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Wednesday, June 29, 2005 ; 7:59 PM

i told you everything
opened up and let you in
you made me feel alright for once in my life
now all that's left of me
is what i pretend to be
so together
but so broken up inside

replies.
van: ok.. so what school are you from? taking Os this yr? haha.
glynis: i should've gone. darn! haha. but it'll be kinda embarassing to take so much chocs right! lmao. to me it's more of the eyecandies. hoho.
cheryl: oh yeah. i can't wait la! for now it's torture for us. :(
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Monday, June 27, 2005 ; 6:53 PM

first day of school for semester 2! went okay, everything's getting more tensed than ever i swear. seeing the timetable for the next few days scares me. tests and tests all the way.
watched initial D today with nic, toi, sheila, qi and ninny after school! wooo. the show was quite nice.. had a great time watching those eye-candies (jay, edison chen and shawn yue!) hoho. the ending was kinda sad and i didn't like how it ended. boo. it should've been a happier ending.
haha. took 132 and 156 home from lido.. and in the 156 bus, i wanted to stretch my leg and all, cos i was kinda tired. so my legs went all the way under the seat infront of me and i felt this solid thing. i wanted to leave my feet on it cos i thought it was part of the seat (where the seat was glued to the ground), OR SO I THOUGHT. so i was like stepping and kicking it trying to find the best position to rest my leg, then the supposedly "solid bar" started moving, and this ri boy infront of me turned back. ahah. so embarassed la! i've been stepping on his feet. lmao.

reply!
van: i see.. cool! do i know you personally? haha. what school are you from..?
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Sunday, June 26, 2005 ; 7:29 PM

my thighs feel so tight la, just came back from stadium. jogged for the second time today! first in the morning around 8am.. second in the evening. wooo. bestfriend came to my house in the afternoon and we supposedly DID our homework together. i just managed to finish up the last paragraph of my compo and she did a few pages of her emath paper before we started to get chatty. ahah. anyways, yeh, i feel good after jogging! gonna play badminton on tuesday again! weeee..
school's starting tomorrow! now i'm dreading. :( i haven't finished my hol homework please. lol.

i just realized what a fool i was to you.
and you must be laughing at how serious i took your game for.

i don't think i can smile without these ppl. =)
replies.
van: haha. cool! wait, where're you from? your name's vanessa?
hazel: EEXXAAACCTTLLYY....! :) HUGS TIGHT.
peishan: yay! yeahhhh..! of course i'll ignore them! :) hugs tighter!
sham: yes yes! thanks for being there for me. :)
cheryl: ahah. what's la si mi?! see you tmr :D
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Friday, June 24, 2005 ; 8:38 PM

so tired. weepeedoo. played badminton with mark at hsh just now. my usual playing buddy regina had tuition. blah. ahha i started off like shit and the points difference were like, 8-2 (he 8, and i 2), but finally we had deuce and i won him 17-16. :D! win a guy eh (and somemore formerly from acs barker sch team), lol. that's an achievement. haha. kidding. then we approached 2 boys and asked them to play a doubles match with us. he's definitely a better doubles player man. woosh. fun la. i missed playing it! shall play more often. i found another playing buddy already. ahha. anyway, school's reopening on monday. :( i haven't had enough shopping trips! darn.. nevermind. i kinda miss school anyways!

why should i care?
cause you weren't there when i was scared,
i was so alone.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Thursday, June 23, 2005 ; 9:55 PM

i'm feeling hyper now. don't know why. wheeee!! i'm strong! yes i am! i'm moving on just great! yayy. hahaha. let's not talk about it. i've moved on so i'm not even supposed to remember that i was trying to move on. ahhaa. ok i'm really talking crap. i'm happy, but i don't know why. wheeeee. watched batman begins yesterday with family, it kinda sucked. haha. lalala. off.

replies.
adeline: how's your msn now? eh? hongkong dirty den thailand is worse la. ahha. i also want too!
glynis: no! i didn't go to fremantle's one! booooo. ahha. lucky for them, if not i'll finish all the free chocs. :D missed!
sham: ahha yes. i did! thanks.
peishan: oh yeah! (((: kinda la. but melbourne and sydney's nicer!
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Tuesday, June 21, 2005 ; 7:53 PM

wooo. i'm back! and exhausted. felt so fat for eating fish and chips and all the unhealthy things in aussie, so went to jog.
took the flight at perth at 1.30 MIDNIGHT and arrived in singapore at 6 in the morning today. that's the worst time to fly btw, at night, where they have storms at indian ocean and stuff like that. had a turbulence and it was really scary, i kept imagining the plane crashing into two. yikes.
i'm missing australia already! perth isn't that bad! :D the weather went as low as 7 degrees!

14 june. walked around perth city, (alot of cute american-born-chinese guys!).. went to Kings Park, nice place! and went to Burswood Casino at night. only 18 and above were allowed to enter, and I GOT IN. hahaha. maybe they don't reall care much la. oh wells. played one of the machines and i won 80 bucks. :D but aye, it was just beginners' luck, cos after i switched machines for a second game, i lost 20 bucks. so i was like, okay let's stop here and just keep the 60 bucks before we lose em all. hah.

15 june. we took a cruise out to see dolphins and canal homes. WE DIDN'T SEE ANY FRIGGIN DOLPHINS. :( went bussleton jetty, if i'm not wrong is the longest jetty in the world? not sure. third day, wine tasting at magaret river! we got to see how wine is made and got to taste the different types of wine there, HAHAHA i got drunk and started laughing and crying. mom and dad was so horrified with me they didn't wanna let me enter the restaurant for lunch until i stopped acting so emotional. AHAHA. went to the choc factory but each piece of choc cost about $2.10! so ex la. but we bought a few and it was greeeatttt. then we went to the lake cave.. nothing much la, but the cave was nicee.

16 june. we went to Cape Leeuwin Lighthouse! the place where we can see the two oceans meet-- Southern Ocean and Indian Ocean! it was so cold and windy, even my face got numb and it doesn't feel like the face was mine. haha. headed down to Pemberton and took a tram through the forests! afterwards, we went to the farm to stay for a night. OMG so nice. :))) had this magnificent view of the farm field with ducks and donkeys and sheep and chickens yadda yadda. so funny, a group of ducks started waddling towards our door and quacking outside. we fed them bread and more of them started coming to us. they were so cute. haha. we fed the donkeys bread too and my sis read only later in a book stating "don't feed donkeys with bread. the bread might get stuck in its mouth." oops. :)))

17 june. drove down to albany. new hotel. they have electric blanket, so cool. i'm starting to really like donkeys! there's this black one called shadow, damn cute. will post up pics soon! the night sky's so nice in aussie. the stars are so much clearer! i love stars. and i forgot to mention, we saw a couple of FULL rainbows while in the car. so pretty. full as in a whole oval shaped one from one end to the other!

18 june. wanted to go for whale-watching, but due to rain, the boat tour was cancelled! ugh. drove to the hills and saw those giant windmills, and the ones in the backstreet boys vid 'more than that'! nice, but they do gimme an eerie feeling. blah blah blah. went for sight-seeing and many places, so nicee. went to whaleworld, and they showed us how whales were killed for their blubber. :( so cruel luh! i love animals!

19 june. fathers' day! me and sis woke up especially earlier than normal to make breakfast for dad.. then we washed the car for him too. drove to fremantle. went to fremantle market..

20 june. went to fremantle prison! of course it was closed down 15 years ago.. it's 150 yrs old now, and they used to send the UK convicts there. we saw the execution area where they hang ppl. ahhh. 44 ppl were killed there. :S drove back to perth and shopping again! me and sis saw fireworks at night too. :)

Here we are
You tell me i'm the only one
That makes you feel alive­ again
And there you go
I see you watching her
When you don't think i know
Should i let you go?
So who's it gonna be
Is it her or me?

Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
And wasting all my time
Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playing with my heart
You're tearing me apart
Am i the one who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you
higher than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love

Turnaround
Do you really think
You'll play me like a fool for you
And then i realize
That when you touch me
It's like nothing i have known
Could i let you go?

replies.
toii: HUH? of course not! don't be crazy mao keng! haha.
adeline: hahaha.. :)) never tell me earlier. haha. let's go hongkong after my Os. :D and i'm serious. ahha.
zelly: bf! we needdaa go out soonnn! you should stayover someday again too and talk thru the night. boooo.
van: oh, now i see. ahhah. thanks, you too! enjoy your last hol week..
glynis: thanks! i did! :)
peishan: ahaha.. nvm la.. you'll have your chance to go soon!
anne: thanks! you're being missed by me too!
cheryl: :DDD nah, it's nicer to watch it. it's not the full story!
kim: oopsie! sorry! ahah what banana.. wadaya want from there? :D
beverley: haha, :D but i'm starting to get bored of em!
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Sunday, June 12, 2005 ; 1:52 PM

i can forgive, cos you make me believe in smth more.
leaving soon. but i'm not really looking forward to the trip very much. argghghghhh. pmsing big time. sigh sigh. on a lighter note, it's winter in australia now so it'll be much more enjoyable since singapore's like burning now. phwoar.

(a phone convo with bf)
zell: i can't believe he would actually ..(yaddayaddayadda.) (something ego-boosting)
zell: jo, i'm so hot!
me: eeeee...
zell: .. HOT as in weather hot la!

ahha. funny.
oh yah. mr and mrs smith is nice. although it's kinda stupid to know that a husband and wife are actually trying to kill each other for i-don't-know-what reason. i realised bugis village has so many cheap cheap ear rings. i'm going there more often! heh heh. oh yes. they sell weird stuffs too. i swear. we saw vibrators and t-shirts that cost $1. lol.
and there's an irritating guy called marcus who added me in msn, who also has a foot fetish. damn sick la. kept asking me if i paint my nails and how often i wash my socks. LOL. that guy seriously ought to get a life. haha.
watched my sassy girl yesterday on channel 56. :( the girl's so hot. and the show's so nice please. damn funny and damn touching. hah.
oh wellies. see you guys! i'm off to jump with the kangaroos and climb trees with the koala bears. till then.

replies.
glynis: haha yeah it's nice. okay. takecare! enjoy your hols.
passer-by: ah well. if you tell yourself you can't, you won't. haha maybe if you could leave your real name instead of anon. :)
peishan: YOU WANNA MEET ME AT CHANGI AIRPORT THIS EVENING? AND I CAN LIKE SMUGGLE YOU IN MY LUGGAGE AND PRAY THAT THE DETECTOR SENSOR DOESN'T SOUND WHEN YOU'RE BEING SCANNED, AND WE SHALL ALL GO AUSSIE TGT TO MEET UP WITH THE KANGAROOS. AHAHA.
hazel: huggs! meanwhile, do stay strong! :D
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Saturday, June 11, 2005 ; 11:58 PM

you always have to ruin everything like this.
you're just SO SELFISH.
you had everything laid on your table,
but you blew it.
you thought you could play your game anytime you want.
and you end it as quickly as it starts.

MR CASANOVA.


i wish i had been stronger.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Friday, June 10, 2005 ; 9:50 AM

seriously don't know what to blog about. hmm. going aussie in 2 days. can't wait to like see the dolphins, go to the chocolate factory, go fishing, buy roxy and quiksilver stuffs that can't be found in s'pore from there :D, and i heard night sky at the farm are full of stars. PRETTY! watching mr and mrs smith later. yay. i heard it's not bad. anyway yes yes. going for geog class now. i can choose not to go but i'm going! heh. dreadful but useful! tata.

replies.
merelda: yes okay! soon soon.. :)
passer-by: i've been played since 2 years anyway. since u know u've been like that so long, try to move on! :)
kim: haha, no. and it's okay! just don't do it alrdy. heheh. nah, wasn't that emo blogging that poem. hahah. love!
xueling: haha yeah, it's nice. yes soon pls!
toi: haha, get a life! you'll be second cos there's already a first. lol.
sham: it's so different from bobby. haha. as in he's so active. :D why thank me? haha i had a good time.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Tuesday, June 07, 2005 ; 4:20 PM

(inhales)
Forget his name, forget his face ;
Forget his kiss, and warm embrace ;
Forget the love that you once knew ;
Remember now, there's someone new ;

Forget the love that you once shared ;
Forget the face that you once cared ;
Forget the times you spent together ;
Remember now, he's gone forever ;

Forget you cried the whole night long ;
Forget him when he played your song ;
Forget how close you two once were ;
Remember now, he has chosen her ;

Forget you memorized his walk ;
Forget the way he used to talk ;
Forget the things he used to say ;
Remember now, he's gone away ;

Forget the nights you were alone ;
Forget you wanted him to phone ;
Forget he was your entire world ;
Remember now there's another girl ;

Forget the talks you both once had ;
Forget him though he made you sad ;
Forget the things he used to do ;
Remember now he loves her too ;

Forget the thrills when he walked by ;
Forget the times he made you cry ;
Forget the way he spoke your name ;
Remember now, he just played a game ;

Forget how he used to hold your hand ;
Forget the sweet things if you can ;
Forget the times you were a fool ;
Remember now he doesn't love you ;

Forget the times that went so fast ;
Forget them all, they're just in the past ;
Forget the dreams that can't come true ;
Forget the boy... cos he has forgotten you. ;

(exhales) sigh.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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; 2:19 PM

i'm terribly bored now. or so i thought june hols could be a time to like have some innocent fun and that the word "bored" would never come to my mind. pfft. i wanna go cycling again, NOW! ahha.
had a series of recurring dreams yesterday and today. and it's all about the same person. bluh luh luh. the dream was so perfect and it felt so REAL. and i had to just wake up knowing all wasn't true. :(

The Love Personality Test

Joanna, your love personality type is ESFP.
About 8% of the U.S. population possesses the combination of traits that make up this personality type.

Being an ESFP means that you can be one smooth operator. Blessed with high energy and chameleon-like versatility, you seem to be the kind who enjoys life's fast-paced and unpredictable situations. Because you're able to adapt more easily to new situations and new people than most others are, variety can really be the spice of life for you. But just because you're social, doesn't mean you're shallow. You may not be big on intense emotional displays, but you're still quite sensitive to others. Often times you know just the right thing to do or say to make someone in your life feel special. Your highly empathic nature allows you to know how others really feel without them having to spell everything out for you. Your type really seems to have a grip on life and knows how to enjoy the present moment. You're not usually one to take things for granted.

In relationships, ESFPs like you are known for being eager to please others. You'll usually try hard to make relationships work and your patient nature helps keep you going even when there are bumps in the road. Realize that you set higher expectations for yourself than many people do. Sometimes you may put too much pressure on yourself to stay in situations that aren't necessarily the best for you.

Who Catches Your Eye?

Joanna, your crush is the Class Clown.

Seriously forks. Only a guy with a great sense of humor stands a chance of making it as your fun-loving sweetie. Going back-to-school doesn't have to be a bland and boring time. With a funny and cute guy to crush on, things will definitely put a smile on your face. Even when attending mandatory student assemblies and classes that last for days, you're a girl with an active mind and funny bone. Thankfully, your new crush should liven up even the dullest of moments. Maybe he's cracking jokes in History class, writing witty pieces for the newspaper, or hamming it up in the lunchroom. Wherever you find him, you'll be in for an entertaining school year!

replies.
passer-by: same boat, you're not alone. :)
glynis: haha.. ok. soon luh! haven't been talking to ya. meanwhile, take care.
nat: hello pong ping!
christine: :))) please do.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Sunday, June 05, 2005 ; 8:03 PM

yay! i'm so tired please. went east coast park with zelly and toii to cycle today. it's been ages since i cycled, and ages since i've been to ecp. ahah. zell came my house first and we took 76 there.. toii was like an hour late so she met us at ecp.. we cycled almost non-stop for 2 hrs all the way from ecp (chinese swimming club there), passing by the national sailing club and bedok jetty, all the way to somewhere in bedok.. my legs were so wobbly after that and my hand was numb. woosh. ah well, with ppl like ms bestfriend, how can we have a chance to stop for long.. haha. there were so many ppl, but i finally got over my phobia of cycling near too many ppl, which i had because i knocked onto one cyclist and fell a few years back. boo. yup. kinda tired. but good workout. :D

anyways, been losing appetite since start of june. don't know why. just always having an empty stomach yet feeling bloated already? hmm. i lost 2 kg mysteriously already. hoho.

that's bout it. there's geog class tomorrow. :( boring.

am moving on! once again.

replies.
passer-by: haha, yeah. it's hard but it's the best for me. :) how bout you? don't worry, we'll find someone better. :)
cheryl: oh you silly creature! :( i rock you mean? haha.
peishan: haha, don't be. go out with yer mom and you'll have the same! heh.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Saturday, June 04, 2005 ; 9:11 PM

i didn't know lychees tasted so fantastic. maybe cos i havent ate them for so long. anyway, watched madagascar with manda a few days back! it's lame! the jokes were nice but the story was not fantastic. :) go watch it if you wanna laugh..
it's amazing how fast my attitude changes when i'm talking to someone from my past, and someone in my present. sigh.. ah wells. so why can't i just treat you like someone from my past.. in that way, it wouldn't hurt so much...

my happy pills.
sham: haha, dont be! i don't usually get such stuffs.. and maybe cos i went out with the ATM machine, if you know what i mean. ahhaha. yeah i will. :)
sheila: lol, all adidas jacket LOOK THE SAME! haha. yeah, jerks, not all, but a handful. :(
hazel: bestflenn..! i have it luh! :)))))
passerby 2: i'm not! haha. (refer to my reply to sham) :D
passer-by: lol.. don't be luh! if i was rich i wouldn't be like so happy to be gettin those stuffs right. :D
beverley:from Limited Ed Vault at The Heeren! level 3 i think. :)
cheryl: whahah. me no richie please. i heard your bday's this month aye?
nic: hmmmmmmm.. :))))))))
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Friday, June 03, 2005 ; 7:59 PM

imma happy kid again! went shopping with mom and sister today and i bought the following. :)


$119. adidas limited ed vault.
the stripes and collar look red, but they're actually orange. heh.


$119. adidas limited ed vault (missy elliot)
i had to like bend down 110 degrees to take this pic. wahah.


$89. esprit pants.
for my aussie trip.

:)))) ..

... but there's still something missin. :( sigh. okay, like so what if i have all those? it'll never like bring you back to me. my friends tell me i'm being super paranoid, i hope it's true.

replies.
the 2 passers-by: thanks! i will, and i'll try even if i can't. :))) why don't you guys leave your name and link?
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Thursday, June 02, 2005 ; 1:50 PM

this love has taken it's toll on me, she said goodbye too many times before.
i'll be emo in this entry but i DON'T CARE! so maybe i just wanna know what the hell have i done wrong. maybe i just wanna know if i'm not good enough for you. maybe i just wanna know if i've been pissing you off. maybe i just don't understand what you're thinking. so about your gal pals, so maybe they are more than just yer friends. and so maybe i get jealous easily. go ahead and call me a green-eyed monster. it's not fair! so maybe i'm just some dirt or dust to you. you played me and with your words, and actions, and i thought, hey, is this a sign? NO. you fucker you flirt you player you disgusting piece of nothing. fine, i might not mean every word of that sentence, but you hurt me and that's NOT right. i HATE this feeling of being cheated by someone whom i love so much. i HATE to know that i'm not your ONLY ONE. i HATE to know that i'm not someone special to you, but just like any of the rest. but i can't make myself let go. i can't. i like everything single thing about you. no one can ever be any better than you. but i HATE your guts! why do you always have to put me through this? why do i always have to let you put me through this? so i've to decipher for myself what the hell's coming up next and what the hell am i doing? thanks alot. see the many entries i've put up about you, see the many tears i've shed for you, see how much you mean to me! but you don't care a damn at all and this is not again another ending. i don't think i can move on yet. i don't know what i should do.
Nic: it doesn't matter, you know it doesn't to him.
yes. it doesn't matter to him if i'm hurting now or whatever. i don't wish to let you go, i just hope you'll finally realise i've always been the one there. will there ever be that day.. sigh. i wish i could just turn back time and hold on to that moment forever.

It's not that I can't live without you, it's just that I don't even want to try. Every night I dream about you, ever since the day we said goodbye. If I won't such a fool, right now I'd be holding you. There's nothing that I wouldn't do, baby if I only knew.. The words to say, the road to take, to find a way back to your heart.. What can I do to get to you and find a way back to your heart?.. I don't know how it got so crazy, but I'll do anything to set things right. Cos your love is so amazing, baby you're the best thing in my life.. Let me prove my love is real and make you feel the way I feel. I promise I would give the world, if only you would tell me. Give me one more chance, to give my love to you. Cos no one on this earth loves you like I do..
-the way back to your heart- bsb.

sigh.
letting go is harder than i thought, is harder than it used to be.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Wednesday, June 01, 2005 ; 5:37 PM

Brian Koh is retarded. went to his house today, and how i sneaked in was seriously hilariously i swear. i had to dash into the room while his grandma's back was facing me when she was trying to switch off the tv at the hall. haha! he made me cancel my movie date with Manda! roar..... oh and halfway his dad came home a little too soon and we did really crazy stuffs. shan't elaborate. Hmm. thta stupid guy took my phone to 'charge it for me' and ended up switching phones with me so now i'm left with his pokkai nokia 2100 (i think), and plus his cracked mp3. not bad.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Wednesday, June 29, 2005 ; 7:59 PM

i told you everything
opened up and let you in
you made me feel alright for once in my life
now all that's left of me
is what i pretend to be
so together
but so broken up inside

replies.
van: ok.. so what school are you from? taking Os this yr? haha.
glynis: i should've gone. darn! haha. but it'll be kinda embarassing to take so much chocs right! lmao. to me it's more of the eyecandies. hoho.
cheryl: oh yeah. i can't wait la! for now it's torture for us. :(
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Monday, June 27, 2005 ; 6:53 PM

first day of school for semester 2! went okay, everything's getting more tensed than ever i swear. seeing the timetable for the next few days scares me. tests and tests all the way.
watched initial D today with nic, toi, sheila, qi and ninny after school! wooo. the show was quite nice.. had a great time watching those eye-candies (jay, edison chen and shawn yue!) hoho. the ending was kinda sad and i didn't like how it ended. boo. it should've been a happier ending.
haha. took 132 and 156 home from lido.. and in the 156 bus, i wanted to stretch my leg and all, cos i was kinda tired. so my legs went all the way under the seat infront of me and i felt this solid thing. i wanted to leave my feet on it cos i thought it was part of the seat (where the seat was glued to the ground), OR SO I THOUGHT. so i was like stepping and kicking it trying to find the best position to rest my leg, then the supposedly "solid bar" started moving, and this ri boy infront of me turned back. ahah. so embarassed la! i've been stepping on his feet. lmao.

reply!
van: i see.. cool! do i know you personally? haha. what school are you from..?
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Sunday, June 26, 2005 ; 7:29 PM

my thighs feel so tight la, just came back from stadium. jogged for the second time today! first in the morning around 8am.. second in the evening. wooo. bestfriend came to my house in the afternoon and we supposedly DID our homework together. i just managed to finish up the last paragraph of my compo and she did a few pages of her emath paper before we started to get chatty. ahah. anyways, yeh, i feel good after jogging! gonna play badminton on tuesday again! weeee..
school's starting tomorrow! now i'm dreading. :( i haven't finished my hol homework please. lol.

i just realized what a fool i was to you.
and you must be laughing at how serious i took your game for.

i don't think i can smile without these ppl. =)
replies.
van: haha. cool! wait, where're you from? your name's vanessa?
hazel: EEXXAAACCTTLLYY....! :) HUGS TIGHT.
peishan: yay! yeahhhh..! of course i'll ignore them! :) hugs tighter!
sham: yes yes! thanks for being there for me. :)
cheryl: ahah. what's la si mi?! see you tmr :D
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Friday, June 24, 2005 ; 8:38 PM

so tired. weepeedoo. played badminton with mark at hsh just now. my usual playing buddy regina had tuition. blah. ahha i started off like shit and the points difference were like, 8-2 (he 8, and i 2), but finally we had deuce and i won him 17-16. :D! win a guy eh (and somemore formerly from acs barker sch team), lol. that's an achievement. haha. kidding. then we approached 2 boys and asked them to play a doubles match with us. he's definitely a better doubles player man. woosh. fun la. i missed playing it! shall play more often. i found another playing buddy already. ahha. anyway, school's reopening on monday. :( i haven't had enough shopping trips! darn.. nevermind. i kinda miss school anyways!

why should i care?
cause you weren't there when i was scared,
i was so alone.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Thursday, June 23, 2005 ; 9:55 PM

i'm feeling hyper now. don't know why. wheeee!! i'm strong! yes i am! i'm moving on just great! yayy. hahaha. let's not talk about it. i've moved on so i'm not even supposed to remember that i was trying to move on. ahhaa. ok i'm really talking crap. i'm happy, but i don't know why. wheeeee. watched batman begins yesterday with family, it kinda sucked. haha. lalala. off.

replies.
adeline: how's your msn now? eh? hongkong dirty den thailand is worse la. ahha. i also want too!
glynis: no! i didn't go to fremantle's one! booooo. ahha. lucky for them, if not i'll finish all the free chocs. :D missed!
sham: ahha yes. i did! thanks.
peishan: oh yeah! (((: kinda la. but melbourne and sydney's nicer!
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Tuesday, June 21, 2005 ; 7:53 PM

wooo. i'm back! and exhausted. felt so fat for eating fish and chips and all the unhealthy things in aussie, so went to jog.
took the flight at perth at 1.30 MIDNIGHT and arrived in singapore at 6 in the morning today. that's the worst time to fly btw, at night, where they have storms at indian ocean and stuff like that. had a turbulence and it was really scary, i kept imagining the plane crashing into two. yikes.
i'm missing australia already! perth isn't that bad! :D the weather went as low as 7 degrees!

14 june. walked around perth city, (alot of cute american-born-chinese guys!).. went to Kings Park, nice place! and went to Burswood Casino at night. only 18 and above were allowed to enter, and I GOT IN. hahaha. maybe they don't reall care much la. oh wells. played one of the machines and i won 80 bucks. :D but aye, it was just beginners' luck, cos after i switched machines for a second game, i lost 20 bucks. so i was like, okay let's stop here and just keep the 60 bucks before we lose em all. hah.

15 june. we took a cruise out to see dolphins and canal homes. WE DIDN'T SEE ANY FRIGGIN DOLPHINS. :( went bussleton jetty, if i'm not wrong is the longest jetty in the world? not sure. third day, wine tasting at magaret river! we got to see how wine is made and got to taste the different types of wine there, HAHAHA i got drunk and started laughing and crying. mom and dad was so horrified with me they didn't wanna let me enter the restaurant for lunch until i stopped acting so emotional. AHAHA. went to the choc factory but each piece of choc cost about $2.10! so ex la. but we bought a few and it was greeeatttt. then we went to the lake cave.. nothing much la, but the cave was nicee.

16 june. we went to Cape Leeuwin Lighthouse! the place where we can see the two oceans meet-- Southern Ocean and Indian Ocean! it was so cold and windy, even my face got numb and it doesn't feel like the face was mine. haha. headed down to Pemberton and took a tram through the forests! afterwards, we went to the farm to stay for a night. OMG so nice. :))) had this magnificent view of the farm field with ducks and donkeys and sheep and chickens yadda yadda. so funny, a group of ducks started waddling towards our door and quacking outside. we fed them bread and more of them started coming to us. they were so cute. haha. we fed the donkeys bread too and my sis read only later in a book stating "don't feed donkeys with bread. the bread might get stuck in its mouth." oops. :)))

17 june. drove down to albany. new hotel. they have electric blanket, so cool. i'm starting to really like donkeys! there's this black one called shadow, damn cute. will post up pics soon! the night sky's so nice in aussie. the stars are so much clearer! i love stars. and i forgot to mention, we saw a couple of FULL rainbows while in the car. so pretty. full as in a whole oval shaped one from one end to the other!

18 june. wanted to go for whale-watching, but due to rain, the boat tour was cancelled! ugh. drove to the hills and saw those giant windmills, and the ones in the backstreet boys vid 'more than that'! nice, but they do gimme an eerie feeling. blah blah blah. went for sight-seeing and many places, so nicee. went to whaleworld, and they showed us how whales were killed for their blubber. :( so cruel luh! i love animals!

19 june. fathers' day! me and sis woke up especially earlier than normal to make breakfast for dad.. then we washed the car for him too. drove to fremantle. went to fremantle market..

20 june. went to fremantle prison! of course it was closed down 15 years ago.. it's 150 yrs old now, and they used to send the UK convicts there. we saw the execution area where they hang ppl. ahhh. 44 ppl were killed there. :S drove back to perth and shopping again! me and sis saw fireworks at night too. :)

Here we are
You tell me i'm the only one
That makes you feel alive­ again
And there you go
I see you watching her
When you don't think i know
Should i let you go?
So who's it gonna be
Is it her or me?

Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
And wasting all my time
Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playing with my heart
You're tearing me apart
Am i the one who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you
higher than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love

Turnaround
Do you really think
You'll play me like a fool for you
And then i realize
That when you touch me
It's like nothing i have known
Could i let you go?

replies.
toii: HUH? of course not! don't be crazy mao keng! haha.
adeline: hahaha.. :)) never tell me earlier. haha. let's go hongkong after my Os. :D and i'm serious. ahha.
zelly: bf! we needdaa go out soonnn! you should stayover someday again too and talk thru the night. boooo.
van: oh, now i see. ahhah. thanks, you too! enjoy your last hol week..
glynis: thanks! i did! :)
peishan: ahaha.. nvm la.. you'll have your chance to go soon!
anne: thanks! you're being missed by me too!
cheryl: :DDD nah, it's nicer to watch it. it's not the full story!
kim: oopsie! sorry! ahah what banana.. wadaya want from there? :D
beverley: haha, :D but i'm starting to get bored of em!
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Sunday, June 12, 2005 ; 1:52 PM

i can forgive, cos you make me believe in smth more.
leaving soon. but i'm not really looking forward to the trip very much. argghghghhh. pmsing big time. sigh sigh. on a lighter note, it's winter in australia now so it'll be much more enjoyable since singapore's like burning now. phwoar.

(a phone convo with bf)
zell: i can't believe he would actually ..(yaddayaddayadda.) (something ego-boosting)
zell: jo, i'm so hot!
me: eeeee...
zell: .. HOT as in weather hot la!

ahha. funny.
oh yah. mr and mrs smith is nice. although it's kinda stupid to know that a husband and wife are actually trying to kill each other for i-don't-know-what reason. i realised bugis village has so many cheap cheap ear rings. i'm going there more often! heh heh. oh yes. they sell weird stuffs too. i swear. we saw vibrators and t-shirts that cost $1. lol.
and there's an irritating guy called marcus who added me in msn, who also has a foot fetish. damn sick la. kept asking me if i paint my nails and how often i wash my socks. LOL. that guy seriously ought to get a life. haha.
watched my sassy girl yesterday on channel 56. :( the girl's so hot. and the show's so nice please. damn funny and damn touching. hah.
oh wellies. see you guys! i'm off to jump with the kangaroos and climb trees with the koala bears. till then.

replies.
glynis: haha yeah it's nice. okay. takecare! enjoy your hols.
passer-by: ah well. if you tell yourself you can't, you won't. haha maybe if you could leave your real name instead of anon. :)
peishan: YOU WANNA MEET ME AT CHANGI AIRPORT THIS EVENING? AND I CAN LIKE SMUGGLE YOU IN MY LUGGAGE AND PRAY THAT THE DETECTOR SENSOR DOESN'T SOUND WHEN YOU'RE BEING SCANNED, AND WE SHALL ALL GO AUSSIE TGT TO MEET UP WITH THE KANGAROOS. AHAHA.
hazel: huggs! meanwhile, do stay strong! :D
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Saturday, June 11, 2005 ; 11:58 PM

you always have to ruin everything like this.
you're just SO SELFISH.
you had everything laid on your table,
but you blew it.
you thought you could play your game anytime you want.
and you end it as quickly as it starts.

MR CASANOVA.


i wish i had been stronger.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Friday, June 10, 2005 ; 9:50 AM

seriously don't know what to blog about. hmm. going aussie in 2 days. can't wait to like see the dolphins, go to the chocolate factory, go fishing, buy roxy and quiksilver stuffs that can't be found in s'pore from there :D, and i heard night sky at the farm are full of stars. PRETTY! watching mr and mrs smith later. yay. i heard it's not bad. anyway yes yes. going for geog class now. i can choose not to go but i'm going! heh. dreadful but useful! tata.

replies.
merelda: yes okay! soon soon.. :)
passer-by: i've been played since 2 years anyway. since u know u've been like that so long, try to move on! :)
kim: haha, no. and it's okay! just don't do it alrdy. heheh. nah, wasn't that emo blogging that poem. hahah. love!
xueling: haha yeah, it's nice. yes soon pls!
toi: haha, get a life! you'll be second cos there's already a first. lol.
sham: it's so different from bobby. haha. as in he's so active. :D why thank me? haha i had a good time.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Tuesday, June 07, 2005 ; 4:20 PM

(inhales)
Forget his name, forget his face ;
Forget his kiss, and warm embrace ;
Forget the love that you once knew ;
Remember now, there's someone new ;

Forget the love that you once shared ;
Forget the face that you once cared ;
Forget the times you spent together ;
Remember now, he's gone forever ;

Forget you cried the whole night long ;
Forget him when he played your song ;
Forget how close you two once were ;
Remember now, he has chosen her ;

Forget you memorized his walk ;
Forget the way he used to talk ;
Forget the things he used to say ;
Remember now, he's gone away ;

Forget the nights you were alone ;
Forget you wanted him to phone ;
Forget he was your entire world ;
Remember now there's another girl ;

Forget the talks you both once had ;
Forget him though he made you sad ;
Forget the things he used to do ;
Remember now he loves her too ;

Forget the thrills when he walked by ;
Forget the times he made you cry ;
Forget the way he spoke your name ;
Remember now, he just played a game ;

Forget how he used to hold your hand ;
Forget the sweet things if you can ;
Forget the times you were a fool ;
Remember now he doesn't love you ;

Forget the times that went so fast ;
Forget them all, they're just in the past ;
Forget the dreams that can't come true ;
Forget the boy... cos he has forgotten you. ;

(exhales) sigh.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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; 2:19 PM

i'm terribly bored now. or so i thought june hols could be a time to like have some innocent fun and that the word "bored" would never come to my mind. pfft. i wanna go cycling again, NOW! ahha.
had a series of recurring dreams yesterday and today. and it's all about the same person. bluh luh luh. the dream was so perfect and it felt so REAL. and i had to just wake up knowing all wasn't true. :(

The Love Personality Test

Joanna, your love personality type is ESFP.
About 8% of the U.S. population possesses the combination of traits that make up this personality type.

Being an ESFP means that you can be one smooth operator. Blessed with high energy and chameleon-like versatility, you seem to be the kind who enjoys life's fast-paced and unpredictable situations. Because you're able to adapt more easily to new situations and new people than most others are, variety can really be the spice of life for you. But just because you're social, doesn't mean you're shallow. You may not be big on intense emotional displays, but you're still quite sensitive to others. Often times you know just the right thing to do or say to make someone in your life feel special. Your highly empathic nature allows you to know how others really feel without them having to spell everything out for you. Your type really seems to have a grip on life and knows how to enjoy the present moment. You're not usually one to take things for granted.

In relationships, ESFPs like you are known for being eager to please others. You'll usually try hard to make relationships work and your patient nature helps keep you going even when there are bumps in the road. Realize that you set higher expectations for yourself than many people do. Sometimes you may put too much pressure on yourself to stay in situations that aren't necessarily the best for you.

Who Catches Your Eye?

Joanna, your crush is the Class Clown.

Seriously forks. Only a guy with a great sense of humor stands a chance of making it as your fun-loving sweetie. Going back-to-school doesn't have to be a bland and boring time. With a funny and cute guy to crush on, things will definitely put a smile on your face. Even when attending mandatory student assemblies and classes that last for days, you're a girl with an active mind and funny bone. Thankfully, your new crush should liven up even the dullest of moments. Maybe he's cracking jokes in History class, writing witty pieces for the newspaper, or hamming it up in the lunchroom. Wherever you find him, you'll be in for an entertaining school year!

replies.
passer-by: same boat, you're not alone. :)
glynis: haha.. ok. soon luh! haven't been talking to ya. meanwhile, take care.
nat: hello pong ping!
christine: :))) please do.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Sunday, June 05, 2005 ; 8:03 PM

yay! i'm so tired please. went east coast park with zelly and toii to cycle today. it's been ages since i cycled, and ages since i've been to ecp. ahah. zell came my house first and we took 76 there.. toii was like an hour late so she met us at ecp.. we cycled almost non-stop for 2 hrs all the way from ecp (chinese swimming club there), passing by the national sailing club and bedok jetty, all the way to somewhere in bedok.. my legs were so wobbly after that and my hand was numb. woosh. ah well, with ppl like ms bestfriend, how can we have a chance to stop for long.. haha. there were so many ppl, but i finally got over my phobia of cycling near too many ppl, which i had because i knocked onto one cyclist and fell a few years back. boo. yup. kinda tired. but good workout. :D

anyways, been losing appetite since start of june. don't know why. just always having an empty stomach yet feeling bloated already? hmm. i lost 2 kg mysteriously already. hoho.

that's bout it. there's geog class tomorrow. :( boring.

am moving on! once again.

replies.
passer-by: haha, yeah. it's hard but it's the best for me. :) how bout you? don't worry, we'll find someone better. :)
cheryl: oh you silly creature! :( i rock you mean? haha.
peishan: haha, don't be. go out with yer mom and you'll have the same! heh.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Saturday, June 04, 2005 ; 9:11 PM

i didn't know lychees tasted so fantastic. maybe cos i havent ate them for so long. anyway, watched madagascar with manda a few days back! it's lame! the jokes were nice but the story was not fantastic. :) go watch it if you wanna laugh..
it's amazing how fast my attitude changes when i'm talking to someone from my past, and someone in my present. sigh.. ah wells. so why can't i just treat you like someone from my past.. in that way, it wouldn't hurt so much...

my happy pills.
sham: haha, dont be! i don't usually get such stuffs.. and maybe cos i went out with the ATM machine, if you know what i mean. ahhaha. yeah i will. :)
sheila: lol, all adidas jacket LOOK THE SAME! haha. yeah, jerks, not all, but a handful. :(
hazel: bestflenn..! i have it luh! :)))))
passerby 2: i'm not! haha. (refer to my reply to sham) :D
passer-by: lol.. don't be luh! if i was rich i wouldn't be like so happy to be gettin those stuffs right. :D
beverley:from Limited Ed Vault at The Heeren! level 3 i think. :)
cheryl: whahah. me no richie please. i heard your bday's this month aye?
nic: hmmmmmmm.. :))))))))
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Friday, June 03, 2005 ; 7:59 PM

imma happy kid again! went shopping with mom and sister today and i bought the following. :)


$119. adidas limited ed vault.
the stripes and collar look red, but they're actually orange. heh.


$119. adidas limited ed vault (missy elliot)
i had to like bend down 110 degrees to take this pic. wahah.


$89. esprit pants.
for my aussie trip.

:)))) ..

... but there's still something missin. :( sigh. okay, like so what if i have all those? it'll never like bring you back to me. my friends tell me i'm being super paranoid, i hope it's true.

replies.
the 2 passers-by: thanks! i will, and i'll try even if i can't. :))) why don't you guys leave your name and link?
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Thursday, June 02, 2005 ; 1:50 PM

this love has taken it's toll on me, she said goodbye too many times before.
i'll be emo in this entry but i DON'T CARE! so maybe i just wanna know what the hell have i done wrong. maybe i just wanna know if i'm not good enough for you. maybe i just wanna know if i've been pissing you off. maybe i just don't understand what you're thinking. so about your gal pals, so maybe they are more than just yer friends. and so maybe i get jealous easily. go ahead and call me a green-eyed monster. it's not fair! so maybe i'm just some dirt or dust to you. you played me and with your words, and actions, and i thought, hey, is this a sign? NO. you fucker you flirt you player you disgusting piece of nothing. fine, i might not mean every word of that sentence, but you hurt me and that's NOT right. i HATE this feeling of being cheated by someone whom i love so much. i HATE to know that i'm not your ONLY ONE. i HATE to know that i'm not someone special to you, but just like any of the rest. but i can't make myself let go. i can't. i like everything single thing about you. no one can ever be any better than you. but i HATE your guts! why do you always have to put me through this? why do i always have to let you put me through this? so i've to decipher for myself what the hell's coming up next and what the hell am i doing? thanks alot. see the many entries i've put up about you, see the many tears i've shed for you, see how much you mean to me! but you don't care a damn at all and this is not again another ending. i don't think i can move on yet. i don't know what i should do.
Nic: it doesn't matter, you know it doesn't to him.
yes. it doesn't matter to him if i'm hurting now or whatever. i don't wish to let you go, i just hope you'll finally realise i've always been the one there. will there ever be that day.. sigh. i wish i could just turn back time and hold on to that moment forever.

It's not that I can't live without you, it's just that I don't even want to try. Every night I dream about you, ever since the day we said goodbye. If I won't such a fool, right now I'd be holding you. There's nothing that I wouldn't do, baby if I only knew.. The words to say, the road to take, to find a way back to your heart.. What can I do to get to you and find a way back to your heart?.. I don't know how it got so crazy, but I'll do anything to set things right. Cos your love is so amazing, baby you're the best thing in my life.. Let me prove my love is real and make you feel the way I feel. I promise I would give the world, if only you would tell me. Give me one more chance, to give my love to you. Cos no one on this earth loves you like I do..
-the way back to your heart- bsb.

sigh.
letting go is harder than i thought, is harder than it used to be.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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Wednesday, June 01, 2005 ; 5:37 PM

Brian Koh is retarded. went to his house today, and how i sneaked in was seriously hilariously i swear. i had to dash into the room while his grandma's back was facing me when she was trying to switch off the tv at the hall. haha! he made me cancel my movie date with Manda! roar..... oh and halfway his dad came home a little too soon and we did really crazy stuffs. shan't elaborate. Hmm. thta stupid guy took my phone to 'charge it for me' and ended up switching phones with me so now i'm left with his pokkai nokia 2100 (i think), and plus his cracked mp3. not bad.
xoxo -

Y Y Y Y Y

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CHIJ Saint Joseph's Convent /4 Faith
Catholic Junior College /1T34
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