2 or at least B3 for chi to get into my dream jc! gahh. :( time is passing really fast please. before we know it, it'll be all over. and before we know it, we'll be getting back our results! ahhh. how scary.
okay nothing else. off !
And no one is ever gonna get to me, oh
The way you do me, baby can't you see
That you're the one, the only one
Who's ever made me feel this way
Nothing's ever coming even close, no
No one's ever been comparable to you
jesse mccartney is SO irresistible.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Saturday, May 21, 2005 ; 8:26 PM
yesterday. met miss bestfriend at gardens to drink coffee and eat cake. ahha. sound so ahpek. i got a triple decker! yums. zell got ice mocha which was awesome as well. anyways, met shyan cus we wanted to borrow five bucks to eat another cake cos we were broke, but decided not to in the end. so we went to shyan's house to kill time? but hey it was friday!
so there were lotsa dogs and hamsters. and there was this dog called "vanakam" or whatever the spelling, obviously named by its indian owner. haha. it kept barking and showing us attitude lah. kept on grrring at us and using its paw to bang on the metal grills. and cus i saw shyan's aunt scolding another dog for misbehaving and barking so loudly, i wanted to try the same to 'vanakam' to see if it actually listens, afterall i really wanted it to soften down. so i went over infront of its cage, and was like "shut up la! you're so noisy! bark and bark. can you just keep quiet?" and the dog silenced and looked right back at me, and starting whimpering. its eyes started turning watery, and when it blinked, i saw a tear drop falling outta its eye! i was like OHMYGAWSH what did i do?!! oh boy oh boy. i tried to like cheer it up and say sorry and stuff, but it ignored me and turned away. it even turned its back on me! ahhhh. i felt so guilty lah. i didn't know dogs were as emotional as humans and i didn't know they could understand body language. boooo. :( felt so bad after that. but after awhile it became okay again and started making noise. heh.
It's been hours, seems like days since you went away ;
and all I do is check the screen to see if you're okay ;
you don't answer when I phone, guess you wanna be left alone ;
so I'm sending you my heart my soul, and this is what I'll say ;
I'm sorry, oh so sorry, can't you give me one more chance ;
to make it all up to you ;
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Thursday, May 19, 2005 ; 8:46 PM
skipped school yesterday cus i was having cramps in the morning again. boo. toi came over and we played badminton outside my house and it was so windy, we looked like fools running around chasing after the ball that flew around with the wind. ahaha. oh yeah. i forgot to mention. i just found out that cheeboo is a BOY. gawsh. fancy calling the male hamster cheeboo (slang for cheebye) when he doesn't even have one, and the female hamster chad chan. wth. ha. maybe i should switch their names.
after school today before tuition, jaslyn and i ate lunch at cp then i realised i left my wallet in school! so we went back to school jaslyn was kinda in trouble cus there was some passing out parade rehearsal at the basketball court and mr tan caught us walking in.
mr tan: jaslyn! you coming for practice now?
jaslyn: (acting blur) huh? today meh? i thought tmr? i got tuition today. we're back in school cos joanna left her wallet in the hall.
mr tan: (looks at me, waves his hand back and forth and gimme that you're-hopeless face) haiya that joanna ah. might as well just leave herself here!
wahaha. the way he said it was darn funny lah. but i have to admit he wasn't wrong to say that cus i left my specs and wallet in school twice this year already and got him to help me look for it. HAHA.
mom is nice. she's letting me go hongkong with jaslyn and maybe some others if i get 13 and below for Os. motivation!!
I've tried to go on like I never knew you ;
I'm awake but my world is half asleep ;
I pray for this heart to be unbroken ;
But without you all I'm going to be is incomplete ;
.. you've changed so much that i don't even know you anymore.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005 ; 7:09 PM
Nathan Scott: When I fell to the floor tonight, I was so scared, I was so terrified. Then I saw you, and I promised myself that if I could just get up, I'd walk over to you... I'd tell you how much I need you and how much I want you... and how nothing else matters.
i've got 40/50 for yesterday's compo :D and stupid ling lao shi read it out to the class and was like "this doesn't look like what she'll write isn't it?" HMPH. anyways, still happy. since my chinese has been utterly disguesting always. :/ but the teacher told me i got that mark cos she gave my credit for writing better than how i always do..
today i had one of the worse cramps ever again!! that stuff came right after paper 1 ended, and i started having cramps in the mids of paper 2! it was so pain i couldn't continue doing the paper lah. susan ng was nice. she saw me in pain and made the effort to look for those hot bags to put on stomach (but she couldn't find any), and got me hot water. :) so jaslyn and i took a cab back right after paper ended, and the friggin pain only stopped 3 hours after i took the pink pill! stupid cramps. i'd swear i'd do anything to let the pain go away. jaslyn had to entertain herself with my hamsters and a few mags while i lay in bed squirming like a freak. serious. haha.
tuition right after my pain was gone (thankfully), and an acs guy was accompanied with malcolm to my house while we were having tuition cos his exams were over and was very free to follow malcolm around to revise his work (as i was told). haiya. too bad his a year younger than us. :/ it was really weird lah, he just sat at my hall and stone like a log doing his stuff. like, okayyy..
REPLIES.
cheryl: thanks. :D YES, i can't stand them too! ewww!
xiuxian: HELLO! bahhaha we're both suckers for chinese okay. if we ever do well, you'll be getting A*. :) okay okay.. i shouldn't be that negative. :D we all can do well if we work hard!
glynis: i like it too. ;) see you around!
nic: haha. !! yes we will. and we shall go for jaychou lookalikes and chinabirds hunting and go gaga dancing in circles! yay!
zelly: missy bestfrienddd! thanks. heh. where have you been?! :) hardly see you these days in school. anyway, yes! hoho.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Saturday, May 14, 2005 ; 11:00 PM
looking back on where we first met
i cannot escape and i cannot forget
baby you're the one, you still turn me on
you can make me whole again ;
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Friday, May 13, 2005 ; 7:35 PM
there. our group's version of "almost- bowling for soup"! ahah.
I almost got drunk in school at 60
Where i almost made out with the washing machine
Which almost went on to wash my undies
But got sent halfway to the Northern Maldives
I almost went on to swim with the ducks
But they all ended up sucking my little butt
And I almost got sucked into the Bermuda Triangle
And i almost got kissed by spongebob and the starfish.
And the washing machine came flying back to my arms
and gave me a big fat kiss
I almost wish i would have slept with it.
gawd. how did we come up with such crap?! ahaha.
chinese ppp starts today.. which means exam paper 1s and 2s everyday.. wow. chinese Os is like in 2 weeks time?! how fast is that?! got back chinese prelim results.. i've got B4..! bahh. nvm. i'm kinda glad cus i'm always failing?! heh. i want an A2 for Olevels leh. which is like so hard? mrs liau told 4e that it's most likely that we'll score 10 marks more than our current prelim results for Olevels. and for me, which means an A2! :D (hopefully). :(
and how forgetful i was lah. i forgot to change my phone's profile to silent and during the chinese paper it starting beeping! gawwdd. volume level 4 somemore. haha. i guess the teachers closed one eye.. phew.
THE AMITYVILLE HORROR opens today! watched it with toii at lido. it was nc16 so i thought we'd go lido cus the ticket sellers were all senior citizens and they wouldn't care much and i sneaked in thrice before. but today the stupid ticket sellers demanded for our ic and stuff. :( we had no choice but to re-queue hoping to get another ticket seller. and the other woman asked for our ic again. so we asked a couple to buy for us instead. heh. the show's nice!! damn freaky please. to think it's a true story.. that's really unbelievable lah.
shut up, get lost.
i don't wanna hear you no more.
it's nice to know that you were there,
thanks for acting like you cared,
and making me feel like i was the only one.
it's nice to know we had it all,
thanks for watching as i fall,
and letting me know we were done.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Thursday, May 12, 2005 ; 9:07 PM
school's been kinda empty lately cus the sec 1 to 3s are having mid years and stuff, while we're like stuck in classrooms the whole day. english was funny. every group got to present the lyrics they wrote, and ours were darn funny i swear. we got the tune of 'almost- bowling for soup'. wahahah. will post it over here when toii has posted. heh.
emaths test today after school. it wasn't good. we had to do 80 marks worth of questions.. and i know i've already lost about 13 marks! :( bahhhhh!
starting mother tongue program tomorrow. how boring la. we'll be glueing our asses on the seats of the hall doing chinese papers the whole day! and oh yes. getting back chinese prelim papers tmr. i'm so gonna die. booooooo. :(((
replies.
glynis: yeah i will! thankyou. you study hard too.
jace: relinked!
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005 ; 7:23 PM
anyways, mr tan sang "tong hua" to our class yesterday and i just wanted to laugh and cry and roll off my chair. me and toi were practically staring at each other giggling and crossing our fingers hoping nothing wrong happens to our ears. haha, okay it wasn't that bad. just a lil odd.
i just realized i've not caught any movies for ages. i wanna watch Guess Who, The Amityville Horror and Madagascar!
anyways, chinese ppp starting soon. dreadful it is. poo.
replies.
sham & glynis: thanksyou guys. :)
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005 ; 7:10 PM
you're confusing me, don't play with me, don't play with me.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Monday, May 09, 2005 ; 8:22 PM
It happens every time, you've given me the sign
we start to get it on but then you stop me
you know I've had it up to here, you need to be more clear
cus your the one that led me here, so take me
cus you said that you would
but then you changed you mind
how could you do this to me
it's just so unkind
and it's cruel if you say that you'll go all the way
I can't wait for the day
that you don't change you're mind
you've got to understand
things are getting out of hand
you can't just leave me sitting here unseen to
you know I don't know what to do
Or how long to wait for you
you said you needed time so I won't rush you
I'll never let you down, I'll always be around
when you need someone to catch you when you fall down
I'm waiting here for you if you decide you want to
if you want me to stay then I'm only a phone call away..
Against All Odds
How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you
You're the only one who really knew me at all
How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
Cus we've shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all
I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all
So take a look at me now
Cus there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
Cus there's just an empty space
But to wait for you is all I can do
And that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now
'Cause l'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take
:(
replies.
jaslyn: i dont know.. hmm. i thought i remembered it was shih tzu.
cheryl: i think so, but i'm not quite sure. ahah! damn cute.
toi: haha! yes. with the tongue handing sideways out of the mouth.
peishan: HELLO! yeah it is. looks like a plush toy. yah, thanks! hope you're coping well at mi too.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Friday, May 06, 2005 ; 7:44 PM
the dog's friggin cute. :( i caught them in the pet shop near my house. ahhh. i want that dog!!!!!
artistic shot of chaddiechan with a remotecontrol. lol.
cheeboo. "albino"..? not.
toi just went home from my house. she likes to abuse my hamsters by shoving stuff toys right infront of their faces to scare them and placing the toys on their heads! gawd. she said cheeboo looks albino. heck no. haha.
school is boring these days. every other sec 4 exp classes are having free periods almost half the day whereas my class has lessons the whole day! no fair. :( but maybe it's a good thing actually, although it wouldn't differ much for toii, nic and i cus we don't pay attention much? (wake up jo! it's olevels this year!)
stingray today was scary. it smelt of ammonia, and it tasted of ammonia. yulks. :( (for those who've done chem practicals will know what i mean. ammonia is sick.) what if i die? what if there's side effects? :(
anyways, went to gym ytd with jaslyn and ran about 3km in total. and i happily went to eat fried fish noodles and i assume the trip to the gym has gone wasted! argh!
mothers' day this sunday. sis and i got this really pretty heart-shaped thingy made by many flowers put together. and it's framed up. :)
replies.
ninny: hello niehnieh!! -giggles and farts.
beverley: hello! oh yes relink me yeah? you take care too!!
toii: :DDD
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Tuesday, May 03, 2005 ; 4:11 PM
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong ;
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right ;
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong ;
Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep ;
I'm barely hanging on ;
Here I am, once again, I'm torn into pieces ;
Can't deny it, can't pretend ;
Just thought you were the one ;
Broken up, deep inside ;
But you won't get to see the tears I cry ;
Behind these hazel eyes ;
I told you everything, opened up and let you in ;
You made me feel alright for once in my life ;
Now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be ;
So together, but so broken up inside ;
Cause I can't breathe, no I can't sleep ;
I'm barely hanging on ;
Swallow me then spit me out ;
For hating you, I blame myself ;
Seeing you it kills me now ;
No I don't cry on the outside anymore ;
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Monday, May 02, 2005 ; 8:55 PM
chinese prelim is in 2 days. :( better go study la. ciaos!!
replies.
glynis: :) yesyes.
hazel: are u okay? :(
adeline: burger !!! i miss you!
cheryl: yeah.. okay maybe a little of green eyed monsters. but seriously if you love that person you just want him/her to be happy. sounds ridiculous but i think it's kinda true. hoho.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y