_____________________teachers' day cum youth day performance!
Wednesday, August 31, 2005 ; 8:05 PM

sigh, this is gonna be a long entry.. shall start on a happy note first. school today was uber fun. FUN FUN FUN. ever since youth day two years back. haha. had teachers' day celebration today.. was supposed to end at 12.. but we got released at 1pm cos the teachers put up a belated youth day performance for us! :) how sweet of them. they wanted to make up for youth day when they were too busy then.

anyways, the teachers' day concert was all well, but the real fun only began when the youth day concert started. it was so funny please, we all laughed till our stomachs hurt. they had this "SJC Idol".. where joyce yeo impersonated ryan seacrest as "joanne seaweed" (whatever that was for), christopher sim as "christopher simon", cindy soon as "cindy paula" and mary charles as "mary jackson". LAUGHS. and that's not all. the other teachers had videos on silly adverts that were damn crappy, we couldn't stop laughing.. they didn't care how they looked inside and acted like a bunch of lunatics but nevermind, that was the fun of it. den a few others acted as the sjc idol hopefuls rejects, where they copied the ugly side of the contestants. hahaha. i like chia jun ru's one the most. she was saying in a singlish manner, going, "i like jolin tsai so i am going to sing kan wo 72 bian. i think that the song is very nice and jolin tsai is so pretty hor, i think i look like her also lor." den she started singing the song with those act-cute hand actions and singing outta tune. lmao. den she got rejected and came outta the studio going, "i can't believe this. the judges are going to regret! my voice is so nice lor, everyone says so lor. i take up singing lessons also lor. people all say i sing so well. the judges are gonna reeggreeettt." lmao. damn funny.. and many other funny stuffs the teachers did.. everyone around me were cheering and stuff we all lost a little of our voices, and i almost turned deaf. after the whole performance, 4F did a class thingy for mr tan and chan. bought them cake and made a video bout them. awww, my class's so sweet. :/ chan showed us his baby's photos. so fakking cute i swear, her cheeks look real nice to squeeze.

toi and i went to find the tchers to give the tchers' day gifts and hiked off to town. heh. she bought this quite cool volcom tote bag and i bought the NIKE SHOULDERBAG!!!! hahaha. two things strike off my wishlist. it's nicer than the adidas one, and so i don't want the adidas one anymore too. woopee. i love my parents man. i kept begging them to gimme money to let me buy this morning, and they finally let me, probably seeing how obsessed i am over thaty bag, and handed me 80 bucks.. the bag was supposedly 82 bucks, but cos it was the last stock (luckily!) and they had some discount, he gave me 20 percent off. :) the bag rocks man.

took bus back and rushed home for tuition at 5.30.. malcolm said my bag's nice too. heh! yup.. he brought along his other student and did some chem.. damn i seriously needa do something bout my chem. :(

that's all for today. yesterday was shit. i couldn't sleep at night and kept thinking about everything..

dear you,
i'm so sorry. i'm so sorry for whatever i've said and done. the last thing i'll ever wanna do is to hurt you. i didn't expect things to turn out this way.. i thought we could still be the same.. i miss the old you, i miss the you that i fell for. you just shut yourself from me, and you've changed so much that i don't even know you anymore. i hope in time you'll realise that this decision made is for the better of both of us. we're so distracted with ourselves that we don't realise it, and it is actually killing us softly. Olevels are important, and love can wait. i hate to see you like this. please do concentrate on what's more important for you, right now. don't say that i do not care for you, cos if that is so, i wouldn't even give a shit about how you're feeling now or whatsoever. it bothers me to see you like this. i'm serious, you've been the greatest. you were so sincere, and you've always tried your best to make me happy. but i guess cos of what has been happening between us when we're together, i feel quite shocked and bothered and i often think to myself, this isn't me, this isn't what i should be doing, especially during this period of upcoming Os. it's not you, it's me. you were willing to change and salvage everything, but i just couldn't accept the fact and forget about it. come to think of it, i guess you really don't deserve this kind of treatment. i'm sorry i led you into this.. i guess i'm just asking for too much. no, studies wasn't used an excuse.. i want us to do well. you are distracted, you know it yourself. i hope you'll finally realise how much the decision made will help you.. in the meantime, do take care and we can settle the stuffs our exams.. for now, i'll still be here.
love; me.

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