_____________________missing sjc
Friday, January 27, 2006 ; 5:47 PM
it's no problem of mine but it's a problem I find ;
living a life that I can't leave behind ;
there's no sense in telling me 'the wisdom of a fool won't set you free' ;
but that's the way that it goes, and it's what nobody knows ;
and every day my confusion grows ;
Every time I see you falling I get down on my knees and pray ;
I'm waiting for that final moment you'll say the words that I can't say ;
I feel fine and I feel good, I feel like I never should ;
whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say ;
why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday ;
I'm not sure what this could mean, I don't think you're what you seem ;
I do admit to myself that if I hurt someone else ;
then we'd never see just what we're meant to be ;
Every time I see you falling I get down on my knees and pray ;
I'm waiting for that final moment you'll say the words that I can't say ;
gahh. i'm down with fever and a sore throat. it sucks. i feel funny and sleepy and cny's in 2 days time! booo.
anyway.. for the first time this year i feel down. i miss sjc.. life didn't seem that complicated and we were just little innocent freaks leading simple lives, doing stupid things together and going crazy together. it seems as though i've stepped out of my comfort zone ever since i entered MI; not like the people there are horrible or what, i just miss people in sjc who knew me well and whom i could really be myself infront of them. i had a dream this afternoon while taking a nap, and it was a horrible one. i won't elaborate on it, but i woke up feeling odd and thinking everything really happened.
whatever whatever. i think it's just one of those sucky days when you feel lousy and eeky and disgusting and retarded and everything else.
today, didn't go to school. had a disturbing fever since the night before. met the rest over at sjc to visit the teachers and collect my GPA. the school sucks now la. first this indian male security guard didn't allow us into school cos we are supposed to "have an appointment with a teacher" or show the prove of the gpa letter so that we could go in. dumb school. thankfully we saw mr tan and toi screamed for him to come over to 'save' us. and like it wasn't bad enough, we were only allowed to be in for at most 15 minutes. sick or what? to make it all worse, this indian female security guard chased us away from our group's recess usual spot. :( toi called her a caulliflower head, damn funny, but i totally agree. susie lee never fails to irritate us though. she saw us but just cut through our group to see two girls from the triple sci class behind us and i think she said, "i've no time to see you all, where's sew quee (i duno how to spell) and adeline?" fat biatch. so biased lah! still as mean even when we've graduated.
after that we went over to cp but i left quite soon after cos i had to rush to the doc cos it closed at 4pm; to get mc and medicine.
okay with that aside, i'm still feeling odd. sigh. :( i don't like feeling down and ill. it's like problems coming in tenfolds. i don't wish to think about it but i can't. why?.. :( i need some happy pills.
bizzare love triangle
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________please remember me.
Thursday, January 26, 2006 ; 8:04 PM
And your left with yesterday, left with the memories
I, I'll always think of you and smile
And be happy for the time I had you with me
Though we go our seperate ways
I won't forget so don't forget the memories we made
Please remember, please remember
I was there for you and you were there for me
Please remember, our time together
The time was yours and mine
While we were wild and free
Please remember, please remember me
Goodbye, there's just no sadder word to say
And it's sad to walk away with just the memories
Who's to know what might have been
We'll leave behind a life and time
I'll never know again
And how we laugh and how we smile
And how this heart was yours and mine
And how a dream was out of reach
I stood by you, you stood by me
We took each day and made it shine
We wrote our names across the sky
We ride so fast, we ride so free
And I knew that you had me
Please remember, Please remember me
Hello i've alot to update about but i'm so lazy to. i feel kinda achy all over and my mind's too lazy to recall what happened the past few days. i just know i wanted to say alot. haha. roar my throat feels funny too but i don't wanna get sick! it's CNY! :( i can't wait for cny. heh.
my friendster profile views are scary. it's like 562 views now since 1 jan la. i don't think i've got that much views ever. haha i've a stalker?! ok whatever. the barker boys say i look very fierce in sch now they call me a discipline mistress! they're the first ever who told me that. i think i look the opposite. seriously la. ok whatever again. haha
anywayy.. i'm real glad my class is bonding even more. ok i'm going off. till then..
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________og outing/ ninny's house
Saturday, January 21, 2006 ; 2:42 PM
yday school was boring. i hate friday's timetable. ulk. no tutorials and 2 lectures (econs and maths), plus 1.5 hrs of P.E.. P.E was fine though. toi and i bathed after P.E.. felt so refreshed aft that. anyway i brought cam. will upload the pics over here when i feel like it. aha. went over to ninny's house aft school! hoho. played some games and stuff. went on the way home, sham and i walked down the stairs of the overhead bridge 2 steps by 2 steps, and i kind of tripped and fell! argh and i sprained my ankle. it's swollen now. :( dad's prolly gonna bring me to the chinese doc soon..
ANYWAY...
I LOVE THESE! nokia's new Lamour collection! roarrrr. i'm so gonna get that in march when my plan ends. heh. i'm suffering with an 8250 noww since my phone got stollen by that fat momma in taka.. >:(
Don't tell God how big your problems are; Tell your problems how big God is. (:
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________bowling!
Tuesday, January 17, 2006 ; 10:56 PM
yesterday after school, trained down to hougang superbowl to meet ninny and sheila along with toi for bowling! haha! quite fun la, i don't mind bowling anytime soon. we had a good time laughing at each other's reactions when we bowl, especially toi's. lol.
today! managed to survive two GP mass lecture periods in the morning. next it was CHINESE. i haven't touched on chinese since last October. to make it worse, the teacher was so Boring with a capital B. suddenly Ling lao shi back in sjc seems so interesting. i'm serious. she talked so softly and we did nothing but listen to her talk about the topics we are gonna learn for AO level. toi and i wanted to cry. haha. so when the teacher wasn't looking, we ran outta class. HAHA! told the SA guys to tell the teacher that we found out we were in the wrong class, if she asked. haha. it was hilarious please. skipped maths mass lecture which was the last period. almost everyone skipped, except the poor class rep who has to mark the attendance. aft school, went ps for lunch with toi then headed home.
hmmm ok that's all there is for now.. anyway i like cookie and gentle giant! :DDDD wooohoooo.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________last minute skipped school, watched In Her Shoes/ ikea!
Saturday, January 14, 2006 ; 2:39 PM
currently stoning at home now. how no life! i think i'm having some diahorrea since morning. woke up feeling sharp stinging pains at my abdomen area! yucks. anyways..
skipped school on thursday. was already on the bus to school when toi said she didn't feel like going. (roar!) so i didn't wanna go too cus i didn't know anyone in my class since it was only wednesday when we got to see them. took 77 from the school's bus stop to town, in which i received stares all the way cus, who would be in town at 8am in her school uniform loitering around? obviously i skipped school. then took the train to bishan to meet jaslyn! oh my i haven't seen her for ages luhh. we had ya kun kaya toast for breakfast, then felt bored so we watched In Her Shoes, which just opened that day. since it was 10am, the cinema had only like about 6 ppl including us. haha. the show was, alright. can't say it was fantastic.
lectures were boring yesterday (as usual), and we had like 2 breaks. maths, break, class time, break, physics. how slack is that! and the teachers prolly wouldn't even know if you skip their lectures. haha.
after school, toi and i headed to ikea! the rest were a little late, so we ate lunch first. met the rest and they got their stuffs. everyone had something to buy except me and i only got a nice pencil holder in the end. HAHA so loser.
when they arrived, we ate at the ikea food area.. nic and i shared the kids spaghetti meal cus i already had burger king before that. they got meatballs(whooo!) and fish! we just sat there and talked about stupid things, funny how the conversation became quite an interesting one.
in the evening, rushed off to meet my sister at bugis. walked around and shopped for cny clothes and all. got some accessories and a top.. i felt like a strange alien being stared at cus i was one of the only ppl there wearing school uniform at sucha late hour. was already super tired at that time. only reached home at like, 11pm. zzz.
Philosophy | 83% | ||
Mathematics | 83% | ||
Engineering | 75% | ||
Psychology | 75% | ||
English | 67% | ||
Theater | 67% | ||
Journalism | 67% | ||
Linguistics | 67% | ||
Dance | 58% | ||
Anthropology | 58% | ||
Art | 58% | ||
Biology | 58% | ||
Chemistry | 50% | ||
Sociology | 42% |
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uh huh. took the quiz from toi's blog. maths?! sounds boring. but i know i wanna do marketing and banking&finance in future! haahh.
I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow
replies.
j2: hello! why not you leave your name and link? haha serious? i just started on physics and i kinda prefer it to chem.. but i'll see how after a few more lessons. i still can change my course after the 2 months. :) thanks for your advice! :)
jan: hello yes you bummer! come to school luh. school lectures are boring though! yes yes sch uniform and BADGE! :)
van: haha lucky you!! i want rj's collar pin badgeee!
glynis: thanks! yes yes, message me when we should go out! i'm free for now.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________boring school day
Monday, January 09, 2006 ; 7:26 PM
woke up the earlier than usual today to meet kenneth from my og to go to school. bus 985 took so long to come, and to make things worse there was massive traffic jam due to a car accident on BKE. only reached sch at 8! felt so bad cuz kenneth usually takes the train with his friends and i made him take bus with me cos i said bus 985 was faster.. in the end, his friends reached much earlier than us. well normally we should've reached earlier if not for the jam! but we weren't considered late so oh wells.
first period was econs. the teacher was the most interesting one out of the whole day. and that's how bad it was, cus he made mrs ng peck hoon back in sjc seem super interesting.
next period was p.e, and there was some discipline talk. but alot of us just lazed around the canteen. haha the teachers don't even care.. next period was break. then, Maths. it was the worst of all. he was so boring and he speaks quite weirdly, i couldn't understand some of the things he said. but kinda pitiful, cus he's like quite old and no one bothers listening to him. scolded everyone for the noise though.
well i felt sorry for the teachers.. some of the students there didn't respect the econs and math teacher lah. kept laughing at them and no one seemed to pay any attention to them when they spoke. so poorthing. :( and when the bell rang they ran off.
next was break AGAIN. then Physics. the teacher kept telling us that physics is a very tough subject and told us to reconsider taking it. he also said that if we were certain we don't want to take physics we can just do our own stuffs but not talk. like, !!! and i thought teachers were supposed to promote the subjects. but anyways, that's all for the day.
after school, went down to nic's house. everyone was there! :) that's cool man. watched the oc and lazed around.
mmm. i miss orientation. lessons are boring. hah. got our classes already though.
oh yah, i now know not to ever take bus 147 from clementi interchange! took it a few days back and it took me 2 solid hours to reach home luhh. and qian ya who stays all the way at pasir ris took mrt and only reached home in 1.5 hours.
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
replies.
adeline: burger! no la not charming! long ago gotten over charming. eww haha! yeah i'm using the diary, and yeah i bought the limegreen one lah! i haven't collected my cheque. oh mann.
van: hello school's fine. how's rj?!
carolina: HELLO! haha the school building sucks lah but other than that it's okay. the people there are great. haven't really started lessons proper. heh. HAPPY NEW YEAR!
sham: we miss you too! hope you're having fun over there.
sheryl: heh heh yes i miss you and i love my bag! :D yupyup mr tan's so nice and retarded. lol! see you soon!
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________MI
Wednesday, January 04, 2006 ; 9:07 PM
MI is so far okay. although the building is frigging small and the whole school looks like it's gonna collapse anytime soon. first day was dead boring but i managed to make friends.
my first friends called (oh shit i forgot) x___ yi from katongconvent. she was my first friend right the moment i gathered into the og group. (: and she's nice! made my second and third friend a few minutes later when my og gathered in class. qian ya from stnicks and ren jie from cathigh. both are nice ppl too! i'm so glad my og has friendly ppl. then there's those from other og(s) like yixin, jan and haowen from crescentgirls, s_____ from sac and ex-tuition friends elizabeth and michelle from stmargs. i still seem to belong to the lousiest school among the friends i've made. poots.
my ogl is super inefficient though. urgh. he is boring, and he looks like the beaver in narnia. hurhur. he made me be the first to intro bout myself infront of my og. stupid beaver. had some damn damn damn boring talk on discipline and subject combi.. made us hate MI lah. the dm was so sarcastic. ohwells. after school, darylyn and i went over to toa payoh macs.
second day was much better. we had some stupid treasure hunt around the school. weather was hot and humid and everything. pffft. after that we had to learn MI dance. had to be a guy-girl thing, and i got some obnoxious big guy i tell you. i don't wanna be mean here, but he kept laughing to himself and scratching himself, it freaks me out. but everything was over quite soon. phew. after school, darylyn and i (again haha) went to hougang macs. HAHA. just having macs cravings these days. can't blame us for mi's canteen food sucks.
tmr's gonna be better. we're gonna have mascot competition and mass ice-breakers. the og peeps seriously haven't bonded enough.
till then!
(will post replies in next entry!)
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________letting go.
Monday, January 02, 2006 ; 11:02 AM
got this from my diary, taken from a paragraph i quoted in an aussie mag i bought some time ago in australia. hmmmm.
got up early morning at 8. played badminton with dad and cousins at hougang sports hall. mmm game was quite slack since we played doubles and we only had the court for an hour. still didn't feel tired at 9 so went to serangoon stadium to run. wooo. cityhall later at 3 with ryl and matt. am gonna get my newmaleurban bag! i haven't decided on the darn colour. limegreen/ pink bag, wait forr mmeeee!
i read through my diary last night and it makes me feel sad. it's every little thing that happened last year, every single detail that i noted down in the diary; makes me feel like continuing where i left off. life's so monotonous now. i miss the fast-paced life; from getting angsty and irritated about boys' loser attitude, to going crazy and love-struck about the little things. if i were to continue my diary, it wouldn't be as interesting to read anymore.
anyway, the current eyecandy's being really nice now, but i think he's nice to everyone, and that's sad cos then i'm not as special. and he doesn't even know how i feel. well well, don't even plan to tell or do anything. anyway school's tmr and we're all going to different co-ed schools. things will then be different. so, oh wells. ):
yes school starts tomorrow. it's weird. very very weird. be at clementi/ jurong by 7.15am...
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y
_____________________stuffs to get for the new year
Sunday, January 01, 2006 ; 9:37 PM
today dad wanted to bring my family and cousins to botanical gardens for some concert, and i was planning to jog there.. but it was raining so heavily, we figured the concert would've been cancelled.. waited awhile for the rain to stop, but it didn't seem to stop so we left. went over to tanglin mall for dinner. yumm! had oyako don at noodle bistro. after dinner, dad felt nice, so he drove me to heeren to get my newmaleurban bag! too bad i didn't get it, YET. details in last paragraph.
anyway, The Family Stone was alright. not too bad, but not a must-watch. it's quite hilarious.
to celebrate the new year, my parents brought me to the road opp of fullerton hotel to see the fireworks that were on display at 12mn! bestfriend called and wanted to watch too, so she came over to my house and we all went together. the fireworks didn't let us down. damn nice luhhh! :) so romantic and stuff. great way to welcome the new year!
check out. all taken by me! heh.
after fireworks, went to bestfriend's place for the annual stayover! our 3rd end-of-year countdown stayover since sec 2. reflections and everything, but there weren't much to reflect about, just that we had alot of first-times this year. well well. i have definitely learnt many lessons this year..
anyway, whee! dad brought me to queensway yesterday to get my adidas shoes. after that we went over to ikea to get some stuffs.
now the only thing left to buy is my $149 newmaleurban bag! yes, it's a bomb, but it's an eyecandy! ended up not buying at heeren cos the only limegreen one left had a scratch. so am gonna go citylink tmr to get it at there instead. i'm still in a dilemma on getting the pink & white one or the limegreen & grey one! both are nice in different ways! gahh.
replies.
noven: yep i'm totally grateful for that!! (: yeah alright. i saw the white one.. it's nice la, but the price also damn nice. >:(
jaslyn: i miss you too. you're like MIA the whole hols! we haven't had a single outing. hmph.
sheryl: ayeeee nooo. MOCHA FRAPP is betteerrr.
xoxo -
Y Y Y Y Y