_____________________braces
Tuesday, February 28, 2006 ; 11:25 AM
Gotta change my answering machine now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense cos you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore (it's ridiculous)
It's been months and for some reason I just can't get over us
And I'm stronger then this, enough is enough
No more walkin round with my head down
I'm so over being blue, cryin over you
And I'm so sick of love songs, so tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
Gotta fix that calender I have that's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you, there's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you and your memory
And how every song reminds me of what used to be
Leave me alone, stupid love song
Don't make me think about her smile
Or having my first child and let it go
Turning off the radio
Cos I'm so sick of love songs, so tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
Why can't I turn off the radio?
replies.
glynis: hello! i haven't heard from you for ages. ask me out!
carolina: heyy! yep i'm fine! you? i miss you too! see you around.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________roarrrr
Sunday, February 26, 2006 ; 10:52 PM
me, toi and sham miss you all and hope the last week can be spent well with you guys before the 2nd jc intake starts..
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________MI dedication
; 3:01 PM
friday was me, toi, khai wah, plus a couple of girls' last day in MI.. i can't believe i'll ever say this, but i am actually missing something from MI-- the people. it's like, it was such a short stay, and i was just getting used to all the lovely, friendly people there. and now what? we're gonna separate again.
i came to MI feeling rather odd and dreading school quite abit, but soon got to know quite a few friendly people in my OG. after the first 4 days, school started and toi and i disliked our class. the first few days and maybe weeks were boring and cold in class. there were cliques and we both just couldn't fit into the girl clique. started talking more to the guys since they were as retarded as us.. then slowly we got to know the girls better through class outing only after about 2 weeks, and realise, hey, they aren't that bad after all. in fact, they're great.
took alot of pictures on friday.. tried to take at least a shot with everyone i knew. can't believe i won't be seeing 75% of the people i know in mi anymore.. since many are still going cjc i guess. but still, no more 985 morning bus rides with kenneth, no more "so-what-are-we-going-to-do-now" with khaiwah, toi and keng hee, no more "omg-look-at-glenn-he-looks-so-pitiful-and-cute!" followed by endless giggles with sham about glenn, no more "eh-jo,-can-lend-me-your-ipod" from lowyon, no more "shut-up-la,-discipline-mistress" from abel, no more belly poking from qian ya, no more "look-at-tasha-she-looks-so-motherly" with toi about tasha, no more "goodness-steph-you-really-have-the-'i'm-a-ginger'-face!" and laughing about swollen lips to steph, no more pinching of shuting's cheeks, no more hearing amos' "so-cuul" slang (ok he's still going cj), no more hearing keng hee and khaiwah talk about purple, no more hearing jeremy's philippino accent, no more having fun criticizing and teasing conray, no more eyecandying, no more ponning lessons in library and canteen playing cards, no more plum powdered apples, and no more desperately finding escape routes to get out of the frigging school .. simply no more lame fun at boring mi. i swear mi would probably be the worse thing on earth if not for the great people there.
sigh. owell. friday's the posting results day. i hope cjc doesn't higher their standards again. hmmm. but so cuul alot of ppl are still going cjc.. yay.
i'm so bored i shall go find some other form of entertainment. ciaos.
pictures up soon.
replies.
lowyon: lousy lah you. haha. i go there almost everyday during the pre Olevels period.
melody: heyy! YES PLEASE. we should meet up soon! see you around.
sham: i think i'll probably be the one doing that while you stand a few metres away laughing at me! haa.
toi: nancyyyy
beverley: after bonus i've 13. haha. i hope the cj standard won't get higher again.
nic: ahah you serious?! i want to know who TOO! hmmmm.
jaslyn: yo bitch! let's go get married.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________valentine's day!
Saturday, February 18, 2006 ; 9:25 PM
anyway i received an anon mail by post wishing me a happy v day.. signing xoxo secret admirer. the note was like kind of cheeky? ha ha ha very funny. i think it's some prank la. but i wonder who's so free to do so? hmmmm. but i wonder how he/she got my address. owells. yes i'm lonely and single but you don't have to try so hard to make me feel wanted. :( but thanks for the effort. :)
i finally had some sort of decent shopping outing with jaslyn since Olevels ended! that sucked but yes we've finally gone out! didn't have enough cash to buy 3 zara tops i set my eyes on so i reserved 2 of them to buy it the next day instead.
the following day jaslyn and i went for macs breakfast at toa payoh! :D yes those Olevels mugging days. bittersweet memories. we used to pon school few weeks before Olevels to study at toapayoh library and have macs breakfast just before mugging. i kind of miss mugging. the thrill and challenge you get. oh bother. i think i'm nuts.
after breakfast, over to town to collect my zara clothes and jaslyn's ZA hamper. then went over to sham's house to watch Wicker Park together with lowyon. not really a bad show, but i can't say it was very nice.
i can't recall what i've done every other day but yeah yesterday, me and sham made the barkerboys wear chij uniform! glenn looked like a sporty over-tanned butch! and lowyon was so pretty i swear. some pictures uploaded to my friendster. hahahaa. the pictures tell the whole story.
today, over to acjc fun-o-rama. it was so crowded. and it would've been more fun if we knew more ppl there. jan met a friend every 5 metres we walked. okay exxagerating but yes she knew so many ppl there. the weather was super hot and humid.. after that we took a bus to town. JAN THE MAN came with us! haha. i finally tried the fried mars bars and the famous far east chicken rice. yes, very outdated, been wanting to try all those but never bothered to. so yeah.
replies.
sham: yo shammy mummy! picture a person shaking his butt and laughing like a hyena. it's scary!
lowyon: sure, when?
beverley: heyy! i dont know i hope i can! if i do, i'll see you there! :D how did you fare for Os?
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________random post
Monday, February 13, 2006 ; 1:05 PM
hmmm. i wanna go cycling. and play badminton. hmmmhmmm. this is such a random post. and yeah. i realize reverse psychology works on me. oh how the mind works.
i'm so bored.. valentine's day is tomorrow. :( they always have to remind me of how single i am. sigh ok my actions contradicting. got ppl ask out but still so picky. hoho, but nevermind, i'm happy single! all my single girlfriends should go out with me tomorrow.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________O'levels results out!
Sunday, February 12, 2006 ; 2:20 PM
Olevels results were out 2 days ago. yep, i can't say i'm really happy with my results, but then i sure did better than i had expected.. i was satisfied just being able to get into a jc. the tension and anxiety was high and all minutes before collecting results. i helplessly burst into tears. but things got better when we viewed each classes' statistics. our class did quite well. almost all could make it to the jc.. then the moment of truth arrived, yes i got L1R5 16, L1R4 12.. probably going to cjc science course; 13 points after bonus.
I'm so happy for my SS/GEOG ! :DDD had an E8 during Prelims and A2 now! happyy. i so wanted to shove my humanities grade into fat susie lee's face and laugh out loud. she used to look down on us. HA! loser.
And not forgetting AMATHS. i have always had F9 my whole life, but i had a B3! HOHO. i don't know how i did that but i really thought i was still gonna fail or get a borderline pass. i'm so happy for all the improvements i made. (: 3 distinctions, 4 Bs. Dad and Mom went thanksgiving at Novena yesterday.
the rest of the clique had scores 14, 15, 16, 17, and 18.. yes, consecutive. i love all my friends. i love qi and beryl for being strong. i can so see them in some designing course doing damn well la. sighhhh. anyway, friday was the last day we're gonna be in sjc as a student. ): from now everyone's gonna move on to other jcs and polys. ):
after that, went over to sheila's house. nic was so sweet she made us a powerpoint slideshow with all the photos we took in the past. awwwwww.. then we played mahjong too. heh heh. i had to win at least one round before going home in peace. :D so yeah. but all was fair cos all 4 players won at least one round. hohhum.
next day sham and i wanted to go town for shopping, but felt lazy so we rented dvds to watch instead. ended up playing mahjong with a few others and watching tv. home fun. i like.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________chinese new year.. (crazy horse! ;D)
Thursday, February 02, 2006 ; 9:29 PM
ok yeah let's see. cny was fun. cousins and i went out at night over to suntec. Ben&Jerry's was closed :( so we had gelato while chatting beside the fountain of wealth. aft that, night was still young so we decided to go down to clarke quay to check out CRAZY HORSE. we merely wanted to take a picture outside the club but the bouncer approached us and asked how old we were. sis lied to them that i was going 21 this year and the bouncer let us into the lounge. he was nice. so yeah cool luh. the whole lounge looked super seductive. check out.
second day was okay. had visiting and all.. third day, out with abel glenn yon and darylyn. lunch at fish&co with darylyn and yon before we went over to glenn's house. hoh. glenn's mom is SO PRETTY i swear. after that we went over to bell's house. i like his house. it reminds me of my own's.
okay what else. today had some so called class outing. kbox trip cancelled. lunch at pizzahut @ clementi instead.. went town aft that with toi and flower to accompany keng hee to cut his hair.. met glenn and went over to bell's house. but we couldn't stay for long cos the family was gonna celebrate his sis's 21st bday..
gah by the way. olevels results are coming out next friday i think. this sucks. i'm really scaredd. till then.
All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on; Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be... Me.
I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind
I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y