_____________________mugging for OLEVELS. sigh!
Saturday, October 29, 2005 ; 10:02 PM
I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
If you call me today, I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
Damn that's sad
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me
Os are approaching!!
hmmm. was reading my past entries and realised how no-life i've become.. from the most recent ones. ahah! wth.
okay someone's talking to me about the past. feel kinda odd about everything. :S it's over dear. let's just forget everything. you were the one who walked away first. and i've long ago gotten over everything. and stop asking, it's just different now. >:(
anyways i just found out something sad. booohooo.
replies.
van: alright la! it moved to city hall this year! :) no lah. i don't think everyone in rj are lidat lah. haha. dont worry, you'll find your way to fit in.
toi: nancy! i see how la. i'm not sure! boohooo.
glynis: where'd you see me? haha did i see you? i can't recall.. thanks beloved! i will! :)
peishan: haha promoted good alr yeah? can do well for As! :) wooo.. cool. i'm still deciding though! haha
natt: yep i saw. haha. the one we took tgt is in my friendster!
anne: okay you say one ah. we'll go zoo disturb the monkeys and poke the goldfishes and see if bubbles come out of their bellies. lol. yup limegreen rocks. imu too!
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_____________________ninny's birthday!
Tuesday, October 25, 2005 ; 11:11 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NINNYY!
had a mini celebration at ninny's house today.. i can still remember so vividly how ninny looked when we popped out from the sides and screamed happy birthday and popped confettis. haha.. she was carrying an umbrella and looked ten times blurrer than usual i dont know why. it was fun today though. :)
hmmmm. found a really great place to study. and been studying there for quite a number of times already. SMU! hah. sister's from there.. so she sneaks me in. cos they have this ezlink thing, where only the SMU students own a card that allows them to get into the building.. cooll. at least the guards didn't stop me from entering.. that means i look old enough to be 20! ahha yeah right.
Olevels is in 2 weeks! chinese is next week! gahhhh. study hard everyone.
replies.
van: why regretting? rj is like damn good lah. although stressful. don't regret. :) you made the right choice!
peishan: haha yeah so far. how'd you go there everyday anyway.. oh so i assume you've gotten back your results by now.. how's it?
glynis: hey beloved! thankeww. yeah we will. :)
carolina: heh will link you soon! yeah hopefully. :( hur.
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_____________________bio practical flop! ): physics/chem practical well done (:
Friday, October 21, 2005 ; 9:54 AM
biology practical on tues was a flop! gah. my first cambridge paper and i screwed up. everyone's saying it's like the hardest of all the practicals in the last ten years.. i studied the labellings for fruits, seeds and flowers, and what came out? a STEM FROM A PLANT for drawing and labelling, and ROOTS (carrot and onion) for observation and comparison! :( of all the possible specimens that could come out, the only two i did not study for just had to come out. GREAT! the last section on the benedict test is the only one that can pull up my marks. and bio prac contributes to 25% of the total subject mark please. :( oh wells. nvm, shall study harder for the theory paper!
but, physics/chem prac yesterday was great. :))) i'm quite confident of getting about above 11/15 for both. but yeah, it's not good to be too complacent. maybe i screwed up unknowingly too. hah. nic told me before the prac that her friend said if we request for extra of the given unknown solution, the invigilators will deduct our marks. and during the chem prac, i accidentally spilt my whole solution T! my whole paper got wet. dumb me. i used it to fill 2cmcube in two test tubes already but i still needed enough to fill two more test tubes. hah. luckily i left a teenie weee bit of solution left. like, less than 1cmcube! enough to fill two to three stingy drops of solution in two test tubes. :/ haha. it looked spastic but i didn't wanna risk losing my marks requesting for more solution.
woopeee. studying at toa payoh library almost everyday, like some loser. but it's nice to study there, even alone! rather than staying at home, cus i'll just end up sleeping/eating/watching tv. anyway, MT Os retake is on the 31st oct, and i haven't touched my chi ever since the first exam was over! oh boy. okay i'm gonna go library now. till then!
replies.
peishan: how did you fare? good? (: thanks! haha yeah. i'm still considering though.. but if i'm going Mi for first 3 mths, i think i'll go to toh tuck cos i heard bartley has no science stream?! faints.
adeline: buger! i miss you too! thanks.. yeah it's nice. (:
van: hoho yeah. you study hard too. i'm damn jealous of you lah. rjc!
nic: eh! no life lah nancy! :D
sham: shammy mummy! okay so i saw you once this week. the next time i'll see you is prolly during our Olevels emaths paper or someone's bday celebration. hah.
jaslyn: thanks monkey funkey jaslyn baslyn waslyn. (:
toi: nancy! we're so nancy we have no more nancies. sigh! weeheee. the nancies have no more life. haha..
sheryl: eeeeee... i don't lah. hahhaa. kidding. i do!
carolina: hello! you've a blog? Os prac.. refer to my entry. haha thanks! you tc!
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_____________________mugging.....
Wednesday, October 12, 2005 ; 7:46 PM
Are you swimming upstream in oceans of blue?
Do you feel like your sinking?
Are you sick of the rain
after all you've been through?
Well I know what you're thinking
When you can't take it
You can make it
Sometime soon I know you'll see
Cause when your in you're darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on and be strong.doh.. exam blues. where's my motivation.....
i'm doing fine studying these days but i just need that extra push to help me stay on track with my goal. my usual revision isn't enough for me to clinch those As. :( baaaaaa.. baaaa black sheep. -.- great, humans! i'm kinda shakey with my geog and all. die.
school's boring. the nancies are so nancy we have no more life left. lol. i think i'm gonna do selective schooling. some days i'd rather study on my own cos it's much more productive than sitting around doing merely two school papers for the whole half day. i could've completed much more past year papers on my own with that time.. and i like sheila and annie ong. they make me kinda like amaths. haha.
anyway, i want the U2 special edition iPod and iPod nano. oh randomness.
Os should end soon so i can geddit. haa.
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_____________________prelims L1R4 20. ahah loser.
Thursday, October 06, 2005 ; 7:41 PM
ooh. Olevels are coming so so soon. yucks. we received our science practicals timetable today.. it's scary how fast the days are numbered.
anyway, me toi and nic, all have L1R4 21.. so they moderated and we have 20 now.. i heard from other schools that they are moderating their marks like nobody's business! whereas mine, only moderate those who have 21 for L1R5 or L1R4! dumb. even students with 22 points they refuse to moderate to 20. anyway, they upped my emathby a mark so it's A1 instead of A2. :D what's irritating is i missed by one mark for my phy/chem and english to go to the next grade! that's damn sad you know. could've gotten L1R4 18 which sounds better.
know what? if it weren't for my bloody humans, i wouldn't have scored so disgustingly for my L1R5! it pulled it right down to 29 points. eww. but i'm going to accept the fact and i roughly know where my weaknesses in geog are now. (:
toi and i are considering M.I. for first three months.. go play and all. haha. not sure we really would want to it though. whatever it is, it's the Os we have to worry about now. gonna work so much harder to get into jc.
i'm off!
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_____________________prelim results suck big time. ):
Monday, October 03, 2005 ; 4:22 PM
prelim results were out today and i did crap..
my mood is so lousy now. the only subject i'm satisfied with is my A2 emaths.. i can't even get any A1s... the rest are all Bs and Cs.. and the two subjects that pulled me to rock bottom is bloody amaths and ss/geog.. F9 for amaths and E8 for ss/geog..... crap... i have only one humanities subject and i can't afford to screw it up... arghh. geog sucks big time. i wonder why i ever chose to do that combination.. where got mood to study like this. i don't know how to study for geog to score, or to even just pass.. :( geog sucks. the teachers who mark the geog papers are out there to kill us. come on, i wrote half a page long of answers for a 5 mark question and i only get 1 mark? i wrote down all the correct points but just that didn't elaborate! sheeeesh. dumb geog is doing injustice to me.
anyway, maybe i don't wanna go to sajc anymore. gosh. everyone wants to go there.. seems like the whole world is aiming for there.... what so great about there? it's just the uniform..... well nyjc is fine, ajc is fine too. it need not be sajc. moreover sajc has its own affiliations.. schools like st andrews, st hilda's, presbyterian high and st margs can get in with 2 points bonus, while we guys have to work extra hard just to get in there. not really worth the hard work right? might as well go into a jc where there isn't any affiliations so everyone in there has put in the same amount of effort as you and deserves to be in there as much as you.
gahh. my hopes and motivation to even get into a decent jc for the real intake in march is like 0.000001%.. this prelim has really made my confidence level drop a hell lot. not only have i let my mom down, but also myself.. i'm hopeless.
baby, don't talk to me about love.
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