_____________________reminiscing on the old times
Saturday, March 25, 2006 ; 11:41 AM
if only we could relive our secondary school days.
i miss going out with bestfriend and shopping and looking out for eyecandies, and really laughing over the stupidest things. i remember in sec 1 or sec 2 when she mistook a crippled man on crutches behind some bushes to be someone skating and started slapping herself and laughing her high-pitched laughter. and last year's new year countdown where we went with my parents to see the fireworks at esplanade, going all hysterical when we saw the fireworks on display, then held bestfriend stayovers and just reflected on our lives so far. and those phone talks where we confided in each other about our love lives etc.
i miss the times the clique held outings esp to celebrate birthdays at sentosa, and i'll never forget the time we booked a hotel room after grad night last year and how sheila and beryl were feeling alittle high cos of i-don't-know-what and started playing with the helium-filled balloons hanging over the bed on the ceilings and sheila kept giggling and going "look! look! bouncing nipples!". it was so lame me and ninny couldn't help but laugh seeing them. and other times in school when we just hid in the toilets and even in cubicles to skip assembly and somehow always go scot-free. and other times nic toi and i irritated the class teachers esp mrs thiru and mr tan and fat lard susie lee and when we always enter class the latest but leave the earliest, and all the visits to the toilet. the times nic mag and i danced around like lunatics in the toilet while toi looked at us in complete disgust (haha). the times nic and i took bus 80 from sengkang all the way to harbourfront cus we were too lazy to go home (wadahell) haha. the times toi and i went late for holiday lessons and end up hesitating whether to even go to class anot when we already reached the class door. the times we laugh at sham for her oh-so lame jokes she makes which weren't even supposed to be funny. the times sheila said my head was bigger than my body and i get all paranoid and all and then toi complains sheila shouldn't have said that.. the times i imitate becky's 'EH HELLO!' and hear beryl and ninny going "eh i think i just heard becky." and the times nat's being all motherly and all, the times she made food during home econs and we end up eating em cos they were like damn nice. and qi being oh-so sweet and quiet i can't help but not comment on anything just that i miss her being the sweet her. and never forgetting every recess where we'd always gather at our usual spot outside the canteen (which is sadly now restrcited as an eating place because of that fugly irritating brocolli-haired woman security guard:( ).. and many more.
i miss going tuition with jaslyn at bishan and how we usually don't even talk in school and talk like we've known each other since forever when we're out of school. i miss the endless fast-paced shopping sprees where we'd spend hours deciding and trying on clothes in zara and topshop and scanning thru far east to hunt for clothes, and the times we spent our money on alot alot alot of food instead of material stuffs cos we were just too hungry. and the times we laughed at muthu, the times we bitched and ranted cos of our problems..
i don't really fancy my class in cjc. i don't think i'd ever get people like my old friends out of my new ones. they don't give me the same warm feeling i get when i'm around my old friends. my classmates might be nice to laugh with, fun to talk to with, but there's like cliques here and there in my class, it's hard and probably rude to barge in to get to know them well. the only ppl who're more approachable are like, christine and fernie, tasha and sara. the crescent girls plus rachell are nice, and charmaine qibin lester and gang are nice too, but they're still like a clique after all. the people are all great people individually, but 1T34 as a class just hasn't got that thing going on. i hope i'll grow to like my class as a whole someday.
mind me, i think i'm having these kinda moodswings where i've tendencies to complain about how stupid my life is. cos my monthly just came. owell.
'So many people around, but i still feel alone.' by beverley in her blog. my sentiments exactly.
i feel very ... empty.
Hello, you again. How could you go and be so cold?
She said 'Goodbye sad man', cause all this pain is getting old
Hello lonely. Now that you're gone I can move on
Goodbye sweet thing, just know that I've been here all along
So why're you sad? Don't you know that
It's you who holds my dreams and seems to always come back?
How do I live without you?
How could you walk away from this
just walk away from this again? Again.. Again..
All those days you waste on me, I just can't let you go..all my regrets are nothing new
xoxo -
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