_____________________moody.
Tuesday, October 31, 2006 ; 10:25 PM
updates,
- misplaced by phone 7370 in the arcade at dhoby xchange while playing daytona and i strongly suspect it got stolen right after cause it wasn't anywhere to be found. ):
- sara, fernie & shiting, plus serene, henry, rose & xiling came over to my place on saturday for pw. haha. quite slack but still managed to be productive.
- currently tryna study math these days. failing quite badly though. :/ big thank-yous to qibin & alittle of themis (BLOODY MATHS GENIUS, 78/100 IN PROMOS!) for teaching me! ;D they care about my promotion and i appreciate that so, so much.
- been going back to school for OP dry-run. my presentation skills suck. :/
- tried mugging ytd but failed terribly. we ended up talking about everything in life ranging from primary schs, to mr bean, to injuries & cuts, to skating, to religion, to reflecting on life etc. fun but unproductive. haha
- today i finally watched DEATH NOTE with lester, chrissy, qibin, themis & ryan. it's damn nice! i can't believe it'll be this nice. i'm so gonna watch death note 2 this december man! L & Light are damn cute laa.. tried studying at cathay basement after that with the rest. more productive! talked about stuffs too.
People's expectations change. Guess i've learnt that today. They change in time, sometimes gradually, and sometimes suddenly. His/her attitude towards you drastically change, and you wonder to yourself what shit you've done wrong. sucks, doesn't it? hah. well, guess it can't be helped. If it is meant to be like that, then live with it.
PS: Thankyou those who've been so nice to offer to accompany me these days in studying for my math, offering encouragements, and even helping me in it! you guys chose to help me when you could've been out there shopping, having fun & all. omg i couldn't thank you guys more. sighs.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________random.
Sunday, October 29, 2006 ; 11:41 AM
Nostalgia.
got your own kind of style that sets you apart,
baby that's why you captured my heart.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________2nd last day of school ; ninny's bday!; glenn's bday!
Wednesday, October 25, 2006 ; 9:15 PM
Class pictures taken today.....!! Credits to Mr Jonathan Tan, our patient photographer. haha.
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class girls acting "cutesy". haha
I love my class man. <3 pic taken of all of us without angeline and lydia, and in memory of rongcheng. For now it's goodbye 1T34, and hello 2T34/ 1T-- (fill in the blanks).
out to town after school with fernie and toi! got some stuffs before toi and i went down to sheila's place to celebrate ninny's bday! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY NINNNYYY! it was a mini Halloween party! we dressed up as horror icons and i was The Mummy. hehe. brought 2 big roles of toilet paper to school summore. like some auntie. toi was Sadako, nat was the ballerina from Wishing stairs, beryl & qi were Addam Wednesday people (i think so), sham was the evil woman at the tower from the show Stay Alive, and nic was Casper! sheila made the best Oreo cheesecake in town man! rocks like shit. can compete with the one at Starbucks. hah. after that she opened our individual presents! ok pics will be up soon!
Oh yes, and yesterday, it was glenn's bday! toi and i headed to VIVOCITY before that cause i had to meet my seller. like finally i've been to vivocity. it's super big and nice lah! i'm impressed. and i busted $102 on Forever21 tops! slap me please! :( i'm still in debt. haha. i wanna go vivocity again! then we headed down to sham's house in the evening to have steamboat dinner cause the birthday boy wanted it.. nice stuff man.
photos taken! yep, notice the smileys. unglam shit.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________if only we could live twice.
Monday, October 23, 2006 ; 8:41 PM
today was one of the freakiest days ever. i waited in anticipation at the foyer for what's going to happen to me next year. i had cold sweat and my heart was pounding at an unstable rate. ahaha. in the end, a list of students whose names were shown on the tv updates board had to see bro paul, and some of our names weren't there... kind of like hanging on a string. well, tanjeksuan said bro paul will talk to the rest on wed... roar... now please lemme take sup papers.
we waited for toi and others to finish, before playing dota at Speedy with the usual dota khakis plus xiangli! once again.. haha too lazy to talk about it. but today's one was damn exciting! and especially stressful for me. i felt like a noob playing with a group of pro asses lah. come to think of it, i was. lol.
Can this be true? Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________last few days.
Sunday, October 22, 2006 ; 9:48 PM
fri, sat and sun, dota all the way! goodness. and all same meeting patterns. songyao reaches the earliest, then i meet him, then qibin will meet us awhile later at the ps entrance, then we'll talk some crap there when we ain't even waiting for anyone, then lester will arrive some time later, followed by toi etc etc. i need a life. i need to shop and tan. not just visit Speedy Cafe everyday. haha. now even the auntie who owns the shop remembers us.
but oh well, gotta spend as much time with my classmates as possible.. next week will be the last week 1T34 will ever exist as a full 26-students-class... :( i'm so sad. no more daily canteen craptalks, no more playing of stupid boliao hand games during break, no chionging for prelims and As together, no going grad night together... :( booohooooohoooooo. i don't ever wanna lose friends from T34. :( and many others from other classes.. wellwell, guess i'll just have to treasure them while i can.
and we were better then then we'd ever been before
you came back to me after walking out my door
you would call me on the phone before you even got home
without me, you said you were all alone
the cold wind that blows all the things i used to know
how could it play so fast, never thought you'd be part of my past
would i trade it all again to get you out of my head?
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________scoop
Tuesday, October 17, 2006 ; 10:58 PM
out with some class people today.. had retail therapy with chrissy, bay and ryan after school to comfort myself after suffering from yet another heartache upon receiving h1 paper. don't wish to talk about it. shopping made me feel a whole lot better! i bought this top from Foorever21 in an online spree and i saved $10 bucks exactly even if it means buying from the US and shipping over. cheap shit. singapore taxes and stuff are cheating on our money! now i know to participate in sprees instead! heh.
after shopping in town, headed to cine to catch Scoop with chrissy joel ryan qibin and lester. my sis said it was very nice and funny so i suggested it. omggg it turned out averagely dreadful! sheesh! -.- after movie, we went sakae for dinner, then headed to TCC at ps to copy maths homework. heh. i was starting to get motivated to study again (yeah whatever). it's been long since i've held a bloody pen, i even feel weird doing so! anyways, i thought, hey, we could do this everyday next year to motivate each other to consistently study, yet at the same time have fun together; but then again, i remembered that we wouldn't even have the chance to do so anymore. :( right, right. no dota today! we can exercise self-discipline! hah.. nonetheless, dota these days has been real fun. i think we're all getting addicted to it..
last note, thank you everyone for your comfort and encouragements! people like toi, chrissy, fern, rachell, xiling, sheila, sham, qibin, lester, tasha, sara, pet, charmaine, song, kiat, haowen, xiuxian, lowyon, laycheng etc.. hoho. :) :) :) what can i say? i love you all! xiling's blog entry is making me sad again. thank you xiling, your entry is really touching. :')
You almost always pick the best times to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm, red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out and let you go away for a long time
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________there's nothing left to say but, goodbye.
Friday, October 13, 2006 ; 12:14 PM
"I've finally made friends like you all, and now you all have to go.."
That line fucking stabbed me in the heart. It did on wednesday, and it still will for quite some time.
I don't ever wanna leave; 1T34 was no doubt the greatest J1 class anyone can ever be in. To think i used to dislike the class, but now it's so different. All the rebelling against the teachers, whole class mass skipping of chinese lectures together just to play dota, everyday-breaktime-laughters and jokes, all the Mr T jokes and stories, all the countless encouragements we offer to each other, after school hangouts in far east.. that emo session we had outside the toilet about parting from each other made me realise how much everyone treasures each other. Completely different unpretentious people with so many common interests. It's so rare to find a class which never fails to have class outings almost everyday. I don't want this feeling of belonging to ever go... I know, we can still see each other in school, but the feeling will be different. It'll no longer be the same... Moderations?......
The crying these days has drained me so badly, I feel so tired of trying. Even posting this simple entry is making my heart ache so badly.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________post-promo-days. :)
Sunday, October 01, 2006 ; 12:03 PM
hello world! promos are almost over! left with H1 papers.. wheeeee.
two fridays ago we had our chinese promo paper, and i overslept! i only woke up when toi called my house at 7.35am. i was like, !!!!, the paper was starting in 25 mins?! rushed down just 5 mins late for the paper thanks to my dad who drove me there. eheh. that was close.
the next monday we had our chem paper which was disastrous.. i studied like shit for chem and well, i think i'm still gonna fail. :O section c was horrible, and i didn't even complete my section a when the time was up that i had to randomly shade some answers for almost 8 questions. one thing i definitely learnt is that no matter how hard you study in the last few days for jc work, you won't score unless you've been consistent. unless, you're some genius lah. booooo. disappointment disappointment!
wednesday was maths. the subject i have least knowledge in, for jc work. hawhaw i didn't really sleep the day before luh. burnt midnight oil all the way till 5am in the morning, and had only 1 hour plus of sleep before waking up. and even until 5am, i couldn't finish integration so i skipped that! goodness.
paper was odd, i think i'm still gonna fail as usual. :( roar! haha after the papers part of the class went out together. for some it was movie marathon cos they watched 2 movies! The Banquet in the afternoon and John Tucker Must Die in the night.! i went shopping with tasha while they watched the banquet. got to have a nice conversation with her talking about life and goals and expectations of a guy ahha. it's cool to see someone you aren't exactly close close to in class open up to you. after their movie, tasha went home and i met the class before heading over to marina sq for bowling! yeah i suck at that man! poooo! my balls either went right to the drain, or scored a strike! funny or what. after bowling we went to the cathay to watch john tucker! funny show.
below: us after watching john tucker
the day after, met PET to go shopping! wheeee. it's been ages since we went out, and yeah, shopped! haowen was totally mia la. after shopping, pet met up with her mom while i went down to meet the class people.. lester, qibin, ryan, arthur. 'twas weird cos i was the only girl?! toi went to somewhere else! but then again, they didn't make me feel weird! so haha. we had fish&co for dinner at the glass house! i love the ambience there!
the next day i completely rot at home. was supposed to meet the class to play lan but ended up being so late that they finished playing already. then they all (those i met yesterday plus toii and ferniee!) came to my house and we rented House of Wax! gross show pleasee.
day after, met toi at far east with kenghee and lowyon, while she went to cut her hair. then met some other class people to play lan. lost badly (cos i suck at lan but nevermind!) ahha. i randomly chose some loserfied hero who sucked. then again probably it's cos i sucked. had dinner at cine, then ryan wanted to go to some band gig beside cine. omggggg they were like screaming as though they were in the midst of an exorcism done on them! we couldn't even hear any words. hahah me toi and rongcheng were like staring at ryan in fascination nodding his head up and down. okay but the last band as promised by ryan would be the best one.. i'd have to agree since the vocalist sang better, music sounded good, and there were lyrics in the song. :/
two fridays ago we had our chinese promo paper, and i overslept! i only woke up when toi called my house at 7.35am. i was like, !!!!, the paper was starting in 25 mins?! rushed down just 5 mins late for the paper thanks to my dad who drove me there. eheh. that was close.
the next monday we had our chem paper which was disastrous.. i studied like shit for chem and well, i think i'm still gonna fail. :O section c was horrible, and i didn't even complete my section a when the time was up that i had to randomly shade some answers for almost 8 questions. one thing i definitely learnt is that no matter how hard you study in the last few days for jc work, you won't score unless you've been consistent. unless, you're some genius lah. booooo. disappointment disappointment!
wednesday was maths. the subject i have least knowledge in, for jc work. hawhaw i didn't really sleep the day before luh. burnt midnight oil all the way till 5am in the morning, and had only 1 hour plus of sleep before waking up. and even until 5am, i couldn't finish integration so i skipped that! goodness.
paper was odd, i think i'm still gonna fail as usual. :( roar! haha after the papers part of the class went out together. for some it was movie marathon cos they watched 2 movies! The Banquet in the afternoon and John Tucker Must Die in the night.! i went shopping with tasha while they watched the banquet. got to have a nice conversation with her talking about life and goals and expectations of a guy ahha. it's cool to see someone you aren't exactly close close to in class open up to you. after their movie, tasha went home and i met the class before heading over to marina sq for bowling! yeah i suck at that man! poooo! my balls either went right to the drain, or scored a strike! funny or what. after bowling we went to the cathay to watch john tucker! funny show.
below: us after watching john tucker
the day after, met PET to go shopping! wheeee. it's been ages since we went out, and yeah, shopped! haowen was totally mia la. after shopping, pet met up with her mom while i went down to meet the class people.. lester, qibin, ryan, arthur. 'twas weird cos i was the only girl?! toi went to somewhere else! but then again, they didn't make me feel weird! so haha. we had fish&co for dinner at the glass house! i love the ambience there!the next day i completely rot at home. was supposed to meet the class to play lan but ended up being so late that they finished playing already. then they all (those i met yesterday plus toii and ferniee!) came to my house and we rented House of Wax! gross show pleasee.
day after, met toi at far east with kenghee and lowyon, while she went to cut her hair. then met some other class people to play lan. lost badly (cos i suck at lan but nevermind!) ahha. i randomly chose some loserfied hero who sucked. then again probably it's cos i sucked. had dinner at cine, then ryan wanted to go to some band gig beside cine. omggggg they were like screaming as though they were in the midst of an exorcism done on them! we couldn't even hear any words. hahah me toi and rongcheng were like staring at ryan in fascination nodding his head up and down. okay but the last band as promised by ryan would be the best one.. i'd have to agree since the vocalist sang better, music sounded good, and there were lyrics in the song. :/
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y