_____________________treasure the ones you love.
Saturday, September 17, 2005 ; 9:39 PM

i'm in love with the song playing laa. what a day today. haha, woke up at 5.30am.. me and sham met at changi airport to study early on a saturday morning. haha. everyone kept staring, i bet they're thinking what we were doing at such an early hour on a weekend.. we reached the airport around 6.55am! oh yeah, i just learnt that i only take 25 mins from home to reach the airport. coooll. wanted to catch sunrise but sadly the viewing mall in terminal 2 is currently under construction. we started studying at 8am.. alll theee waaayyy till 6.30pm! ahah. stopped for an hour's plus break for lunch. that means we studied for a total of about 9 hours. scary la. it seriously did not feel like we were there for 10 hours. it felt as though we started studying only at around 2pm kinda thing.. eek.

sad songs are giving me the drive to study right now. i don't know why. the more i hear them, the more i wanna study hard. yeah okay that sounds sadistic. anyway, i was listening to some lyrics of a heartbreak song today and i realised something. we sometimes blame a person whom we love that has hurt us, but fact is, we also sub-consciously hurt the people who love us. there's sure to be a group of people in our life whom we love, but don't love us; and a group who loves us, but we don't feel the same way for them.. think about it. people often complain (so do i) that the other party is a jerk/bitch for playing with them, and for walking out the door.. sometimes truth is, the person really did hold a torch for them, and they really had their eyes only on them.. but feelings just got lost for some reason, and it can't be helped.. they didn't expect this to happen anyway. and, we can't force love once it's gone. sometimes, the heartbreaker isn't the bad fella.. and they didn't choose things to go that way either. they had the same amount of hope and faith in the r/s just as much as the other party did, but some things just don't always go right.. it'd be even more selfish to go on deceiving each other when it has become a one-sided affair, and it'd be unfair for the other party if they keep lying through their teeth claiming they love them when it's total bullcrap.. yup! oh man okay yeahh. most importantly, we ought to cherish those who love us dearly cus erm, they love us. muahah.

school is ending soon for the sec 4s.. we're left with almost just one to two months together.. treasure the time left you have with your friends, while studying hard for the wicked Os.. haven't said this for quite some time, but it has always been so la! MAO KENG, NIC, HAZEL, SHEILA, NINNY, QI, SHAM, NAT AND BECKY! especially love yall like fucks. you guys make me :)))))).. and so do the rest who makes me smile with every little sweet things you guys do.

How do I live without you?
How could you walk away from this
just walk away from this again?..

replies.
anne: yeah okay. awww, i miss you too! yeah thanks. i'm finee! (: hope you are too.
van: heh, thanks. hope you're doing fine!
glynis: yep yep! love youu.
merelda: haha yeah! we'll mug like crazy shits and do well!

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