_____________________All seems bland.
Tuesday, April 18, 2006 ; 9:15 PM

Stayed back after school for NYAA talk, then to complete pw's gpp. We were really productive considering the fact that we didn't do any preparations!.. After that cos of some stuffs, petrina haowen and i went over to canteen to study.. Long story and I'm lazy to explain. J1 badminton guys came down at 7pm after playing in audi.. Then haowen left awhile later. Me and pet just mugged and do our work till 8.15pm before leaving..

On the way back, I was all right, until i met jaslyn when she came up the bus from j8.. Was tired and about to doze off in the bus till i noticed a familiar figure, and before I knew it, she bounced on me and gave me such a comforting tight hug and exclaimed "MOMO!" She told me how much she missed me and how she had been trying to call me all day only to hear the voicemail song (phone died on me)... :( That instant I felt so much warmth and comfort I couldn't help but to break down and cry...

I don't enjoy school. Niether does toi. Neither does christine. Come, let's all go to poly. I miss my secondary schoolmates. I miss them like fuck. I miss the people who knew me so well, the people who could read my mind without me even speaking a word. I miss the warmth I felt when I'm with my true friends, the people who cared for me and went through thick and thin with me. That moment I felt her hug, I realised how long I have not felt that sense of comfort and how dumb life is now.

I can't seem to get my work right, and that feeling sucks cos when you try to do your work and realise, hey i'm stuck at this question, you'll just feel like giving up and telling yourself how lousy you are. I don't know how long I need to take to catch up.. Econs is confusing me with all its terms but I still like that subject. Cca trainings are on monday, wed and friday, and it is not like I exactly look forward to attending them. Chances are most likely I'm not playing anyway.. And moreover the girls team is closing down right after tournament. I don't know what I'm doing. Even my social life is crappy cos I'm left with Tuesdays and Thursdays, which aren't always free cos of projects and extra lessons and other crappy stuffs.

Okay this is supposed to be a short entry but I've been complaining. I'm boring the readers here but ah heck I hate this. Printer's causing problems, and my parents are irritating the hell outta me tonight. I'm hopeless, useless and dumb. I don't know what to do.

Get up, come on, why're you scared?
You'll never change what's been and gone
Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out.

replies.
fernie: haha. yeah. but who in the right mind would wanna exchange seats with us. you tell me! haha.. sigh.
noven: oh ya. beef eater! lol. aiya. toi's busy in the florist and nurseries la. haha let's go out with the others soon! maybe this weekend or something!
beverley: haha she's damn irritating la. she picks on me too. grr. lessons are such a bore! haha yeah rarely see you.. ask me and terri out! then it wouldn't be a hi-bye thing. lol.
haowen: hello fanfreak. you are such a disappointment. hah your question answered already la..
sham: yaa... been saying that but never hear from you! tskkk. BEEF EATER!

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