_____________________if only we could live twice.
Monday, October 23, 2006 ; 8:41 PM

first things first, i forgot to bring my phone to school today. felt damn empty please! had totally no form of connection to the outside world apart from friendly people in cjc. haha. i came home seeing 16 missed calls and 11 new messages. hmmm.

today was one of the freakiest days ever. i waited in anticipation at the foyer for what's going to happen to me next year. i had cold sweat and my heart was pounding at an unstable rate. ahaha. in the end, a list of students whose names were shown on the tv updates board had to see bro paul, and some of our names weren't there... kind of like hanging on a string. well, tanjeksuan said bro paul will talk to the rest on wed... roar... now please lemme take sup papers.

we waited for toi and others to finish, before playing dota at Speedy with the usual dota khakis plus xiangli! once again.. haha too lazy to talk about it. but today's one was damn exciting! and especially stressful for me. i felt like a noob playing with a group of pro asses lah. come to think of it, i was. lol.

Can this be true? Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?

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