_____________________nic's bday!
Wednesday, June 14, 2006 ; 10:30 PM

hello there. been quite long since i updated.. anyways. been one heckeva busy week, at least i think so.. haven't been studying! oh my goodness! last thursday went with MI people lowyon glenn and joel, plus toi and sham to bugis for the midnight sale. from 9 to 12, there's storewide of 20% discount. was supposed to go to the airport to fetch my mom but i was too late! mom's plane set in early and parents got kinda angry for me being so late that they told me not to go airport anymore. keng hee came later. finally got to see him after a few months i suppose! ahha. got a white topshop top and went home earlier..

monday met up with toi sham and becky to do up nic's bday card! yep yep. in the later evening, went over to parkway parade to meet ryan to study. sure man, study! i turned up almost an hour late. sigh! i ought to correct this flaw of mine! lack of punctuality! tsktsk. ended up talking and introing songs. would've been more productive if it had been longer.

tuesdayy. nickee's surprise birthday partyy!
the rest did a model of her old house which held loads of memories, which was super sweet i must really say.. nelson and nic came down from their class chalet and nic was blindfolded from in the taxi all the way to her house.

below, nelson trying to get the blindfolded-nic to the bbq area. hehs.

then we started off with bbq. kind of like potluck cus we got different kinds of food. yum! and then went to karaoke room. they ended up dancing and being retarded, and at that same time i kind of got emotional and some mood swing. stupid me. haha. but overall it was fun! kind of like chalet once again, just that this time it's a one-day thing. (:

below, all of us! (: but without beryl ):

today, nic officially turned SEVENTEEN! and qi went off to thailand! hmm. we went over to her house again. supposed to have a pool (swim) cum pool (billard) party.. sham went down to gardens to help get a choc cheesecake for the birthday girl.. then had the birthday cake and hung around the house for awhile.. then beryl had really bad cramps she had to go home.. and sheila and ninny went off to make sure she's alright as well.. so it was left with me, nat, becky, toi, sham, nelson and birthday girl. pool reservations were over so we played some game with alcohol. yes i got jacked the most! now i have 2 pending dares. ahha.

below, me nat becky toi squashed on nic's bed.

alrighty that's about it.. till then.. ciao!


I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house that don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most was being so close
And having so much to say, and watching you walk away
And never knowing what could have been
And not seeing that loving you is what I was trying to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go but I'm doing It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken.

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