_____________________i could get used to this.
Monday, May 29, 2006 ; 10:47 PM
done up my new template! i'm proud of it. haha ripped off the graphics from the L'Amour nokia designs and did photoshop to merge the stuffs and create the background. nice right?! the june hols are here. but doesn't really seem like the holidays to me..
went back to school today for chem lecture in the morning. after that went with most of the class to coronation plaza for lunch at some funny budget restaurant and shared a meal with lester.. after that some went for cca and we, xiangli lester charmaine serene shiting and themis, went to candy empire @ millenia walk! xiangli bought $20 worth of chocolates.. i just got this marshmallow covered chocolate bar which was FREAKING NICE TO EAT! <3 ask the rest cos they tried it too. then we took a shuttle bus to raffles city cus charmaine and others wanted to eat at subway.. talked quite a bit.. funny la. then some of us left.
went to meet jason and terri at lido.. supposedly "IG outing". very funny. only 3 ppl turned up. haha. yolanda couldn't make it. we watched Da Vinci Code.. was kinda wordy and all, but managed to understand the story after much questions. haa.
okay i gotta run. clique chalet tomorrow! (: i'm finally gonna see them after quite a long time..! till then..
i lie awake at night, see things in black and white
i've only got you inside my mind, you know you have made me blind ;
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________crash and burn.
Saturday, May 27, 2006 ; 10:15 PM
thursday, cjc school day-off due to the elections holiday couple of weeks ago. i thought i could stay home to revise and study for my gp mid-year exam paper the next day. but, no! ended up at the comp and tv most of the time. what's up with me man! hmmm. that was such a unproductive day..
friday, went to school for gp MYE, as mentioned above.. paper 1 was okay, i hope i didn't write out of point.. i tried my best to crap out as much. paper 2 was not too good.. i totally had no clue what the author was talking about until i read it again and again and again. i only started to do my AQ which was worth 7 marks during the last 15 mins of the paper! and i left one question totally blank. hmmm. hope i can pass or something!
after school, class split up.. bailyn toi arthur and fernie had detention and some went to far east.. just slacked around with the 4 ppl doing detention. then met some others in town and went to amk together like on wednesday..
i think 1T34's getting much better now.. maybe a lil more united. i'm so glad every single one in 1T34 came down for the service to support chris.. seeing everyone turn up despite staying so far. like xiling who stays in queenstown, angeline who stays around harbourfront, arthur randall fernie rongcheng lydia staying at the bukit timah/bukit merah area, rachell toi lester etc etc staying at town area, charmaine henry ryan staying at eunos area.. and all the rest.. having to come down to ang mo kio, really shows the sincerity.. and chrissy you're sucha strong girl. (:
and like what lester said in his blog, i really think themis has helped the class bond a great deal. without him, imagine how little topics and entertainment there'd be in class. and he can be quite nice and helpful sometimes.
today, dental in the morning cus there were some faults in my braces. then, headed for the gym! and my gosh, i forgot i needed money to get into the gym and used it up on cabbing, and i was short of 10 cents to get in! the BIGGEST JOKE of the century. i spent 15 to maybe even 30 mins loitering around finding loose change on the floor, till i lost my patience and decided to approach a kind stranger for 10 stupid cents instead. ahha. i felt like a beggar. 3km run and some other machines then headed home.
the sun was irresistably bright at 12 NOON so i put on suntan lotion and ran out to my garden to tan! ok i know i'm psychotic. sat behind the walls though. cos there were a group of banglas opposite doing construction work.. but after 20 mins i went in cos mom got home and she says i'm crazy and that i might get skin cancer under that sun. -.- haaa. went for tuition in the afternoon..
that sums up my day.
I wish I could be every little thing you wanted, all the time
I wish I could be every little thing you wanted, all the time
some times..
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________live for the moment.
Thursday, May 25, 2006 ; 9:23 PM
How do you walk away from someone you love
And take the road of friend?
Can you reroute the course you have taken
And start over once again?
I don't really want to let you go
But inside me I know I must;
The times we've loved... the times you've left
My heart says stay... but it's my mind I must trust.
We have shared so much together
Laughter... fun times... tears;
Yet sometimes we can't turn back time
We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal.
I know one day you will be happy
And your soulmate you will find;
I know we each have one out there
Even if for now... only in our minds.
May life be gentle with you
May God's best come your way;
And on some quiet tomorrow
You will realize things were better this way.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________life's uncertainties.
; 10:23 AM
haven't blogged for quite some time.. dental appointment on monday night, and the dentist suddenly told me he feels i should do extractions. the fickle-minded me kept thinking to myself if i should extract my teeth. in the end i extracted two of my top pre-molars! the 4 total injections they gave me on my gums were pain lah.. after extraction, i had to bite on some white gauze for every half an hour to stop the bleeding. mine never stopped till about 2 hours later! if i didn't bite the gauze hard enough, blood would drip out. eww. i couldn't even have my dinner. by the late night, i felt body aches and started getting a fever and it continued to the next 2 days. still went to school though. sis and toi said it's cos of an infection through the extraction.
tuesday, class celebrated qibin's birthday and gave him a wallet. then outing at far east after school, without the birthday boy. part of the class went subway to eat, while me toi and chris went to the level 3 chicken rice stall! <3 met this woman doing some tv show outside far east and she wanted to pick out 3 ppl to do an interview on our views on down syndrome. toi and chris were so willing to help until they walked over with her and saw a freaking camera. haha. the guys just went off. we were left trying to reject the woman. other than that, nothing much happened.
wednesday, bad news heard in the morning.. was kind of affected by what had happened. had just quarreled with my parents that morning, and that news i heard made me wanna reflect on myself. and i felt very bad for her.. ok enough of that, but i was late for school by merely 3 mins? then michael tan wanted to speak to all those in my class who didn't turn up last thursday and without an mc, cus our class had the record of the most number of ppl (10 to be exact) to be absent that day in the whole level. zzz. and i was one of em. he made us do detention on either the day itself or fri so i killed 2 birds with 1 stone! served both on the same day. phew.
so after school, studied at library with badminton ppl, namely petty songyao yenkiat james. haowen came for less than 20 minutes. -.- then i left for detention at 5.. served together with ryan and angeline. then after that rachell and henry ended cca so all of us went down together to amk by train.. yenkiat came along too. reached there just in time for the service.. most of our classmates were there too. bro paul and lucy lee also came. she was so strong..! i totally admire her for that.. at the end of the service, we sent our condolences to the family and seeing her, her family and people around me crying, i couldn't help but do the same, a lil. learnt alot yesterday.
went home with bailyn.. we walked from ave 6 to the 136 bus stop at the mrt. not too far, probably bout 2 to 3 bus stops away. but our bags were damn heavy and it had been a long day la. oh yes. we got on the 136 bus and we found out something so silly we could cry. the bus actually passed by the place we left! ave 6! ahh. damn silly of me, didn't know it goes to that stop. we tried consoling ourselves that it's exercise for us haha. hmm. talked about quite alot of stuffs and it's damn cool that we've the exact sentiments and thinking about many issues. ha.
that's about it.. today's a school off-day cos of the elections. GP midyear exam tomorrow.. i've no idea how to study for it. sighh.
oh great. the time of the month is here again.
i love you chrissy. <333 we all do.whyyy. why must it always turn out this way. is that too much that i'm asking for?
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
Friday, May 19, 2006 ; 10:10 PM
i think what's been bothering me the whole day long is the issue of my studies. probably the very fear of retaining. been doing real badly for my tests la. straight fail for all 3 H2 subjects for my CAs. in cj, CAs seem like such small things! the teacher just goes, for example, "the following monday you all are gonna have a chem test on chemical bonding okay." and the next thing you know, you're facing a chem paper on that very day which states 'CJC Continual Assessment 2' right smack on the front cover.. then it's too late to even scream
ohmygosh.
it's only the first few months of jc and i'm already scoring so badly. now how am i to cope in the future when i'm gonna learn more topics and need to cramp up more stuffs in my pea brain? i wouldn't wanna even think of that. oh, and i underestimated GP. i think it's tougher than i thought.
Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to d comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, on love.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________who gives two shits about you seriously?
Monday, May 15, 2006 ; 10:14 PM
today the girls followed the guys down to tampines to cheer for them. they played against mjc.. it was such a close fight! 2-3! owell, at least they played quite well.
sigh. i don't know why i felt so horrible after that.. but i think i did over react. thank you haowen for being there for me.. and seeing my alter ego. haha sorry if i scared you. why should i give a damn about you? this is so stupid. it's not like i've been talking to you alot lately. so why am i so sensitive? haha. hmmm. silly me. okay this is dumb. i can't believe i'm blogging about this. let go means let go. why let shortiemartie (as nicknamed by haowen) affect you? those stuff happened 3 freaking years ago, but ended a year ago already. stupid jo. you're so stupid. you're so silly to be like this over again.
ninny: eeeeeeee what ARE you! hahaha.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________down with fever! :(
Sunday, May 14, 2006 ; 9:26 AM
haha crap. on friday morning after gym session the night before, i fell sick. for lying to the doc for having flu on thurs, now i really have flu. i practically warmed up my whole bed till it was so hot, i woke myself up with my own body heat. i was so keen to play badminton that i told myself i wasn't having any fever. by the time we played finish, my feet was burning hot and i was feeling giddy already. lol. sigh. my dad says my racket's string tension is too high, no wonder it sucks. ha. went back home by noon and slept the whole day! and even through the night. that shows how tired i was. MI gang watched poseidon that day i think! booo! i wanna watch also lah, but i was burning and aching all over. sigh!
yday studied at brinda's again. lmao. the songs they play are HILARIOUS, seriously. songyao was there first, then yenkiat joined us, and finally after 2 hrs my FELLOW FRUIT BASKET FRIEND CHARMAINE came! teehee. she damn cute lah, got lost among the flats, and when she arrived she got damn frustrated cos she was initially at the ntuc right behind brinda's. sorry for giving unclear directions ribena! haa. anyways, haowen and pet pangseh-ed me totally. sigh, nevermind! and haowen i'm not pissed with you. ha ha. THEfriend doesn't bear grudges.
roar i'm still having fever, and now i'm having sore throat and runny nose as well. great. but feeling much better already. whee. might be going to metro warehouse sales later depending on my mood. till then..
I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again with nothing left inside
Know I don't wanna, but I gotta let you go.sham: hehe changed already laa. (: i still love you!
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________The Perfect Ending.
Thursday, May 11, 2006 ; 10:21 PM
cjc badm girls are out already. yupp. lost to mjc that day. but it was a tough fight and good game i suppose. i guess there won't be a girls team anymore.. since there's like only 3 to 4 j1s.. and the j2s have already stopped cca to concentrate on their Alevels. quite sad la, when the girls team starts to get more bonded, it just has to close down. but, cj boys won once again! 5-0 to MI. haa. (: their down to top 8. we're so gonna see their final matches.
i don't know, and what ryan said is true. it's so unfair for jliu to make us sign a contract to prove that we promise to go for all trainings and morning runs, still attend cca for a short while even though you aren't feeling well that day, and provide proper mc if we really aren't well--- before competition. that's reasonable, but what now? competition has ended.. we all don't even know what's gonna happen to the girls team. i just thought of it and i really wonder to myself what's the use of us J1s going for so many of the trainings yet knowing badminton girls has 90% chance of closing down after competition ends? well, i guess for the love of the sport accompanied by great teammates. it's a pity it has to end like that. although i don't play well, i look forward to trainings or every time spent with the team. but, is it fair? they told us to get a substitute cca (yes we did), but so does that mean our efforts and hardwork in trainings have gone to waste? does that mean our attendance in badminton (3 trainings a week and morning runs on non-training days) have become nothing? are we still considered to have badminton as one of our cca in our cca record by the end of the year?
had my first vball cca training yesterday.. it was alright cos at least toi was with me! made 4 to 6 friends which are damn nice, but the rest are urm, shan't comment.. i don't know. all i know is the vball girls together doesn't feel like a team. not at all. yesterday made me realise how much i miss badminton. how much cooler and bonded the badm girls team are, and how much more fun the sport is. :( my hand has bruises all over! yikes. went home with serene and boy did we talked about many ppl. ahah.
todayyy, skipped school cos it was sports carnival and i wasn't involved in anything anyway. met ryan at parkway parade.. he too skipped. heh heh. tried to study at mos but failed horribly. okay i did read thru econs and attempted a math question in which i got stuck halfway. ah i suck la. we talked about badminton stuffs and all. haha funny shit la. ryan used to gimme the worse impression in my class, as an unfriendly stoner! and now he's like friendly and nice and he knows ppl like chinabird. -sniggers. i can't believe he was in the national badminton junior squad. ah well... what a waste he didn't continue to the youth squad. then he went off for training and i took bus down to sengkang to get mc from polyclinic and collect olevel cert with clique.. ended up all not going cos mr tan said the administrator went home and he doesn't know where our certs are kept. sigh! met sham at the polyclinic anyways! (: which was kind of uncalled for.
went back home by evening and went to The Pines club with dad and mom! used to gym with mom while dad went to swim.. haha the gym had no one lah. i shall go there often! it's free usage for me anyways. jogged 4km non-stop! yes i know some would think it's no big fat deal but it's an accomplishment for me cos i used to be a loser and get tired and all by 2.4km.. haha and this time by 4km i still felt great. jogged a total of 5km. yay. i know jogging on treadmills are less tiring than on track though.. guess that's bout it.. playing badminton with my dad tmr morning! hoho. till thenn.
Hello, good morning, how you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too,
all of my regrets are nothing new
So this is the way that I say I need You
This is the way that I'm learning to breathe
I'm learning to crawl
I'm finding that You and You alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________boys won vjc! (:
Monday, May 08, 2006 ; 9:24 PM
dinner yday at some ulu part of chinatown and north bridge road. celebrated early mothers' day with family and relatives.. food was good! but me and my sis felt uber guilty of the amount of fats we consumed, we decided to burn em all! so being the psychotic health conscious us, we jogged around our neighbourhood when we reached home at about 12 midnight! ahha. but it was great after that, felt one litre of oil off me. okok, exaggeration.
after school today haowen charmaine and i cabbed down straight to tampines to cheer on the guys.
and cjc boys beat vjc 4-1! victory! well done guys! :D okay this is dumb cos i don't even think any of the guys will be reading this. anywayy.. i'm so happy for them! the matches were all freaking nice to watch. everyone kept squealing like mad freaks whenever a point is scored or service returned. 2nd doubles was kind of a walkover though.. cos the opponent tore his hamstring while playing. sigh. i feel quite bad for them.. :( but it was a good game. anyway... next match cjc boys against MI if i'm not wrong, and if they win, they'll get into top 8! in which we stand a high high chance already! or should i say, almost 100% chance. wheee. cjc girls against mjc tmr. let's hope for the best.
anyway, school's alright so far.. homework's not pinning me down just as yet. they come in pieces, not piles. (: and thank goodness, no more PI for us! okay, gotta do some homework now. till then.
ninny: NINNY IS MY FRIEND! AN EVEN BETTER BETTER FRIEND THAN HAAGAN DAAZ! (p/s: haagan daaz is tastier though) teehee.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________reminiscence.
Saturday, May 06, 2006 ; 10:05 PM
Vague memories play in my head of when you and I were one.
Trying to find a time in life of when I thought our end would come.
But I never had the slightest doubt, no such things were in my mind.
No questions if I really loved you, no mysteries we had to find.
Things never got old by your side, our love was new each dawning day.
Up until your heart decided, that here with me you couldn't stay.
It told you that we couldn't be, I never knew the reason why.
Your words still linger in my thoughts, an echoed pain with your "Good-bye".
Did that good-bye erase our love, did it take all that we had?
Did it run off with our hearts at hand, leaving me alone and sad.
It's been so long and time can't heal, this open wound that hasn't gone.
Still I wait for your return, hopelessly remaining strong.
"He left your side, he's gone for good", that's what my heart tells me each night.
But when you left and said "Good-bye", you didn't mean forever...right?
i need some sleep, you can't go on like this
i tried counting sheep, but there's one i always miss.
everyone says i'm getting down to low
everyone says 'you just gotta let it go'
you just gotta let it go..on a lighter note, strawberry haagan daaz makes a good friend.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________PW sucks big time.
Thursday, May 04, 2006 ; 10:22 PM
quick entry before i continue on my final PI which is due tmr. argh! i'm feeling so stressed i'm having a bad headache.. and i lack sleep big time. cjc girls won ijc yesterday 3-2! after 2 friendlies and losing to them, we finally won. i'm so happy for the team. after match, went down to paragon thai express with petty marie sam xiaoyan and weiqin (: ooh shrimp paste rice rocks. or prolly i was just too hungry..
guys lost to tjc today.. congrats to pokiat. sigh.. felt quite disturbed after hearing that. they trained hard and we all believed they could win. but nevermind, just as long as they played their best. i hope they beat vjc.. or should i say, they must beat em!..
i feel dejected today. i wanna scream out loud now. i hate feeling this way, i hate being so paranoid. but i hate knowing the truth, cos the truth hurts. i wish i could be more ignorant, then maybe i'll still hold my head up high and not be affected. then, maybe things would be different eventually.
forget it.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________labour day hols.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006 ; 8:05 PM
i'll try to sum up my extended labour day hol as much as possible.
sundayy. went for chem make-up tuition at orchard since i didn't go on saturday.. after that, i went over to redhill anchorpoint at the evening to meet up with the badminton ppl, mainly petrina, haowen, james and songyao. they were having their dinner at there.. after which, haowen THEfriend pangsehed us to go home! :( after seeing her for barely half an hour. pet almost went home too, but she didn't! (: haha. so the rest of us went over to brinja's/bringa's to studyy! whatever the name of the store was! cos bukit merah lib had no more study tables available. it was some indian fastfood restaurant, and frankly, we were really the only chinese there.. they even played indian music and the cashiers and customers communicated in tamil. ahah! other than that studying was okay. i learnt a little something.
mondayy. malaysia JB with family! surprisingly there was not much traffic at the imigration checkpoints like usual! moreover it being a public holiday.. i think everyone thinks there's gonna be a traffic jam so everyone didn't wanna go jb. what everyone don't know is that everyone's feeling the same way. haha! owells. i realise malaysians have badd dressing fashion. go see the clothes there. shopped around and bought stuffs only from international stores, but currency in m'sia is smaller so it's cheaper theree. mainly for sister's formal wear for work, i bought a skirt and a jacket! hmm hmms. got some dvds too. some movies i've yet to catch, like Ice Age 2, Memoirs of a Geisha and V for Vendetta! i still wanna catch Aquamarine.
todayy. nothing much.. toi, shiting, rongcheng and i haven't done 2.4km run yet. today we still did not do it, but played volleyball instead. gahh. i wanna get it over and done with quick! guys went for first A Divisions inter-school badminton tournament against SFMS and they beat them flat 5-0! So proud of them! I hope they beat tjc on thursday too! Girls A Div tmr.. against innova jc.. sigh, probably the deciding match on whether cjc gets to top 8 or not. owells. After school, the class had a mini birthday celebration for Xiling! (: while waiting for lester and shiting to arrive with the cake they bought from gelare, the whole class watched the Tennis friendlies from outside our window. ahah! damn funny. CJC vs NJC.. kept cheering and clapping when the cjc team scored a point. imagine how dumb we looked to the tennis players, cheering from 3 stories above. practically the whole class gathered around the windows. ahha. but i love to watch how the players smash and defend the smashes! so fun. after school, haowen and i went to far east to eat. and walked around for awhile.. sorry pet! :( we wanted to study with you but we couldn't get you and it was quite late alreadyy.. boooo.
Don't lead me on
Don't toy with my affections baby
Why should I surrender my heart?
Just to wake up and find you've gonereplies.
christine: elloo! you msged me when i was already in m'sia! ahah. we're so not fated to study together la. :( i wanna go to your house some other day anyways!
glynis: ahah! okay okay! having midyears now yeah? study hard! we'll catch up reeeaalll soon! i promise! <3
beverley: haha it's Brighter Than Sunshine by Aqualung!
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y