_____________________choir concert
Monday, November 27, 2006 ; 6:19 PM

I sit and reminisce of times that we once shared
you gave me more than love but never thought I cared
my feelings were all for you although it didn't show
I only told you the day you let me go

dyed my hair auburn brown last saturday! and it's damn obvious it's been dyed. it's like, bright RED under orange light. haha damn budget. i got the dye and dyed at home, then met billy at yiochukang to pass the half mixed bottle of dye for him to use. lol. half a bottle would've been more than enough for me anyway. then headed down to newton to collect choir tickets from qibin, from which i went down to FEP to meet toi for dinner and a brief session of shopping!

yesterday, went for choir concert at VCH to support our fellow cj choir! interesting i must say, cos it's my first time attending a real choir concert. haha! cj was one of the best, from my probably biased point of view lah. but yeah, they did well. me and toi couldn't stop giggling through some parts cos they were quite funny. personal joke but nevermind! oh and i bought roses for celine, qibin & james.

after the concert, song and i headed down to vivocity in hopes of showing up to see fernie and surprise her cos she was working there. little did we know that she has 2 jobs and she was at the other one! doh! so we just walked around and shopped a little.. yes, crazy but songyao actually could shop(?!). went back to ps for dinner and also cos we initially were meeting the choir ppl after they had finished watching Happy Feet at night. hah, we talked about interesting stuffs while killing time. ryan came to meet us, then went dhoby xchange arcade before heading to coffeebean to slack and continue on our interesting emo talk. and i totally discovered someone's new talent! super accurate! tsk.

speaking of emo talk, i realized there's nothing much worth looking forward to for me now. i'm like just getting through every day as it passes. borinngg~ oh boy. haha. there's gotta be more to life, isn't it? come to think of it, i'm actually a little queer in my thinking sometimes. also, is that everything we need..? is that all that matters..? i ain't as shallow as that of the way i tell how i prefer my life to be.

new zealand in about 1 week and a half's time (okay that's still quite long later). i hope it'll be fun.. will be away for like half a month sleeping amongst the cows, the meadows and snowy mountains. right. gonna miss the city and the friends man.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________club fun & casino royale
Friday, November 24, 2006 ; 6:31 PM

today's one of the rare days when i never set foot out of my house. hmmms. if not for the rain and my laziness, i would've been somewhere else having Fun.

yesterday, toi and i went swimming at my club! for me it's more of floating? haha. the weather was perfect despite now being the rainy season of the year! we were blessed with a cloudless sky, and the sun was uber good there man. we had frequent dips while tanning and stuff. the best thing was there were almost no one around, so we could really tan and swim in peace. hee. i should take advantage of my membership more often.

after that we headed to town, met qibin, from which we ate at esteler! yumms. walked around, then lester joined us to watch Casino Royale at night. the show was hilariously interesting. there weren't any lame or funny parts in the show, but we were laughing half the time. Especially when you have qibin sitting on your right commenting on how some parts of the movie were remakes of SuperMarioland The Movie (if there even were to be such a thing!) & Titanic, and toi on the left whining on how alienic and gross James Bond looks. haha. joke! even spotting lester's monotonous face throughout the whole 2.5hr movie was funny.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________every little thing.
; 5:11 PM

I wish I could be every little thing you wanted all the time
I wish I could be every little thing you wanted all the time, some times.
lift me up, just lift me up don't make a sound
and let me hold you up before you hit the ground
see all come, you say your all right
but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
and will you find out who you are too late to change?

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________birthdays & holidays.
Thursday, November 23, 2006 ; 1:54 AM

hello world. been busy lately.. i'm hardly ever home till late at night these 3 days.

headed down to amk after sup results in the evening to meet the clique! and we headed to Night Safari as part of sheila's early bday celebration.. qi arrived earlier and got to know this tourguide who was so nice to volunteer to bring us around as our tour guide free of charge for the night tho she was off duty! (: even gave us 50% discount for our entrance fees and food. then we headed straight to the tram ride which was the highlight of the night! the weather was perfect (windy & cool), since it rained minutes before we arrived! and all the animals were out! my 2nd ever trip there, and the 1st one was bad cause we couldn't see much animals. i'm so glad we went there that night. though i received bad news about my math results and wasn't in the mood to be happy, i became happy overall with the company and what i saw!

sadly, no pics. they wouldn't allow any flash! boo.

the next day, we went over to sheila's to celebrate her seventeenth. we dressed up as MapleStory characters cos sheila loves that game. (: i played doctor betty, wrath, and some mushroom. don't know whoever they are cos yes i don't play. haha i shan't explain further but overall it was funny! i even borrowed my aunt's nurse uniform to use for dress-up! we sewed her a comforter/ blanket (more credits to ninny & nic for putting all the sewn pieces together!) but yes i thought that idea was damn sweet. overall turned out pretty well! i'm glad despite different schools, we're still contacting and communicating well (:

today, i practically rotted at home until evening when i headed down to chrissy's house for her sis's birthday. haha most of us classmates don't even know her sister though.. just slacked around, talked nonsense. -- what 1T34 is best at. hah. hide&SEEK to hide&SLEEP. joke i swear..! 2nd joke of the night, the bed wrestle we had which caused toi to pull chrissy's hp charger wire off by accident! hahah. never seen such an odd thing happen but hilarious.

sigh, i'm so shagged now. glad i'm coping well with the fact that i'm retaining.. i hope the 5 of us off the 2T34 list will never ever lose contact next year with the class.. am still looking forward to having study sessions and breaks together with them! sigh. but with timetable clashes, activities & cca clashes and all, it's gonna be tough. just a little more than a month left to spend together before we're officially not a full class anymore.. :( siggghhh! well, better make the most out of them.. (:

I can see the pain living in your eyes, and i know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and i sympathize, and i'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life.

I don't want to let you down, I don't want to lead you on,
I don't want to hold you back from where you might belong.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________sup papers ?!
Saturday, November 18, 2006 ; 1:51 PM

sup papers have ended 2 days ago, and i think i'm regretting not putting in more again! arghs. it was even harder than in promos. and to think i had more confidence in doing well for promos than for my sup papers.. so that means goodgame for me. no more T34 for me. sigh.

anyway, here's many many thanks to the nicest people ever, who studied with me so many times even though they do not have to take those sup papers.. qibin, lester, songyao, THANK YOU! your presence and moral support were enough. thanks qibin & songyao for lending me your math file & TYS, and for waking up stupidly early in the morning to study at tp library with me! (: thank you lester for just being there to make sure i study! thank you celine for offering your whole stack of math tutorials! thank you ivan for including me in your prayers and for your luck, plus big thank-yous to toi, fernie, xiling, hazel, yenkiat, xiangli, arthur, bay, and others, for the luck and encouragements! and not forgetting ryan, chrissy, and shiting, all sufferring together, encouraging each other all the way.! haven't talked to junhoe though. hah. so sad to say this, but i know i'm done here. results for sup papers will be out in 2 days, and i know i have done horrendously bad.. so bad i'm gonna fail for sure. so bad i'm gonna have to appeal to revisit j1 again.. well well. guess it was a waste of time. i should've just put in 100% effort, or just put in nothing at all. ):

celebrated toi's birthday on 14th.. sorry for the short one but we'll be celebrating it again! sup papers had to just fall 2 days after the bday. ): pics will be up soon. but anyways, we had a back-to-school party. wore back our ij uniforms and we looked like overgrown happy kids, as quoted from ninny. hah. went home around the evening and dad picked me and nic up from ps. did some catching up with nic! been long since we actually chatted bout our lives la. (:

yup nothing much more. i still feel very depressed about the sup papers. like what my sister had said, that paper was like the final chance to determine whether i'm gonna waste a year or not. booo. i never thought retaining would be an option for me.. guess this time i'm really learning my lesson. ohwells. just reflecting. i know there's no point thinking about it already cause it's done and nothing can change that. i just hate accepting failure. i hate thinking how my next new class will be like; i know it will not be comparable with T34 for sure. i hate thinking who i'm going to mix around with next year; i know it will not be comparable to the friends i hangout with now. whatever happens, i don't know, i try to tell myself maybe my new route is for the better of me.

just as i'm starting to enjoying my ride, i'm forced to leave. ):

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________truth is,
Sunday, November 05, 2006 ; 10:17 AM

BERYL'S BDAY YESTERDAYY! got the cake and flowers then gathered at ninny's house to prepare the presents. ate at sake sushi in marina sq for dinner before she and gp took the G-force ride. hehe. it looks fun! i feel like trying it but ain't sure if i've the guts to! hah! the most embarrassing thing happened during dinner! was going toilet but was too engrossed in smsing, so i walked into the male toilet.and if that's not bad enough, i stood infront of the big 3/4 body length mirror for like half a minute just adjusting my hair and smsing. ahhh!! then when i was about to turn in to the cubicles, i saw like 6 to 7 guys staring at me. omggggg i just ran out and back to sake to hide my face lah! didn't even have the face to go to the girls loo instead! worse still, cos sake was just beside the toilet, this 2 guys walked out behind me and from the sake glass panels they started waving at me and laughing. roars! felt like a total loser. roflol.

sigh, this month is a month of new relationships built and old relationships lost. either a start of a new and happy r/s or an end to a long r/s. friends.. and my sister and her boyfriend of 4 years just broke up. ): i feel so depressed for her.. i thought they would've lasted. hope they get back again. ): and her boyfriend's brother broke up with his girlfriend of 7 years as well. sighh.

day before yesterday, lunch with qibin, toi, rachell & themis at crystal jade after school. then went our separate ways. headed down to vivocity with lester, ryan, songyao & his friend nataniel. walked around, then we met fernie there and proceeded to songyao's house! initially they wanted to play pool but the table was booked.. so we managed to get up into his house after much persuasion. cool house la. kinda big, just a little messy. eheh. but it's still nice and all! his mom is damn nice! she treated us to Haagen Daaz! me and & fernie got a top & dress at anchorpoint respectively. teeheee. then we all went down to fernie's house by evening where her aunt cooked nice food for us! songyao went home to bathe before meeting us there. qibin came all the way to meet us after his choir. so fun. we played cards and went home after that. oh and there was this 'pi-sai ball' incident, i still can't help laughing when i think of it! lmao.


Ran into an old friend yesterday, caught me by surprise when he called my name
He was a familiar face, from a chapter in my past
Talked for a while, I smiled and then said that he was seeing somebody and
Told me this was gonna last, showing me her photograph
And all the feelings I thought were gone came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt, but I was thinking to myself

Truth is, I never got over you ; Truth is, Wish I was standing in her shoes
Truth is, And when it's all said and done, guess I'm still in love with you
Truth is, I never should have let you go ; Truth is, And it's killing me cuz now I know
Truth is, And when it's all said and done, guess I'm still in love with you.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y



_____________________failed attempts to Fly.
Thursday, November 02, 2006 ; 10:36 PM

today was rather ...stirring. met songyao at tp in late morning to study.. ate lunch den went over to the library. felt super bad cause i was like trying to mug for my maths supp while he didn't have anything to do! haha. he was either stoning, staring at chinese notes (which wasn't much necessary), and helping me in math questions. hmmm. then lester came, followed by qibin & chrissy, plus bailyn who popped by to say hi. we moved over to macs where it was less crowded, and where ryan & toi came as well. on a whole i only did 4 sequence&series questions today! slap me please..

after that, studying was super unproductive cause we started to get restless.. then the guys suggested going Speedy for 2 rounds. oh boy... then i felt super guilty. sighs! AOlevel chinese tmr. ohmygosh. i didn't touch chinese at all. ohwells.

i remember how i felt when i first got to know my results. i remember the ache i felt and how regretful i was not studying harder and how sad i was thinking i wasn't gonna be in T34 anymore. and now that God has given me a second chance, i am not even treasuring it. geesh. wake up jo. i musn't succumb to any temptations anymore. dota can wait. dota isn't important at all la. roars. maybe i should try studying at home instead. haha. anyway i am super grateful to all those who've been supportive. qibin, lester, songyao, who personally come out to encourage & help me, & others who've tried to motivate me. :) plus ryan & chrissy who're in the suffering with me. hah.

dumdeedums. i feel down & out today. i need happy pills! ):

flirt & flirt. hmm.

xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y




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