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Friday, February 25, 2005 ; 10:40 PM
you fool.
look what you've done.
there's no use looking back or wondering how it could be now or might have been. oh, this i know, but still i can't find ways to let you go.replies.peishan: yeah. i wanna go there lah! hah. i wanna see you grinning away when you get your results ok.toi: yeah hurhur.jaslyn: it's not scary please. you lousy. lol!
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005 ; 4:40 PM
in sham's house now. hah. haven't been updating.. yes my stupid comp crashed. anyway, went to SAJC's funfair last saturday with bitch! she had a friend who's from there so he showed us around school.. now my mind's set on going there! haha. i like the people there and the whole school! after that got a lift from that sa guy and we went church at novena, and shopping again.
went raffles city ytd with mag and bitch cuz m)phosis was having sales there.. studied there too. yadda yadda.. i can't think of anything else that happened these few days. oh, yeah. i caught hide and seek with toi and sham.
charlie.. come out, come out wherever you are.. it's lame. started off kinda creepy and all, when in the end it was the father who was the so-called invisible friend cuz he had pyschological problems. nothing compared to jap horror movies. bahhaa.
don't say you love me, unless forever.
don't tell me you need me if you're not gonna stay
don't give me this feeling, i'll only believe it.
make it real, or take it all away..
replies.peishan: at some building in geylang! haha.. but i didn't go the next week cuz the newspapers didn't advertise anything about it anymore! hmph.cheryl: go buy it la! it's 50% off. LOLtoii: hello ding dong bell.
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Y Y Y Y Y
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Monday, February 14, 2005 ; 4:02 PM
saturday.
mom found a section in the life newspaper "SALES. brands ranging from roxy, mango and zara at rock bottom prices! today." so obviously THAT attracted my attention. i told myself i had to go no matter what. so i told jaslyn about it and we quickly cabbed down to geylang to that sales area in high spirits thinking of all the great stuffs we'll find there. funny la. we went there, the building was closed and an old man told us the sales were on the next week cos the newspapers printed wrongly. wadaheck! so okay nevermind. we took a bus to suntec.. shopped around.. took train down to heeren.. shopped around.. and made a last minute decision of going novena church! the service was at 6pm and we thought of the idea only at 5.50. hah! but managed to reach novena by cab, only 5 mins late. yay.
sunday.
shopping with jaslyn and sham the whole day. but sham went off around 5.. nothing much. i had an eye on this stussy bag but i looked bigger when i saw it the second time, so i bought a mambo shoulder bag instead! :)
today.
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY (FRIENDSHIP DAY SOUNDS NICER ABIT). i love the things i received this yearr. hur. oh boy. v day. don't remind me. roars. i'm having tuition later. studying physics and chem in a small bomb shelter in bishan on v day. this is how pathetic it sounds. was supposed to meet jaslyn earlier to go citylink to shop.. but in the end not going cos we were both tired.
replies.peishan: yeah i know! BIG GRIN. those rubbish don't deserve to even be included as part of my entry. :Dcheryl: YES. that stupid darn asshole. i deserve so much better. =/ ahah! thanks anyway. i've woken up from my senses.toii: crazy baboon! what did i do. i asked you and you said nothing. ha.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Friday, February 11, 2005 ; 9:52 PM
my cousins and i were talking and one of them who is a guy even said that it's not worth it to cry for guys. imagine a guy even saying that. ha.
i miss you. do you even know? you're always giving me a little bit of hope everytime i walk away. and everytime i tell myself not to look back, i somehow keep falling back in. somehow i get soft, and somehow i still foolishly follow this never-ending cycle of anguish, foolishly choosing to get played by you.things are fine now. you're leading me in. but these days are numbered.went to ps with toi, sham and manda to buy our valentine's day gifts. yay. so now i'm left with little else to buy. anyway, i'm so tired la. school was boring today. adeline ng wanted a spot check for those who didn't bring their emaths files and i was one of them. i panicked la, my belt wasn't sewn, my nails were way long, and i didn't have a name tag. oh yes. what else could ever go right? haha. but when she checked me she just merely joked with me and asked me to straighten things out. phew! lol.
Yeah I know it hurts, yeah I know you're scared
walking down the road that leads to who knows where.
Don't you hang your head, don't you give up yet
when courage starts to disappear, I will be right here.
When your world breaks down
and the voices tell you turn around.
When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you.
When the stars go blind
and the darkness starts to flood your eyes.
When you're falling behind, I will carry you.
Everybody cries, Everybody bleeds,
No one ever said that life's an easy thing.
Thats the beauty of it, when you lose your way,
close your eyes and go to sleep and wake up to another day.
You should know now that you're not alone.
Take my heart and we will find, you will find your way home.
When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you.
When the stars go blind
and the darkness starts to flood your eyes.
When you're falling behind, I will carry you.
I will carry you, carry you, I will carry you.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Thursday, February 10, 2005 ; 8:38 PM
happy CNY everyone!(:
okay. first day of cny, did the usuals. went to relatives house, yadda yadda.. but night was Fun with a capital F! went with cousins and niece to esplanade after dinner to catch the 9.30pm fireworks. wasn't as nice as the fireworks on cny eve, but they were still good. slacked around den went to monstercue at meridien.. on the bus the bus driver made a fuss about a car hitting the bus, and there was a big hoohah commotion.. and our bus stopped right in the middle of a road junction causing a huge traffic jam la. and the driver kept asking for 2 eye witnesses.. -.- haha. how crazy. played pool, and although i'm a sucker for it, i still had much fun and i wanna go there again!
second day, nothing much.. went visiting and watched Flight of the Phoenix with my family at cine at late noon. the show was nice! i think Brian is crazy, he has late night house-sneaking cravings. hah.
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_____________________why am i letting myself fall for you again.
Tuesday, February 08, 2005 ; 11:39 AM
/im twisted cuz one side of me is telling me that i need to move on, on the other side i wanna break down and cry.
"Everyone says you only fall in love once but that's not true. Every time I hear your voice, I fall in love all over again."
you called last night, we talked, after so long, and i just realised how much of you i've missed, and that i don't think i can forget you. please don't tell me you're coming back. cos i know for sure you're gonna leave abruptly again, somehow. :( okay, yes, i'm contradicting. a part of me wants you to stay, and the other part just wants you to go away. why am i foolishly believing your lies when i know i'm gonna get hurt again. why am i letting myself fall for you, still..
replies!
glynis: yeah they are.. haha. oh! i'll tell you when i see you..
joleen: i've no idea.. but hopefully lah. it'll be up to your mom and my dad. i've no say in this too. it's been long since our families met during cny. :)
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Monday, February 07, 2005 ; 3:33 PM
would anyone ever forget to wear her school shoes out? yes, sounds impossible, but i did. what a joke! and i only realised i forgot to bring it out when i was reaching school in my dad's car already. cos i've a habit of wearing my shoes when i was reaching so i didn't bother to check. lol. wadahell.. luckily toii stayed around school so i got nic's pair which she left in her house. heh. :D
got this from some place i was surfing at.
- No man is worth your tears. When you find the man who is, he won't make you cry.
- One day you will love me as I loved you. One day you will think of me as I thought of you. One day you will cry for me as I cried for you. One day you will want me but I won't want you.
- Don't waste your tears on someone who won't kiss them away.
- Kiss the kissers, love the lovers, and play the players. :)
- Love can be like rose: sweetness like the scent or painful like the thorns.
- The first time I saw you I knew it was true, that I'd love you forever and that's what I'll do. You don't know what you do to me, you don't have a clue. You don't know what it's like to be me looking at you.
- Why do you hurt the people you love, and why do you love the people who hurt you?
- They say there is a reason, they say that time will heal. But neither time nor reason can change the way I feel. No one knows the heartache, that hides behind my smile. No one knows how may times I've broken down and cried. I want to tell you something, so there won't be any doubt. You're so wonderful to think of but so hard to live without.
- You're the one that broke my heart, you're the reason my world feel apart, you're the one that makes me cry, yet I love you still and I don't know why.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Sunday, February 06, 2005 ; 11:41 AM
novena church yesterday again. my nose was like a broken leaking water pipe, constantly irritating me. even jaslyn thought i was crying in the service. that was how bad it was! after that, shopped for jaslyn's skirt and top.. den i exchanged my exprit top for a size smaller. i had to go all the way to harbourfront to do so cos it was the last piece in town. hah.
When all is said and done and nothing matters anymore
Are you a part of me?
It was so easy, we had it all but it was all in vain
I would have given more
Now the stage is bare there's no one, where it used to be so magical
All the roles I played in, never happy ending
I remember the first time you took me by the hand
You said was meant to be, if love is yours then it will find a way to
Bring us back where our love first started
Where did it all go?
Never thought that love could just slip us by
But you're inside of me, I've been holding on
A prayer in my heart, wish you would come running to me
and bring me back where love was our power
Let's give love a chance and let me know this time you're gonna stay
Oh baby come to me I'm waiting, let me hold you tight wont let go
Bring it back where love's so good..
replies.
cheryl: alright.. huggs. :)
beverley: okayy. i saw some from your school selling them at novena too. i'll msg you.
sham: hur. thanks. i definitely hope so.. cos none seems to be better. :( but i'll get over this soon.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Friday, February 04, 2005 ; 10:01 PM
yes. i can put my mind off you. i can learn to be strong to live without you. i can walk away knowing i will find someone new. i can tell myself not to shed any tears for you anymore. i can forget you someday. i can, but at the end of the day, i still miss you, very much.
replies.
toii: thanks for understanding. :) yes i guess i wouldn't have known it was so hard to go on. we shall spend lonely vday tgt. :(
zelly: yes, it is. i'll call you!
glynis: i'm laughing myself silly. hah. and that's not a good thing.
sheila: huggs. :) yupyup. you cheer up too..
jaslyn: hahaha. sorry for scaring the hell outta you yesterday! but thanks for everything..
jace: yeah i've heard of it..
cheryl: huggs. thanks for caring! yes i'm on it.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Thursday, February 03, 2005 ; 8:15 PM
crying and laughing. how contrary. sigh., i thought i was already much over you, but now i'm falling back to where i started.. and i don't know if what happened just now was just all out of coincidence or something. but i hope it's more than just that.. rahh. my emotions are taking a roller-coaster ride now. ugh.
i try to smile so the hurt won't show
tell everybody i was glad to see you go
but the tears just won't go away
loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay
i know that i oughta find someone new
but all i find is myself always thinking of you..
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
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Tuesday, February 01, 2005 ; 9:53 PM
J.M: You can't go on just pretending.
Sylvia: Just pretending? You brought pretending into this family, James. You taught us that we can change things just by believing them to be different.
J.M: Some things, Sylvia. Not everything.
Sylvia: But the things that matter. We've pretended for some time now that you're a part of this family, haven't we? You've come to mean so much to us all that now, it doesn't matter if it's true. And even if it isn't true, even if that can never be... I need to go on pretending. Until the end.. with you.
went for a so called "picnic" at marina bay yesterday! to be specific, marina south promenade. but oh well. damn cool la. we rushed off from school and got stuff from carrefour at ps. had beef spaghetti bolognaise, hawaiian pizza (which was kinda big consisting 8 pieces), sushi, jelly, fries, sprite .. the whole lunch was so much, i didn't eat anymore the whole day. so we just sat at the rocks eating and binging like mad and looking at the waves and all. hoho! it's really nice to get away from the crowds in malls and stuff for awhile and settle at a quiet place like that.
got to watch Finding Neverland today with nic, rae and mag. ended school at 2.10 and the movie starts at 2.35 so we had to like rush? decided to take cab and hell we were not really in luck cos we got an effing bloody cabdriver. here's why. we told him we were really late and requested him to drive faster. so okay, maybe a teenie wee bit faster. he drove the long way (obviously on purpose to get more cash la), from sengkang he took the NEL way, which means through hougang, kovan, serangoon, potong pasir, boon keng, and so on. which was so obvious he could've taken the TPE which would have less traffic from hougang but he didnt! at 2.30 we were still stuck at potong pasir excuse me, and so we asked him to drop us at the mrt instead cos we're not fools to pay extra and reach ps later. the cabdriver not only didn't respond, he gave us that cold look la. so irritating.
glynis,
lance,
jaslyn: replied in your blogs.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y